melange

i made a big fuss abt not wanting to go d&d.

this after i made a big fuss about dying to go d&d.

the grass is always greener on the other side?

a melange of conflicts notions swirlings in me.

life has been so hectic that we didnt celebrate our first anniversay! can you imagine.... god! i never thought both of us can forget FIRST YEAR anniversary and be so bo-chap about it.

i see my friend trying so hard to get into marketing. i wonder about life. really, how do you beg life just to give u a change to try something you want badly? not like, we are at our internship period, where we can CHOOSE where to intern at. now we are other people's mercy to be CHOSEN. i sometimes think it really is all written in the stars!!!!!!!

i saw another friend's nic at MSN. it was "happy with this life". i am glad all/most of us feel this way. its the start of a new month and there is a lot to be count my blessings for. i know the grass is NOT always greener on the other side.

my objective before june, is to prove myself capable in my workscope.

if not...

its funny

i am lucky cause i have a predessecor who was excellent at what she did. leaving me no shit work to clean up. no mess to sink/swim in. i am unlucky cause i have a higher expectations to match and maintain. the fact that i am not at the same level is not relevant.

just do it.

its funny how much things you can observe in a small environment of about 200m2, if not smaller.

its funny how some people try to be diplomatic but authoritarianly at that. >,< they dont give you a choice despite saying you are free to choose. but what can you do about the authorities?? but to relent and compromise?

its also funny how some ppl think you can deliver something in a matter of seconds once they inform you about it. they assume that once they ask for it, its very "simple and easy" to get it done. inconsiderate self-centred pigs in human skins.

but its even more amazing how we can all have different farcade for each situations.

in all, this env is really fast moving. you have to change your face just as fast.

i am Not zzzing

i am going to out in less than 3hours.

its a full day which started with heavy breakfast, heavy lunch and buffet dinner! we r all such foodies!! today is company gathering which consisted of buffet and Kbox. we had 2o of us and the kbox room was humongous... though empty. like, not much deco one.

songs were very separated between chinese pop and hokkien songs!! lol. diff era la, hor. hahahaha. it was fun.

i hope i have more fun in genting. god of gambling pls smile on meeeee. heehee.

這裡發現愛

my current must -watch drama is 這裡發現愛. it made me fall in love with 許樂 aka Vic Chou! i thought the chemistry between him and 陳妍希, still an actress considered to be newbie, was great! haha. anyway, Vic Chou is my fav tv actor now!

they are so funny in their scenes. i guess i am only watching because of them.

in a daze

i am feelin as though i am a daze.

again n again, time seem to past too fast. i tagged along my first spree the previous week.

AM leaving.

dpt restucturing.

essay pending. no mood to pen anything about politics. so i shant pen anything.

going to Genting next Sat.
finally. though i think there is nothing much to shout abt there. i wan the fresh air!! and take many beautiful pictures back. i am packing my makeup and nice clothes over there instead of like going to bkk. so lok-kok!! lok-kok no more!! i been burning weekend with sch work.=( i missed out outing with firewire sadly. anyway genting will be a sweet sweet relief.

its time to think "career advancement". sometimes,i wonder how accelerated can my career be? i dont think i am in a career yet. i mean. its still just a job to me. i am still careless, embarrassingly careles that i wish i can dig a hole to hide myself and pretend i never existed. how am i supposed to manage anything?!

i really have a lot of self-doubt in me. cause i do have certain expectations of myself and i am not even doing things decently thats why i am... incredulous if they wan to expand my portfolio or at least discuss the possibilty of it.

i understand whats the feelin when celebs say they r happy just to be shortlisted. hahahaha.

from another angle -i never think how things can be worse. things r not good now. but i can make it better with bosses' help. back to career advancement, i dont dare to think abt it until i got the degree safely in hands.

in any case, it really is exciting to be in my position!!!!! i know i can do it. its not that i dont know how. its because... i do without planning? never consider from all angles what is the situation to best plan what is the best way to execute.


so there, i should properly understand my weakness. be swift to hear, slow to speak.

betrayal

hi.
turned out that i cant be trusted with a secret. i am repenting. i am ashamed of myself. and i swear... that i wont let it happen again.

the good thing is... it is not a matter of life and death. the bad thing is... there goes my honour and trustworthiness=X.



this week is damm fast!!! a bossless week with good lunch, online spree and too much sch work.

=X keeping fingers crossed

i got a mc for Flu on wed. today when i returned to work, i got a bad stomache which made my face literately white. i really felt bad. then i went to the doc when i felt ok enuf to walk and he said i was ok=X. i am ok. but i wanna rest n they said i should rest so i ...ask for a MC.

tho eventually i went back to work half day lo. did i try my best. i did. i did attempt to try my best. i duno why i am sick at such a 'fortunate' time. but still, i tagged along with lina for a trade visit for return stock.... very insightful. though a bit mystifying.

i am havin trouble wi th vista. it hates me and i hates it back. it slows me down. apparently only me find it laggy while my friend find his fine. it just makes me want to tear my hair out.=C

amid all these blasts of bad/notsogood news, i got a truly good news. my first time winning anything in any lucky draw!!!!!! its a dior hamper. heehee. cant wait. cant wait... for tmr when i make the trip to ulu genting lane. i never been there... :))))

and i have the invite to the DnD at KL. but no1 talks abt it. i think every1 too busy to chap abt this major time waster with a hawaiian theme. erm. god bless.

yay. its five thirty already. end of the day for my working peeps.

sat 9am got a big test. =X.

dear ong, ur version of the windows has been successfully installed! cool! now i gotta spend on a hard disk. again. coz i had yet to return the office's one to boss.

things to look forward

there really is so many things to look forward to! its good to be young. life has so much more experiences waiting for us to live through it.

today they were talkin abt annual D&D. i've yet to have any D&D experience. not sure will i be included as i am on contract. imagine u fly to KL just for D&D.... lol. a bit the... huhhh?! and on a saturday. means u work one more day lah. imagine seeing ur colleagues for seven days!!!!

prezzie called adidas watch

i had been talkin abt this for weeks!! heehee. i wanted to buy it for myself but bf bought it for me instead. hm. i have to think of a present for him too. afterall, one yr anniversary coming u know. so fast right? can the end of my contract come as fast as well?

not that i dont like my work, u know. everyone is really fab. abt tolerating my nonsense and short term memory.

speakin abt tolerating nonsense, think my bf is reallllllly super fantastic at tolerating my nonsense la. i gotta salute him coz i am not sure if i can stand myself sometimes. its like, i know i shouldnt enfore my values on him (SRC, anyone) but i cant stop myself.

he said he wanna ride that elevator thrill ride when we go genting, n i said No. cause i scared if i go to the ride as well, my fake eyelash will drop out as i accelerate down. he said he will go daiso to buy 5 extra pairs of it to go genting so that even if that happen, its no big deal. hahaha. i just feel its so sweet that he indulge in my whatever nonsense and even plan contingency plan for my nonsense. ROFL.

i love my new white headphone from audio technica. the quality is good. i am experiencing customer delight. heehee.

n my bro is off to NIHON. omg. so envy him la.i am turning green. fly to nihon the moment he has bonus. i wan a job with big fat bonus tooooooooo. i hope he gets a prezzie for me!

happy day- angela concert

heeheehee. my wonderful boss passed her free tic to me...so i am off the watch the concert with bf:) before that we went to collect the invoice(zzz) to genting! erm. that's six weeks away. and i counting down to it every single day. haha.

we saw kelly poon there at the show too! she was the centre of attention in our area til she shifted away into the darkness and til the show started.

this is the ugliest costume of the entire night. it was terrible. its a white hood covering her small frame. and on top of the hood, out grew large fuzzy white spores . freaking. really, no good words to describe this.

i thot she sang very very well considering she just recovered from the serious illness. she sang just like cd quality. the big disappointment, beside the opening costume, was she planted an audience!!!!!!!!!! what a disappointment to her mega fan, who ans the question rightly but denied the chance to sing with her on stage. lousy lousy ploy.

her guests, fan wei qi n claire gou jing also sang very well too! thumbs up. claire's songs have been playing repearedly on my play list. i like her voice. its kinda like sunyanzi as in not too sweet but got personality one. hahaha.

the concert ended promptly after 2h, inclusive of a staged encore. zzzzzzzzzzz. no ounce of spontanousity in this show.

as time goes by

saturday was a very full day for me. seems like i managed to do many things except get a few hours of sleep.

i went to 3 shoppin malls in total!one for lunch, one for library and another one for cinemas. n i only looted back one white top from Cotton coz it is the 1/2 price s.p and its the last 's' size and if i dont get, i never will...eh...

i LOVE sale!

i finally went to watch Ironman. after eons, i know. but the cinema is just as packed. managed to squeeze in time for the 9pm show, seated third row from the screen. i also very much like the kungfu panda preview.

it is oh-so hilarious! i cant wait to watch! n i realize... bf is build like the Kungfu Panda!!!!!!!!!!!!(or generally, middle aged uncle) anyway, it is hilarious to tease him abt it. that is one of the best things i like abt him, he can take all sorts of teasing so very good naturedly... n he can minic the panda very very well. kekekeke. laughs/guffaws til drop dead.

Impulsive Genting

we already booked the trip to Genting. 3D2N.

i hope to have some luck this time round with regards to transport n of course... when we visit the casino!!!!!!!!!!!! choose genting cause the weather will be nicer/cooler n this is something i am looking forward to soOOOOooOO much.

bf satisfied my craving for Botak Jones. went there in the hot sun but i felt it was worth it. heehee. i discovered that i cant praise him. he becomes all smug abt it. hahaha.

MH event

i was very blur.
boss say A, then say B , then i end up merging the 2 things instead of remembering A n B. lol. eh. i think i kana blacklisted soon. haix.


went to the MH event at Zouk. MH was pretty boring. even the ppl ard say so, cause i over heard. stage was small. host read from scrip. the sexy dancers got more applause than the contestants on average. it was just bland.... if this was a contest insipired from Cleo's Bachelor.... then Cleo definitely got the upperhand. hahahahahahahahahahaha. then then, K&M actually drop by for a drink with us!we talked abt holidays n shopping in thailand, bkk. we LOVE BKK!!

it would be nice if i can have a second hometown in BKK.



since yesterday, i couldnt enter my Murdoch database for my research. I CANT DO MY SCH WORK!!!!!!

斗牛要不要

i think it will be the best thing in the world to be 伊勝雪 if such a character exisits... that's why we watch shows for. to fantasize how great it will be if we can be the character for even just a day? all my fav idol dramas have 賀軍翔 in it. coz he can act so welll and have such great chemistry with the female leads and it makes the show so compelling to watch. the fact that i think he is Hot is besides the point.

i wish to be an exchange student somewhere in Europe... visiting cities n different countries everywhere simply cause they are just a train ride/short plan ride away.

but practically, i dont see it happening. i simply dont have the financial backing. nor the brains unfortunately. y would i want to be work my ass off to repay debts when i need not?

hee, but now i have a new aim! study/work overseas. cause i agree overseas exposure is very important. y be trapped in tiny singapore when u can afford not to?

maybe i should change my mindset. gah. then i have a lot of researching to do!! find accomodation. find money. ehm. actually thats all i have to settle to determine if i can go abroad.

i know he is good

i have been becoming dumber n dumberer. i am becoming less n less academically inclined.

sad sad truth.


was quiite depressed abt my academic tests,exams and results. i might as well get a A for it. A being absent, that is.


but the world wont end, and no matter what happens, i have a solution. just that it involves time n money. but the module name is marketing n development, that i wanna have a career in! isnt ironic if i just so happen to do badly for this? (fingers crossed and TOUCHWOOD !!! )


lol. i told bf that i am depressed and that we better do some retail therapy for my own good. and he said "ok. shop til u forget u sad". i laughed. he really did spend some time to go retail therapy with me even tho he got VERY bored. heehee.

i love retail therapy!

have to go mugging.

i missed reading for pleasure n entertainment.

kim gary hongkie cafe- the critic in me

went to this restuarant called Kim Gary, cause i remember kelly giang said its not bad. but i didnt ordered what she ordered. i found out that not bad= not good either.
thats honey with pomelo. OKay. nothing refreshing though i was expecting it to be. the red bean ice was too milky/coconuty for my taste. i will give it a thumbs down.:(

the surprise was the chili noodles. i didnt expect it to be bigger than my quitebig face!!!

its quite shoick la. the amt of fresh cut chili used is frightening. my lips r a bit swollen just by swallowing the soup. but the soup is nice. the spiciness gave it the hook and the kick. and the shiockness. but it taste very ramen-like. but its supposed to be HONGKIE. right?

the disappointment is the yuanyang baked noodles. the look is so not delectable. not appetizing. not nice. not crave-inducing. the piece of meat looked greyish to me. GAAH:(

think wan zai is better... you can rely on everything to taste not bad and not be turned off by some items.

so do u prefer a restaurant where everything served is not tpp bad, or have a place which has a few star dishes and other items r just CMI?

the critic in me was not satisfied.

simple things in life

firewire met up to go cyclin @ Pasir Ris last weekend!!! first time on a double person bike. the auntie said i CMI cause i am the one shaking the bike.... gah.
KK suffered a toe injury... as he raced with syaz to tell the others not to race, he cycled over his own toe...>,<

but still, he bear the pain n could munch away still :) big guy dont cry!

see the fierceness in his eyes? he is tellin u there is nothing wrong with eating cheese on top of a cake. hasnt any1 heard of cheese cake?

thats ah ho with the long beautiful legs. hee.hee.

thats us camwhoring away.

we are ALL CAMWHORES who love to take pics!

fav pic of myself for the day. heehee. requested by me. fulfilled by ahmed.


isnt it nice to hang around the way we did? will we still be able to do this when we r 30 years old? doubt it i guess. unless we have a mass family outings. haha. i enjoyed myself thoroughly:)

friends n ice scream

highlight of the KL trip was going to Hai Lou n listing to the semi pro singer sing. time pass very fast just sipping mock tails/bubble tea/green tea and listening to good voices sing. this is where those msian singers r often spotted to be in the showbiz!

did i ever mention i feel very time poor. i dun mind being money poor. i can just stop buying whatever clothes/shoes/bags. being time poor is another matter all together. how do u save time? when so many time-issues are outta your control?

met up with old friends for the past 2 weeks:) do i look like a twitty teen? cause we r already 21 and she is blessed with a kid...

yufen can shop with a baby in one arm. every sales assistant go GAGA over the baby boy coz he is quite obedient. doesnt cry for fun... etcetc/. but still carryin him ard is tough to shop. i gave up after 1o mins. hahahahaha. this lucky girl is off to taiwan for a mini honey moon i guess. haha.

then... the day after? met up with ChewYeen. omg, its so so so hard to date her out. its an achievement if she decide to grace her time with u. hahahahahha. we plan a ktv outing since feb, and only accomplish it abt 2 months later.

that was last week end... i think.

this week... i love friday. the workin pace just kind of taper off. after work, me n bf went to Great World City to eat. i think Jap food is becomin our staple.

first time at this restuarant. felt it was nicely decorated n got a authentic service crew who spoke accented Eng. cant confirm if they were from Nihon tho... the menu didnt call fried dumpling gyoza tho. it called them... fried dumpling. n wasabi isnt freely avaible on the table top.

ice cream... so so. my bf is SCARED of strawberries the way i am scared of insects. OMG!! it was hilarious the way he exclaimed in fright n hoorror and gore. hahahaah.

and then, after working ard the mall, we went for Teh Tarik ice cream. i love ice cream! it seems like i cant get enough of it. so i had dessert twice. we bought n just sat down to finish it slowly. he hated the milk tea favour n thought it was disgusting. but it is just frozen teh-bing. hahaha. i love slowing eating my ice cream while talkin to him. he is simple FUNNY;)

finance dpt only got one person n she is abt to go crazy. she asked me to help out on her invoices. but hey, i am paid to be a marketing coord and dun try to extend my job scope without expanding my pay. thank you.

unpleasant rude irritating

u know those mrt barriers that is meant for people with trolleys/prams?

as i was about to use it, a malay couple was reach the gate too. since i was faster, i tapped first n the door open, FOR ME.

guess what. that malay man went ahead to cross anyway. n me? stucked behind as that man charged his way past me. i shot him a dirty look. i felt super pissed off since today was so tiring for me.=C

n then, that SMRT fella at the control station saw the whole incident i guess. he told me what to do when it happens the next time "grab the man by the neck to stop him and then u scold him!".

hahahahah. i wish. i know u r kidding. i know such jerks n inconsiderate people exist who just charged their way through even when they r not chasing a train. Super WANG BA DAN LAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

my stupidity

things that is/r making upset ;C as of NOW.

1. i cant do the work i brought home to do cause the file i have, is too low to work with. shit!!!!!!! *tearing hair out* =C

things that made me upset today

1. the stupid coach/sch bus issue.

2. the prezzie i brought back from msia sucks! and the only reason i bought it was becoz i didnt check it. and its quite expensive too, considering i went there for cheap shopping.

i feel cheated;( in thailand, the thai stall owner was so kind to point out a small stain on the white top when he was abt to make a sale from me. not like this unscrupulous malay woman. just feel cheated and angry that i didnt check... haix. my bad.

overall, this shoppin experience isnt very good, just fair. its only saving grace is that some good brands r unavailable here in Sg. they dont even have cheap fake eyelashes which i so wanna buy.
but the eating experience was quite good! :) so was the KTV-rooms/pub experience. our hosts were very nice as well. without them, i dont think things could have been as smooth sailing as it was. a big thank you to them!