emotional vultures

I will always remember Mr. Peter Tan. He was good in what he does- motivating people. He was a damm good motivational speaker who injected humour in all his sentences , who made quiet people share their laughter and shy people talk about themselves. I happened to sit through his talk while interning at MCIS.


I signed up to be in his mailing list for his monthly self-help article after his talk at his open invitation. This is one of the smarter decisions I made- he gives great advice through his articles at a FOC rate!

This December, he had written an article about vultures. The vultures who feast upon carcass, who can fly despite being so heavy-bodied and also the emotional vultures that sometimes circle us endlessly, eroding our self esteem and confidence.

I can relate to that whole-heartedly. These emotional vultures are born from our past negative experiences... which we never truly forgive and remember. I can't forgive myself for messing up simple tasks. I felt shame for not executing a simple thing perfectly...

Anyway, anyhow, the stars above had blessed me with six weeks of holiday after yet another unexpected experience at the bank. Never did I expect myself to be free from the work stress and even school stress for more than a weekend.

I had a great time doing nothing for six weeks and that's 42 days!! Ha. It's been a carefree time, just hanging out with my friends and loved ones and only doing things which i love to do (which unfortunately mainly included stoning and sleeping.) I had no nightmares about anything whatsoever. (Okay, perhaps besides a concern about my pending grades.)

It is really time to forgive and remember the past mistakes, the past can only make you and me a better person. 365 days of a year will be gone yet again and just by adopting this attitude, it will ensure that everything that happened this year has not gone to waste.

Did I achieve something?

Yes, I did.

And I am sure that there can only be better things to come. I really want to increase level of positivity and chase aways those emotional vultures.

As he said in his article "Let go of your bitterness, bury it and quit talking about it, and the vultures will stay no more!"

Marriot lunch buffet=C

this boxing day, went to marriot hotel for lunch buffet. nothing to shout about cause... there is nothing especially excellent for hotel fare. but since, its a treat, just eat lor. since its paid for, one mustnt waste and just experience the astonishingly ordinary fare that the hotel served up.

but after so many hours, one item managed to leave an impression in my brain. the strawberry cheesecake. but then, its not perfect for my taste- the layer of strawberry jelly was too sweet. but the cake itself was light and delicious and doesnt make one feel sick after just a few bites. ;)

we shall proceed to camwhore. my gd friend since sec sch. we pretty much grown in different ways. heehee. but managed to stay as good friends. i think its a miracle!!

today was spent pretty much like a tai tai. after the buffet, went shopping and i bought stuff that i shouldnt buy. as usual. i cant believe that i spend a day in such a tai tai fashion!

she had inspired me to go pack up my room which i am goonna before i start work! must choose a proper day so today is OUT. heehee.

Manhattan fish market @ Central

we purposefully made a trip to chinatown to book my bday presentt.........lalalalalala ;)

we took 3 hours to finally settle on it. largely becoz we r running out of time. energy and most importantly FLIGHTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my god, what is the special deal with the weekend of 25 Jan? so many flights to good ole bangkok r booked in a blink of eye. i didnt make it in time to book the very worthwhile promotions.

my 3D2N getaway turned into a 4D3N trip coz we dun have flights to come back on Sunday and we have no monee to fly SQ. i die also wont spend on SQ flight lor. rather spend on spa,thanks.

so now, i dun get to stay at baiyoke sky. and the timing back doesnt maximise the 2 days unpaid leave i have to take. so i definitely have to maximise whatever time i have there. i've got 1 more week of holiday i.e. non working time left. so i am gonna make use of it to nail the best iternary down... but whats there to do besides shop? heehee.

all the walkin/exercsign made us appreciate our dinner more!! we went to fish market. and took the outdoor seats with nicer views. unexpected views.

actually its my first time at manhanttan fish market. compared to fisn n co, seafood platter... i think i like fish n co better coz the rice is better, so is the clam soup. but i like the prawns here better!!! but they had good service!! and the flamming of the prawns made me love the prawns more. haha.

i am tired. my holiday is ending... sobx. got a new job to look forward to. note to self: stay positive. stay cheerful. stay happy. i can take all the shit when shit happens!

bkk has unexpectedly become a significant place in my heart. ;) six months aniversary will be held there! the place where it all begins! *daydreamss*

"xmas" firewire 2007

another firewire outing during the last week. this time teckie couldnt make it but we bump into her at kino anyway. hhaahahaha. and we r back in business- cam whoring;) we went to the Central at Taka. what's memorable? ahmed n kel exchanged dish coz the noodles that kel ordered was too spicy for her. >,<

and then, we went to chill somemore, plan how to celebrate our bdays 21st or not, and had mr 34 ( maxine's bf) to join us. she christened him Mr Oxley Rd, but 34 just stuck itself to my brain. hahahah. we cant miss out on the lights. and the photo takin opportunites that they created for us.

we had "family" portrait taken too, courtesy of Mr Oxley Rd. now that i thnk abt it, i dunno his real name. hahahaha. not my business anyway. but we r missing rach n teckie n syaz who had to run off to his family supper. n that concluded the last mass-firewire outing of the year.

chocolate fondue

i had got a craving for CHOCOLATE FONDUE.

i even search on the net n discovred that hagaan daazz's fondue is quite recommended, so i went there and found out it is actually quite ex... for a poor and humble person like me! but its ok, once in a year ( this year anyway) and it is NOT on me. heehee.

this one is abit different from this regular fondue coz all the ice cream dough were chocolate flaveoured as well!! and its got waffles and biscuit sticks and no strawberry!!!!

but the pot could contain 2 types of chocolate souces. the mint one was on the bitter side but this is good news. all the sweet stuff could a tiny bit of bitterness.

and its time for some pictures to entertain our selves!

i. am. just... enteraining myself. heehee.

p.s this is a marshmallow regardless of its appearance.

chocolate pokey- under construction.

he caught me when i wasnt lookin!

us!

the warlords

i dont reallly know why, but i really like this film.
is it because of the heartthrob kaneshiro?
or simply the really good direction n acting?

i sat through this film,
heart thumping, fist clencing.
and felt most relieved when there is no fighting scene.

i dont really want to make myself feel so depressed
by seeing so many dead bodies n hungry people.

too real!!!

maybe that's why i like this film.
with its grit, gory and glory.
and death that was met by
almost everybody.
oh kay, btw since i wrote about hunger. i grew fat. for real. since i am forced to weigh myself when i had to undergo the health checkup. ( the clinic was filled with sick/pretend-to-be-sick blangah for some reason..>,<)

but I GREW TALLER TOO!!!!!!!!!
hohohoh, 2 cm ... kay. dun play play. i am officially 160 cm. dun need to round up already.

katong laksa

damm, if the can wasnt wasnt there, would it apear like we were drinkin tiger?boyfriend n me went to eat katong laksa. that's after my botak jones lunch with kelly n alex. what a heavy load of calories for the day >,<

its the first time i had the famous katong laksa.... at katong. (hahahahahahah, i cant help being so lame). the 2 of us finished it so so so fast. coz its nice. we got a favourate nasi lemak ( chong pang) and now a fav laksa ( 49 laksa). heehee. what's next?

i went crazy on him on saturday n now i just kinda feel annoyed at myself for going crazy at him. >,<. bleah. the more i think of it , the more embarrassed i am. stuppid fears n attitude that i had got, that makes life difficult for myself.

ANYWAY, let the both of us forget this n move on OK? dun mention it to me. i am gonna pretend it never happened !!!!!!!!!!;P



i goottta learn to live in harmony with the imperfectness that exist in my pores and cells that make me up. i gotta learn how to love the imperfectness that surrounds me n make mi laugh and cry.

jb- r n r

met up with ex colleagues at hella asia... and we went to JB for some services to pamper ourselves. but since i am a foodie. i really only think the food is memorable. after an one hour custom queue, we reached there at 3 plus n time for a... eh... late lunch! @ Mac's. not very nice. super salty fries with salt enrusted fries. *ew. vanilla shake was sweeeter than Sg= too sweet.

after the not-so-satisfying meal, we were to achieve our aims. do our hair n nails!! a very idle way of spending time. very tai tai way of living life. hahahahaha. i justify it by .... only indulging once in a long while. unless my salary gets inflated again. ;)

well, by the time we finished our hair and nails... its well past dinner time. oh, i did a very stupid thing. tried on shoes after my pedicure and promptly ruined my chocolate colored nails. oh man!!!!! lucky they mended the color it back with a smile. oh my mood is still OK. haha.

we went to citysquare for dinner. ppl normally go jb for cheap seafood but since we r just 3 girls who aint natives... no seafood at some hawker. better play safe n go city square!! thats when we saw a nice stone grill restaurant. its only 15 RM on average.

and its time to be in business- camwhoring!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:)

and now, the food. the real stars of the night!!

1. tom yam soup. spicy n sour with generous seafood. but we kinda suspect its soup from a packet but anyway, the ingredients made up for it. we also ordered cream soup but tasted like campbell so not going to honour it with pictures.

2. The Main Course.

made me feel like a carnivore seeing the pieces of raw meat. lucky the oil doesnt matter like in seoul garden. and the fries r better than mac's.

and then we are done!

all righty, its the company that matters most in the end. and thanks peh li for treating us!!!!!!!!!! happy belated bday, evon. have a safe trip to europe.

i heard some1 from the company kana instant dismissal... >,< tsk tsk tsk.

these time of resting

it's raining nonstop and i wish i can sleep nonstop. omg. thats how lazy i am. too bad i gotta study for exams. and... i cant sleep all the way literately. as much as i want to.


guess what, i lost my atm card 2x already!! what a mystery... coz i know the card is in my room and i just dunno where i misplaced it. its amazing. how come how come how come????


i will miss the days of just lazing around and doing nothing and most importantly, not having to wake up early. why must we work 5 days per week? =S

working hard now is not for now... but its FOR THE FUTURE. so that i can live comfortably and travel to all the destinations that i cant afford now. to buy the whatever things i dont need. to live a life with sufficent comforts.

soon it will be time for xmas wishes and new year resolutions. time for reflections for the ups n down in life. and then... the growing-to-be-familiar/sickening feeling that i've grow older... and older.



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hope my brother have a safe n fun trip in thailand!!

seeing n hearing FIR

KK jio-ed me n i jio-ed yiting to watch F.i.r. well, been a long time since i spend time waiting for some star-grazing. glad to say that, they were quite punctual with the whole programme. and this 3 piece band was missing Ian ... or is it Real? haha.

the professional. and me capturing the professional capturing them.

okay, thats roughly it. since the pictures are mostly pixelated. ah ho helped me videoed their songs... must to say her hands r quite steadY.... thank!!!!;) n faye's singing was awesome! fantastic! really good!!!!

and after the star-grazing ... its time to go for dessert!! @MOF. coz i got the ddiscount card. pls borrow from me if u think its useful......haha.

before i forget, heere's what their autograph looks like....

and nope, the day didnt end so early for the girls. we went to far east plaza to shop and window shop. i shared my numerous, hilarious and horrifying mistakes that i uttered during my job interviews. i love girls' day out.... love window shopping/ shopping!!

actually saw a pair of heels going at 109.00 and it was realllllllllly nice and comfy. but. no, i think it was too expensive. that will be my target after i get my first pay from my next job. heehee.

and then, for some reason we were talkin about how to celebrate bday. well, for my 21st bday, i think i will org a simple ordinary BBQ with those wonderful extraordinary friends i have. heehee. it will be held on the 3rd saturday of january.(if there is gonna be one).

so here is a five weeks' advance tentative notice

-3rd sat of jan

-bbq dinner at beach.

how does it sound? let me know! ;)

pray

hello to the gods above...

if i pray hard enough, will you really grant my wish? if my wish come true, i think i will have no choice but to repay my gratitude by making trips down to your temple. ( not church). its of course done willingly, please dun mind my choice of words.

the days of not working, makes everyday seems like a weekend, a saturday or a sunday, with monday never coming. i swear!! i really forgot that there is friday coming. i was shocked n surprised that time passed SOOooOOOOoOOOooO fast. i love every minute at home.

compared to my bf, i dont mind solitude. i enjoy solitude... haha. i dunno why. i dont mind not having anything or anyone to occupy myself with. i love my own company. every1 shold love their own company!!!!! ;) ( all these r true within the context that i am able to stay at home, i dont like to loiter outside.)

AND

I AM SO RELIEF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


i am gonna be employed... again! mnc... again!

i am not going to be 'cheated' into doing admin again! but u know what, i am not an ambitious girl. i understand that you need to learn all the nitty gritty before you can progress and i agree with this theory. but i need to know what i signed up for! guess what? this position is meant to have admin work and i will bite my teeth through it all even if i die doing them. i wont give up again. no give up!!! i wont even entertain the thought of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but eh, i guess i really lucked out at hella asia when there is hardly any admin. haha. lluck does run out.

i am never going near a SME.even tho it might be "the largest SME". *rolls her small eyes.


ok... have to mug for workplace law. gambattene!!;)

aimless

i went to those interviews, one after another. i shot myself in my feet in my foot, coz really, i cant be bothered to keep a false front and look desperate for the job n so eager to please ... that would be my true weakness, dear sir and mdm who had invested 15 min of ur time to interview me and who asked me whats my weakness.

.... i used to tell my friends who r lookin for a job that if they r not picky, they will be able to find a job real quite. okay. now i understand that its NOT abt being picky, its just about your perception of the 'safety net' and minimum working conditions and your choice of employer. hahahah, workplace law keywords is etched onto my brain now.


oh, i had the whole cinema to myself n my bf when we went to watch a nine pm movie ( MAD DETECTIVE). the whole theatre was empty besides us!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it can be scary if u think too much into it. but anyway, i like the movie. the ability to see spilt personalities inside us, to literately see the bad voices in people... wow.

p.s syazwan is right! i would rate Enchanted six outta ten too! not very bad, but not good, probably coz i think i am too old n cyncical for the plot. thought that doesnt necessarily mean i see the bad first in the people though.


alll right, coz its december... people dont really leave their jobs since they are after the bonus, it makes getting a job kinda hard. (excuses) haix. i really cant wait to know how long it will take for me to get employed by some 1 i like. hahaha. sometimes it would be really cool to be like in a movie. while i can just click and be fast forward to the future...

.....=X

i never learn my lessons, always breaking promises. somewhat but not entirely.

what else? the workaholic in me is rearing its head.

now, i dont need to look forward to weekend. hahahahahaahah. and i hope it rains lesser. ;)

all this while...;)

tada... what is so special with this pic?

heehehehe. kekekekke. i practise how to put fake eyelashes. and while i am at that, i put the sticker thinggy to make myself have obvious double eyelid just to see how it would look. heehee.dont my eys look twice/thrice as big? I like!!!!hahaha ;) should i start saving and just go for the eyelid cosmetic surgery?lol.

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and Last last week... managed to squeeze in a cycling trip with mr hamburger...heehee. to east coast!! then he said we can cycle to geylang for nice food, and since i am very ON person, i said OF COURSE, LETS DO IT.

And we did. omg. GOSH!! super tiring and torturing to the butt... all the turns and curves... damm tiring!! meandering through the construction sites, argh.... but it was worth it. ( think of the calories burnt!!;) our rented bikes, at the front.

first up, the famous 24h serving tou hua.

this is the hongkong dim sum across the tofu shop. heehee. we r both glutton. it was nice. esp the glutinous rice( is that what its called?.

and of course, we must appreciate the nice scenery before ending the day out.