rainbows n laughter

there was a huge rainbow ...one week ago. do you manage to see it? its been so so long since i witness such a bright and huge one.

hm. never though i would witness a lingerie shot too! model: maxine photographer: KK. venue:hotel re! the bed: bery nice & soft & alluring. hahaha.

it was a pretty cool experience to see the (semi) pros do their stuff-even tho i was watching at the side.

those who dun need to take photo or be taken photo of professionally, can just be a regular cam-whore!

i love them! & i guess we dunno where to look.

i love her singing as well. very very nice. & i think she is very very pretty too.

the past week, i was really being an immature kid @ work. n i totally understand it was stupid & uncalled for. my bf helped me realize first & foremost. i hope its not too late to realize it. & i am on my way to being a true blue pro!

how can i not be contented

hm. my bf's sis is in marketing & she kana retrenched. how unfortunately it is, but i dont think she will be crying over the lost job. i dont get any vibe that she loves it.

so again, i am counting my blessings that
1- i have a relatively stable job- i am a confirm perm staff! (i am still keepin fingers crossed though) i do LOVE my job though. sincerely. i love my colleagues too! i love the office durian tea party too!

work has been pretty slack. i dunno why. is it becoz i am forgetting to do something???

i feel quite unstretched at work. ... ... the most exciting thing everyday is planning what outfit to wear to work. very bimboatic... but thats true.

2- no financial issues for me- as long as i dont buy another 10 pairs of shoes within 3 months. besides, i have a very practical reason not to buy shoes- i have no more room for them in my house! HAIX.

3- i am healthy- even my myopia stopped increasing. maybe next year is a good year to do lasik and do a double eyelid job on the way, by the way, heeheehee.

4- i have a lovable bf who simply adores me. yes! he adores me as much as i adore my shoe collection. which is ... a LOT!=) i strongly feel its better, safer even, for a bf to be more in love with the gf than vice versa, though i know thats highly selfish. but thats just the way i view the game of love.

5- i have my family and friends. friends... not a lot but a few true ones are more than enough.

now, i just need to be prudent, save some monee and go on holidays and i will die happy.

work reflection

sometimes when i wake up, the first thing that come to mind is work-related. i have to say, i really have nice colleagues who make working enjoyable. that is strictly some of the times.

sometimes, i magnify my mistakes to such a huge extend that i just FEEL DAMM LOUSY. which is most of the days. actually. hahaha.

then today, my GM says, sometimes we dont need to set such high expectations.



really????????!!!!!!!!!!

crabby day.

how does purple contacts look? just curious. yes, it was vday 2 days ago but seriously, bf & me dont give a damm about it. i aint upset abt no flowers or no present since he splurge on birthday gift for me already. i wont ask for more( unnecessarily). hahaha.

we had always always been talking abt eating crabs so we took this occasion to splurge on crabs!! we went to this ulu ulu seafood place that doesnt have a bus stop within 400 metres!

mere mortals who cant afford taxi or own transport will never bother to go there.

n we wanted sixty min (!!!!!!!) for one chili crab and one salt baked crab. yes, thats how crabby we were feeling. we ordered nothing else but crabs! we were just damm worried we would waste food- better not take the chance.

the chili crab - good! just nice for people who like it mildly spicy but cant take real spicy. so it was a little not spicy enough for me. but i wolf down half! more than what bf expected. YUMMY.

the second was salt baked crabs. while waiting, i actually already saw numerous salt baked crabs served to other tables. it is the crab which you can taste the original taste of its meat n texture.

i really really had a lot a lot of crabs that day...

2 crabs costs us sixty plus. which is cheap i guess.... for the kind of standard. my friend recommended this place n said its famous. i guess it is ... silently famous & letting the food speak for itself.

not that we spend vday totally on hawker fare... we went for thai food the day before. he was sharing a story on how he made his colleague laugh so hard that he spurted out his drink.

he did it to me too!!!

he said something which i found so funny that i always choked on the mango slice that i was chewing on. he said he could see my saliva spewing out. EEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWWW. major loss of image. but i am more concerned i dont get choked by laughter and die laughing, tho it isnt a bad way to end a life. hahaha.

old friends

alyssa, my old friend. so glam in the pic coz she was going to a dinner. i think i look like a kid next to her.

friendships are really hard to maintain. my new year resolution to keep in touch with old friends is proving to be quite difficult. then again, for those friends who bothered, i know those peeps are for keeps...=D

this year CNY was short n sweet. more colleague gave out red packets!! whahaha.

a lot of relatives said i am looking better/prettier. well, of course. since i switched to contact lens, eyelid tape, fake eyelash, eyeliner, BB cream, eye , cheek and lip color!

the power of makeup and my time&money investment!

there is no ugly woman -only lazy woman!!!

i complain

i like going to library. i love books. i also love magazines.

i look forward to reading every single page of the novel or the magazine articles. i was confused when i couldnt find the pages stated in the magazine- did i repeatedly flipped over it????

imagine my shock and disappointment to see that the pages of the magazine which i just borrowed not being there- coz they were torn away.

i am disappointed. i am even more outraged!!

that person who tore out the pages of a book is destroying the book and rendering it incomplete!!!!! i had seen countless teen magazine whereby the celebrity pic is cut or tore out.

those bloody teenagers should be educated on what a public library is again! what is so good with being a destroyer??

some people are such a disgrace with no sense of communal spirit. selfish with a capital S. lets stop pretending that singaporeans can be or learn to be gracious... at least within this generation- just look at the way people board trains. we need announcement to tell us to stand behind the yellow lines. we need billboard to teach us to treasure our lifes as if we dunno life is precious, even if some ppl treat it like dirt.

really! what has the government got to do, when ppl are wanting to commit suicide?? they also have to play the part of counsellor? incredulous.

we have so much room for improvement.

all things good

Have you heard her voice? she is so damm good!! search for 梁文音 and 最幸褔的事, you dont need to uhderstand mandrian to be touched by her vocals and the story she is telling.

ZH and me broke record already la... spend the whole of ytd, from 12- 9 pm, walking and walking and walking!!!!!!!

it was a planned day, meant for shopping and buying and eating and we did a lot of that, a couple of hundered bucks gone!!

all this walking, we need lotsa food !!!! starting with $2 congee @ the first stop : chinatown. we gotta save all we can when its recession, isnt. damage at OG- $160.

after finish shopping at chinatown, second stop is Funan... which was about time for tea break. the toast at Ya Kun is damm crsipy. damage at Funan:$90

third stop is ... Raffles City! Originally intended to get my Body Shop Card from Raffles City, but they STILLL DONT HAVE ! we walked (somemore) to City Link to get that bloody Body Shop card so tht i can claim the birthday month discount... Damage at BodyShop: $50



then we went to the Fourth stop: CENTRAL MALL. dinner! @ Mr Curry. so japanese cutesy.


i think the food is not bad... pricing OK. i think the shokudo's curry is better, overall. hahaha. but the mango smoothie is damm rich n fresh. we can hear them crushing the mango into smoothie ( at least i think that was what the noise was all about and why it took so long) Damage at Central, inclusive of shopping: $90.

From Central...
we walked back to Chinatown. Full Circle...

we even join in the crowd to walk through the chinese new year market. love the mood. the jostling and crowdedness was uncomfortable but if one day if there is no jostling and no crowdedness, bet ppl will think what's wrong. Damage at the market: $10

ytd was the single day which i had walked so much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and the damage to the pocket was huge! i will be trying my hardest to NOT buy shoes n clothes... no space for new ones already...

Cycling @ Pasir Ris

it always great to enjoy simply things in life with friends. the weather has been great despite the huge gusts of wind. we still do things that we did 3 years ago. everything changes yet somehow our friendship stays the same! GREAT!:)

Spot the difference between getting ready to jump and getting ready to land.

me the camwhore. the camwhore's photographer is ahmed! nice!

us( not the perfect shot but i llike still).

and... i finished my six months probations already. i am a perm staff! for the first time in my life.

Prezzie for getting old

i got an early bday present from ZH. its something from one of the brands i like... since i dont have a favourite brand.

i just like the name of the brand. not so much its products & design. i went to the small one at taka and like nothing from there. ( but discovered that have 50% discount for their sales!!! will keep an eye peeled for their future sales!)

so bf, essentially spent half of ytd to gift hunt something for me. it must be tough on him. my legs ache from all the window shopping , his legs must ache at least twice as much.

luckily there is something which i like from its flag ship store! our efforts in making the trip down was NOT WASTED anymore! YAY!

thanks for granting me my birthday wish! ultimately, it is the thought that counts and not the present itself. sounds corny? but it is true. i appreciate it more and am extra touched cause of the time he invested in looking for it and making sure i like what he bought. =)

the Argh Feeling

My lower eyelid has been twitching for a day.

my results for IMC is a N.A. heard that other ppl didnt get excellent grades, mostly scrapping past!!


why does it seem like i dont get simple things done?! perhaps its not 100% my fault but this sucky feeling is damm hard to live with...

i spotted a pair of shoes which i would love to bring it home... but it didnt have my size!

i feel as though Murphy's Law is overlooking upon me.

on the other hand, everyone is pretty excited abt my upcoming project. it REALLY is a make it or break it moment. i am driving the designer n myself nuts. with the endless changes. with the lack of resources AND THE LACK OF TIME. i just dunno- how did the timeline screwed up so badly, how did we discover what we lack only at the LAST moment when there is no one to help us.

i really do understand how come designers can hate their clients so much- coz clients KEEP askin for changes n never say everything at one time. AND they keep changing their mind. and waste their late nights and endless hours and efforts.

but thats the way clients are. leopards never change their spots. sometimes i feel very apologetic abt the endless changes. but we dont have so much foresight on our side. how do we find foresight anyway?

anyway, this current designer is really damm cool with all the stupid changes we have and lack of time n resources. appears like a damm cool professional. i am a satisfied customer!

bad service and feelin old

so why do i keep bumping into bad service??? maybe i can turn this blog into a records of bad service encounters. though i understand of course the number of people who renders good service outweighs the black sheep.

often i dont understand why do i not retaliate and just become angry and shout @ those ppl who are rude to me when they are paid for being nice. i just keep my silence and fume silently inside. madness!!!! this has lead to my first resolution of 2009 - NEVER BE A NICE CUSTOMER WHO GETS BULLIED... EVER AGAIN!

it is not me who feel the same way. if it was only me maybe i am the one who is the meanie, but my friends feel this way and ask why did i endure their rudeness!!!!

good question. why did I???? NEVER AGAIN!!!!

i will never forget that rude salesgirl in bugis level 2.

and that restaurant manager in pastamania bugis.

all righty- i dont look forward to 2009 and yet it is already here. it like, my best peeps just celebrated 21st and yet i will be 22 in less than one single month ;( and i will never get over it. lucky i have an older older bf.)

but as i grow older and work longer- i do feel more empowered. i earn my own keep and know what are my rights (esp towards those in the service line). getting older does make you wiser. even if it is only a perception.

looking back, 2008 was a year of opportunities. it seemed as though it was yesterday when i went to work as a coordinator and worked under 2 managers.

i had never ever entertained the thought that the dpt would reshuffle and they will convert me into perm position and PROMOTE me at that.

i had never imagine i would be discussing and planning the strategies and objectives for a brand much less MY brand.

sometimes i am really excited by my job scope. sometimes it is just plain scary and overwhelming cause it is so easy to fall below expectations just by virture i am forgetful and BLUR.

i would think ... while i am scared of 2009 - i will be facing it heads-on. now i realize how hard is it to be a brave little girl in a humongous mad world.

i got snappy

i took up the DBS credit promotion @ Cathay. a special prize for 2 tic, 1 drink and 1 popcorn.

the staff said they will serve the food to me when the movie starts. AND I DIDN'T GET THEM EVEN THOUH IT WAS ALREADY ONE HOUR INTO THE MOVIE!!

i was so pissed coz i was really looking forward to the popcorn AT THE START OF THE MOVIE!! i dont want them at any other time other than at the start of the movie. people just dont START eating popcorn in the middle of nowwhere in a show!!! at least me.

and the worst thing is, they didnt even sent it on their own accord. it took my bf 2 trips of out the cinema to ask them to send. i was even more pissed that their lack of service interruppted my bf's viewing coz he wanted to get the popcorn for me.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. then i did something i shouldnt have.

i got mad at the innocent panda. eh. yah. so another public apology for you from me.

i got mad at him coz he brought the stupid popcorn to me, when i was already mentally preparing to ask the staff to justify the incident to me. i wanna my money back! not the stupid popcorn in the middle of the movie!!!!!

anyway, i will never let them to offer to send the stupid f&b to me every again.i will just take myself!!!

at least the show (IP MUM) was good! 5 stars! donnie yuen portrayed the character well. the action was not exaggerated. it was real and breathe-taking and makes me wanna send my future kids to learn chinese martial arts.

the jap foodie in me

some friends & business associates has commented that i looked skinnier.

but no worries. i am still the foodie that you know me to be. i still eat a lot, a lot of variety but little in qty. i just eat lesser when i have stress. anyway, i visited 2 good jap restaurants recently.

the first one is the teppanyaki restaurant in Jurong Point. no need to mention names since i am unpaid to do so. whahahaha. anyway, i was seated at the teppanyaki table and thankfully no oil splattered on me.

the lunch set meal consisted of shitake mushrooms and garlic bread.... and also garlic butter rice. VERY fragrant. very nice!!
we also tried their soft shell crabs which is really quite value for money though i dont think its crispy enough. at least they are still reasonably fresh.

the bean sprouts look very delicious n platable for some reason next to the chicken.

conclusion: very value for money (for me) coz i finish abt 50% of the entire meal. cost me less than$20 for eveything above. me n colleague simply loves a good leisurely meal when the time allows...hahaha.

friday night, went to true spa for a complimentary foot spa teaser session. i call it a teaser session coz they tease you with what they can do and not let experience the whole complete session. i went with BF n he hated the attas setting. well... its all abt selling packages, it is actually quite cheap considering its $20 plus per session for 122 sessions per year.

the consultant said to finish the package within the original time frame, you need to go there 5 times a week. i WILL definitely take this up if i work in Ngee Ann City. i will just go there during my lunch break or after office hours!!! too bad i dont:(.

after that, we went to this quiet Jap noodle house near Cuppage. they have a roaring business even though they serve only 5 types of ramen and 2 types of side dish. they are authentic jap ramen makers!

even though there is only 5 choices, my bf took a longer time in choosing his dinner.

the decor- soft lights and japaese portraits.

serving coke in glass- i like.

the main characters of the night...

conclusion: i think its definitely better than ajisen. the char siew is so soft n tender! The soup tasted like its has been boiled and stewed for many hours. the noodles is very chewy, very QQ. the portion generous- even my bf the panda cant finish 100% of it. very fulling.

the pic makes me crave for the soup again!

xmas 09

xmas is just an excuse to spend during the festive sales. tho it is a religious holiday, it seems like everyone is "celebrating"it no matter what race, creed and religion one is originally from.

which is Great!:) we r a society which exemplefies racial harmony anyway. the spirit of giving and sharing is one everyone ought to know in life. i like shopping for prezzies even tho i often give presents which ppl dont like but i like. huh. haha. yah thats the truth.

this year's lights seems pretty mundane...

we tried to take a pic with the lights behind but block all of it away!

me in nerd specs...

n we were caught in the shop by the sales assistant ...

us after our shopping trip. truly, we are such shoppaholics.

this xmas, i caught a show called Twilight and it made me go GAGA. R.P. was sOo handsome!! *drools.

yes, i still feel like a teenage girl at heart.

the spirit of giving

there are pros n cons when the bosses are not around. we had a leisurely lunch while i cant get something 2 b approve>,<.

speaking of the leisurely lunch which we had at bugis, we had the Worst Bubble Tea ever! it is worse than Sweet Talk. they make the taste of Sweet Talk Bubble Tea taste as though it costs $10. 00. imagine how bad was that stall near the Bugis Village was! the pearl was soft & gag-inducing. the more you chew, the more you feel like puking.

should not haven been lazy and just walked back to SW if to feed my bubble tea craving. >,<


the cleaning auntie told me the insider news abt the company before the official email was sent... we gotta have a xmas present exchange! i forgot if we will be having half-day. the email also states some banned items e.g. body wash & mugs. we are supposed to get creative. -.-

the best thing abt xmas is the symptons of xmas and it is the four letter word which i love so very much! S A L E !!!!!

even though buying prezzies is a hassle but it is a nice feeling to know you are getting your loved ones something. the spirit of giving is overwhelming! isnt it fortunate that we can be in position to give?

over

my degree programme is over! 18 months of my life, slogging over projects and essays... blink n it went away just like that.

my mid year appraisal was just over too! my boss remarked that i am not an ambitious person. if i do not aspire to be at a higher level, i do not need my degree.

how practical is that. but everyone is entitled to their own opinion though i didnt agree with hers. i want to be qualified before i grow to be ambitious. anyway, these 18 months were relatively short and painless. i am enriched with all the concepts n theories which i am hoping to throw in my bosses' faces to wow them.

anyway with my degree classes over... how should i maximise my time? what classes should i take?

i love shopping- "photoshoot"

firewire is gonna have a group calender and everyone has a photoshoot. mine was a shoppingqueen theme. even tho it was taken with pro lens, friends has said it looked like i cam whored. but wat can i do seriously man?? as least it was a nicely taken cam whorish look. hahahahaha.

clothes , bags , makeup and props and accessories and pose all designed and brought by model herself. heeh.

this must be the first occasion when teckie looks more demure than me, when i have a monkey face while she doesnt! i can see the shadows which are being cast by my falsies!!;D

we were also contemplating to do a foodie-theme as well. BERY MII!!

we still manage to squeeze a birthday present opening ceremony for AH HO!!!:)

this is taken in terminal3!! imagine me a woodlander travelling so much. which reminds me, those poor holidaying people who were stuck at BKK's airport. those poor people who were holidays in Mumbay. there is no wrong that they did except be in the wrong place at the wrong time.

even more so for the young lady who had so much in front of herebut were sacreficed in the senseless moment for terror. it is blood chilling to know how effortlessly those people killed. are they people still?????

in any case, i am still wishing for a holiday!

i dun believe in people appearing at wrong time and wrong place. i only believe in meant to be. however tragic that it was, it was meant to be. if not, why is it that bad stuff happen to equally innocent and promising people when nothing differenciates me from you from them.

R.I.P

now- recess...ion

i love recess when i was young and in school. heehee. spent it payling hopscotch or five stones or eating and people-seeing in canteens.

anyway, now, everyday- the papers mentioned RECESSION. so do my bf, too. recession is depressingly scary- people lose their jobs. we should be thrifty. bleah bleah bleah. but the point of recession is that the economy is shrinking coz people aint spending- there is a lack of economic activity! vicious vicious cycle.

the rich should just keep spending please. preferably they should spend on the poor, but since when anybody understood the term "charity" in favour of "hendonism"??

the poor should be thrifty. the rest of us in between should spend only if we can afford. the last point being what TNP columnist advocate and i totally agree simply becoz

i am such a spendthrift. i am love buying cheap things! i am stil counting down to a holiday. its time to wind down WIND DOWN!

though yesterday was a pretty wind down day. my bff actually told me she tried to apply for a HBD flat n was rejected coz she isnt 21 yet. LOL. n then went to watch Magadescar 2. cute show! i also am anticipating Monsters VS Aliens more! the tralier was damm good. :)

honours n honoured n dishonoured

got a mail tht is inviting to me study for honours. one year in perth. will be damm shoick and this is yet another chance to study n live abroad. but since it takes 30k!!!!!!!... y get myself in debt SooOOO much when i can have a choice.

anyway. i had yet to finished my last sem. god knows how my last sem will turn out. maybe i wont qualify afterall?

i didnt managed to meet my deadline. there r times my boss ask me, why i haven do this or do that. but aint i suppose to proritise??haix. luckily my suppliers can help me. they stand to gain financially. why not right.


ytd, met an annoying cabbie who used to be in sales-FMCG. he wasnt armed with a degree... so he was slowly kicked out of the industry n has been out for 10 years. i wish i wasnt in his cab.

dear cabbie, my not takin any effort to make any sales pitch to you does not mean the pdt is lousy lor. it means my sales pitch IS lousy and you didnt manage to differenciate that. anyway, i cant be bothered to pitch to u-.-/ u aint remotely my target audience and i dont like talking to you one second longer than i have to.

instead of tellin him to shut up, i just kept nodding in agreement unethusiatically. i take pains to avoid conflict when possible. i thought when there is nothing to argue about maybe he can just talking abt OTHER stuff. but he kept going. he intepreted my lapse in response and unenthusiatic reply as an attitude toward my job n pdt rather than taking it as a sign of a lack of interest in a one-sided conversation.

he thinks he is so much better coz of his wealth of experience. but those experience has been outdated. bleah. is obsolete experience ever valuable?

GAH!!!

lucky?

i guess there has been one thousand and one person who has commented that i am in a "lucky" position. the latest to do so is my...GM!

ahhhhhh. i hope i am not abusing my luckiness. anyway, the launch event was one mixed with wet weather and battered feet. my poor feet! lol. walking up n down the 2 stories need amazing endurance and strength.

speakin of feet, i am really a shoe-poholic!!! every1 has a weakness guess mine is shoes n bags. i got 2 pairs of shoes mended by a shirtless highly educated cobbler and bought another pair in town. very indulgent, i know. lol.

crestfallen

i am been a bad bad girlfriend. i had been putting my friends and even colleagues above him!

it was agreed that i will bring him to the james bond gala premier but i last min am going to bring my gf cause i am eager to matchmake her with my AP boss. such a natural occasion for them to meet is just too good to be true n how can i just let it slip and wait for another god know how many months?

he was absolutely crestfallen but he being the nice guy he was supposed to be, just said OK. ARHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. i am sorrrrrry. i had apologized to him one million times. i still feel VERY bad.

me being, an aquarain, just somehow puts friendship above love, more often than i should. even tho friendships had hurt me more often than love. even tho my love now is treating me way better than friends.

anyway, gala premier is this Thur and the press launch is this Wed. after this, life will be way more normal.

i am been stressed. bery stressed. my mama is screaming at me to stop "dieting". erm. i am not like... dieting u know. but its just so stressed and hectic that i tend to eat lesser. n the junk food i eat at large volume, doesnt seem to register on my body... (yet???)

or is it because of the caffeience i take? afterall , my heart does beat faster and i feel adrenaline pulsing through my veins more often. then again, maybe those were the times, when i realized i did something wrong (again) and the adrenaline rush comes as i scrambled frantically and madly for a solution to make myself look less bad.

GAWD!!!!!!!! save. me. from. myself. pleaseeeee.

success

today i could laugh and smile and joke loudly and carefreely.

yesterday i could not.

yesterday, everyone had worries and fears about me not up to the standard as an engaging presenter to 100 store managers. my boss could tell that i was presenting for the sake for presenting. i was finding premiums , half past six premiums, for the sake of finding premiums.

yes , she is right. i had no heart in doing those things and it was unprofessional of me. if i did not have the passion, i am not a true marketer yet, in her opinion.

well, the truth is... i didnt ask for any opinion!!!! haha. just kidding. but anyway. her opinion didnt stung me. in the end, much like my friend, my work is just a financial transaction in return for my work done. yes, to some extent, i have passion for my work. if not i will not stay pass six to finish up things just cause you say so. if not, i would not been stressed abt stupid visuals and stupid strip ads.

but, back to the store managers meeting, which every1 was feeling jittery about. it was like a make-or-break session , coz this is the first contact point the store managers would have with our brand.

i guess, we had a good start. we gave them drinks, large bottles of not-cheap smoothie at that. they must have felt pleasantly surprised. I had every1's full attention and appreciation, i guess. hahahahaha.

to present and to engage, just flows naturally from me. yes, i was being tested on situational improvising becoz the flow of the presentation had to change due to the crowd response. guess i did well enough since no one commented anything negatively. i passed with flyin colors! my GM says next time got any similar shd sent me...eh...?!

what does this proves?

i can do it if i want to. so there! keep being positive!!!!

but i could never did it "well" , if my boss never spend some time, half a day in fact, to train me. i owe her loads!!!!!

i have pictures too!!!! just not here with me right now.;)

no inclination towards housework

i dont have any experience with housework.

my lack of household chores expertise surprises many. they appear incredulous even. i guess what runs through their mind, is something along this line-you coming from a small and not-rich family has no maid wahht. so how come you r so "unskilled"??

geeeee. my mom n dad spoilt us. that is why. even though we r maid-less, my mom treats us like kings n queens and we nvr had to do lift a finger. even though we can. i love my full- time housewife-mama!!!

but. i know i will be doing those household chores sooner or later. yet another skill which i dont have any desire to achieve. the other being... driving.

psychotic week

one of the most pyschotic and laborious week. due to lack of budget but still want quality, you cant believe the level we stooped to. lucky my boss also helped. if not i will just resign n drop dead.

Faced a psuedo democratic boss. not that it's wrong. it's just fake.

Possibly launching another slow moving SKU. why i look down on my brand i also duno. just doesnt make me excited to think this is or this might be launching.

which reminds me. i am such a flat and non-engaging presenter. its just psychotic la. i am NOT excited. i decided that i shall be as fake as i can and see what will be their comments.

loads of things to reflect upon.

at this point of time, i feel unbalanced coz my pay and my commitment shown are inversely propotional.haix.

on the bright side, i am the sole organizer of a media event. AND THE MEDIA ARE RSVP-ing!!!!!!!!!! woohooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! keeping fingers crossed that they turn up of course.

a burst of goodness

i feel llike work is consumiing me and i just... feel life should be more than that. maybe the path i picked for myself is just forcing to find out whats my limit and i just have to deal with it for 3 more months.

to all workaholic- life is more than work. truly.

anyway, i had a burst of good mood and i turn into a shoppaholic when i have good mood. hahahaha. it just comes... slipping into my emotions though it didnt last very long, coz the next day i have to work anyway.

and when it comes to work, i always have things to worry about. just so pyschotic. haiz. i wish i am adam sandler. i just want to fast forward to which ever period of life, when i finally earned and accumulated enough of good karma and wealth to sit back and enjoy life. or at least fast forward those learning-as-u-fall- incidents... that r painfully embarrassing to my professional image. hahahaahah. as if i am a professional.


what can i do. stay calm. keep cool. at least i have a superb mentor/boss and colleagues to guide me. really, if they just let me do it all by myself, i will say i will be a headless chicken.

pisses everywhere

loads of shity and pissed-off thinggy happened. i shall not bother to recount it except to thank God/mighty powers above, that he/she had to give such heart-aching incidents to experience.

some people are demanding. on the flip side, they r just mad and psychotic.

my supplier tells me that he cant meet my deadline cause msians are on holiday. then what? my fault?! since i am your client, arent u suppose to help me???? pretty please???

feel like murphy's law is on exhibition within my line of sight. i feel so suay. i feel like i need to change job. i dont want to look at the same visual again.

anyway, met up with Evon and had a pleasant shopping trip in bugis. i love bugis village. i hope it stays the same even with inflation and recession. i bought. again. and again.

i am such a shoppaholic even my new class mates can tell. zzzzzzzz. i cant help it.

anyway, she broke up with her eligible bf. she is bouncing back pretty prettily. so things end. things only end so you have a new beginning. what is there to look forward to after an ending?

A new fresh beginning with a potential happy ending:)

i do not fail tho i am i scared i will

i can accept screw ups. but i cant accept failures. i manage screwups i created for myself on a daily basis. haha.

so it comes as a great relief to update my previous post abt failure of one module. i really felt depressed over that.

anyway. i did not fail!

in fact i have a distinction for that political module. i am just happy and relief that this was a mistake that has sorted itself out. hard work pays off, boys and girls. dont give up and keep believing in yourself.

my mantra. my maxim in life.

geraldine's wedding

there was a joyous cocasion recently, a sch mate got hitched! we r not particularly close so was surprise she passed us an invite to her wedding. anyway, its great to attend a happy occasion!:) we - the cam whores in the rest room. reflections are amazing to play with.

there is a lot to be accomplished at work. unfortunately, as i like to tell my friends, i have screwups on a daily basis. bleah.