supper(2)

after ty showed me some stuff on Photoshop, went for supper at Maxwell food centre. coutesy of Joseph. could have taken pictures. but he brought a along a 3.2 mp digicam with no memory stick. effectively, he brought no camera. and my phone died on me.

woodlands's like, really uber ulu. HAHAHAH. no1 knows which road leads to wdl. lucky Sg road signs r plenty and one of them leads to wdl. lucky he can claim petrol.

there he shared some crushee-troubles stories. one lucky dude whom some pretty gal had fallen for. the pretty gal had even taken the first move only to be rejected by him! but still, she doesnt give up. still continue to do things for him. perhaps hoping to move him, to touch his heart and melt his guard. eh... i duno lah. anyhow say one. hahahaha. but this girl is really admirable. brave, courageous and determined. qualities that i reallllllly admire for i would never had such guts when it comes to a boy.

but too bad. she still faced such cruelty in the end.


why is it that i can remenber wat u did and forgotten what i had done?

our dpt went to shop n save together last fri. hahaha. i felt as though i was out with my parents... that i could take whatever i want and AM will pay for it. hahah. no la. i restrained.i controlled. i succeeded in behaving properly.

i changed place. AM sometimes yelled over to me. it could be so embarrassing... imagine she yelling what mistake i had committed and other dpt could know as well...=S.

i counted. i have been sitting at 3 diff places. that means, i changed place and telephone no every 2 months. amazing statistics.

i think i want attachment to FASTER end. its been months yet i still wished i dun need to wake up at six.>,<

no longer in my teens

hi all, among my friends, i am the first one to be outta my teens compared to those who had only been 19 for less than 30 days. lol.

today i reached home early .just nice. coz today is meant to be spent at my home sweet home.=)

today i saw BREL's CEO. he looked very distinguished and also quite Japanese. hahaha, dun ask me why. seems like a nice man , too bad his system screwed up on us. and on him too. it 'internal -server -error'ed him when he wanted to check the system.

only he couldnt even log into it when it 'internal-server-error'ed him. major oops!

today i got nothing much to do. i guess tmr will more than make up for it.

AM asked y the 3 interns from NYP r like not very pally with each other. HUH. i dun know leh. i wish i know. coz this 3 particular interns want nothing to do with each other? other ppl purposely want to build a wall ard themselves, disregard attempts at friendliness then that's it already what.

the most important thing being we r each fine being on our own.

i have memories on being dumped on my own by my own firewire ppl too. during orientation when the OGLs had to be in grp of 3s. who was "sacreficed" in the end? and why? coz she was thought to be able to survive on her own. with comparitive strangers. compared to the other ppl in qtn...

yup yup yup. nothing has changed. i am still fine on my own.



argh. i'm not gonna bring this issue up anymore.

l luv my friends.

how did our lifes end up so differently? my life is so drama-less compared to other ppl close to me. but it's okay. with drama or without , we all face problems . differnt sorts and different kinds. i am glad i dont have to face yours. HAHAHHA. thats when i am glad for havin such a plain life.

i love my friends. they make mi cry. no lah. just kidding. i am Not drama enough for tears. cityhall is fast becoming our lao-di-fang.lol. my sec friends celebrated bday for me along with the night breeze at Esplanade. together with a about-to-patched-up boyfriend of YH. who doubled up as an excellent photographer. still dun have the pics. BUT will definitely have them... soon. i hope.

spent 4 hours in Jean Yip to rebond my hair. total fell asleep when i sat down there. my butt hurt from sitting down so much. then subsequently, for the next few days, i just didnt have enough sleep. kept falling asleep on the bus. i am so afraid i would miss my stop.

suffering from sore throat. slight cold. and a maSSive headache.

_______

i have a headache everytime i think abt what i wan and what to do achieve them. there are numerous , diverse things which i wanna do but they always have the same demominator.

MONEY.

NTU talk-NYP co concert

i feel happy today.

went to the NTU Comm Studies talk with poly pals. as i surveyed the crowd and entertain the thought that i might go NTU and these r the new friends that i'll make... it made mi dread going to sch.

in the end, i have no regrets abt not being gd enough for NTU comm studies. the speakers totally...-.-

hello?!

the most vital... most important , vital facilities of sch life is the benches. we have small talk, eat lunch, do project, hold bazaars and have a short nap at the benches... therefore sch benches at the SCI are very vital in ur 4 yrs of sch life!!


huh... guess u r trying to be witty, humourous but forgetabtit. thanks.

so i am okay with NOT being able to "make it " for this programme. which appeared so yaya. "cooler than Engineering students? less weird than Lit students? "THE MOST GORGEOUS in the sch??

yes, humourous and spoken in a light manner. but still... yaya lor-.-

guess i will be doing a private degree at SIM.

then we had "high tea " at cedelele . eat the first scone of my life. with a spoon and knife. Hahahaha. listen to everyone talk. it was relaxed. it was good. i told them abt G.it is a relief to know that the problem doesnt lie with me. heck, its not my problem and its not a problem even. kkkkkk. wahtever.

then met with Alyssa- The One Whom Kelly Likes to Stare. Hahaa. we r so different but our friendship is so solid.

yesterday, was ushering at the CO concert. i couldnt spot alex and chin teck. but i have ur cd. maybe u guys should autograph for me...

and i am very touched that SAOs remenber me. i am used to being a forgotten character. anyway, i wasnt that prominent to them anyway. touched til the point of tears and supremely amazed that they have such good memories to remenber my name. (maybe cause it is easy to remenber.) ha.

felt i wasnt doing a lot for the CO Concert. standing there and sticking out my hand to show the way and even accidentally slapping a girl on the face when i stuck out my hand last minute while she was walking behind me. She VERY SUAY. and i very sorry. but very hilarious. HA.


at the last minute, proved myself useful coz i manged to help a pair of mother and daughter to find seats in the dark and quite full audi. hearing their thanks made mi feel good. then got free food and just horse around generally with ateam ppl.

lifa said i am going to be out of ateam. she asked for a reason for me to remain in the team. guess what. i didnt want to provide a reason. if you want to kick me out. so be it. i am okay with it. since i am gonna grad in 2 months and there is nothing much i could do essentially. cool. calm and a bit too nonchalent. haha.

well, u didnt know that i did feel sad but i refused to tear and acted it was no big deal. truth was i was very VERY glad to know it is NOT true. ... right?!

IPP stripped me of the chance to join the installation programme. OT made it impractical for me to go GM. but i am reallllly glad of the ppl there r still so nice and friendly!!=)

a long entry coz so much happened. if i was not dreaming. my friend is goonnna get married and i will be helping her out her dinner bash! hahaha. what a change in direction when we r not that different to begin with.

AM's father suddenly went hospital on friday due to heart attack. so suddden. so sad. i hope everything will be ok. it effectively made mi squash all thoughts to go overseas study. i want to stay close to home and parents and my friends. i am learning new things still. typing in chinese, even. haha.

introducing the new intern(k)

i bought lemons to freshen the air up, due to the unfortunate mess created by the supervisor.that was about around 8.15 am.

then, help kaidi write 211 for about 300 hundred envelopes. then suddenly, Mary asked me to call Eugene and tells me that there is someone outside waiting to meet a marketing rep. HAIZ. felt like i was pulled in all directions. Eugene wanted us to go to NHS, which is at CLEMENTI... NOW. right boss, not when there is some external party all prepared for a meeting...right? thats about 10 am

then this guy rep from whatever print company, was expecting a manager, too bad end up its me. somemore he so tall, literately looked down on me. But still, after confessing i am just a intern, he never lost professionalism, still went through his sales call quite nicely, perhaps more relaxed. HAH.

duno why, started to ask what i study... and turned out we studied about the same thing. except he went for a uni edu at Perth. that explains his eng accent. even got to know he is into production but too bad, doing sales coz bread is more important afterall. running out of time, if not, i could have entertain him longer. so too bad, dude. HAH.

FINALLY STEP OUT of the office around 12 pm. haha, 2 hours after the first call to E. took cab to the NHS. sun so bright even big-eyed K had to squint until he smalled eyed like me. HAH. rush there, pay cab fare there goes the money in the wallet. NO MORE MONEE. very envious when we saw sec sch kids with a BIG wad of cash nonchalently.

go there ... not very productive in my opinion. stay at office would have accomplish more.

i just feel today is quite eventful. like a whirlwind day.

i hate red

hm, went to see 2 movies in a row.

firstly DEATH NOTE 2. just so that i can know the ending for this series. in the end, every lead character dies. if you dont want to think about writing any stories about original characters any longer just make the original lead characters ALL die.


then ta-DaaH. the end.


then, BLOOD DIAMOND. NC-16. blood and gore. now i aboslutely detest the color red. yucks!!! red reminds me of blood. of blood shed. of war. of unrest and death. no thanks.

me and KT both think its a good film. yes it is. this film squashed my desire for diamonds before i could i even start. it is a quite a sad film rooted in the ugliness of the extreme side of humanity.

so, my new year was spent watching Blood Diamond, in angst and suspense. in disbelieve with how crazy , self destructive humans can be with each other. lucky i didnt have nightmares last night.



i will be older in 24 days' time. GOSH!!! ... GAWD. no more candy and school. it has become money and work. it really doesnt feel that long when i was in primary sch and being caned when i was naughty. HAHAHA.

how my priorites had changed. i want a degree. a carreer. a boyfriend. a family. and 1.8 children.
i want to study communications. earn a lot of monee. do lasik. i want to travel as much as i can. i want to invest my monee instead of just saving it in POSB.

but HAH. bullshit lah. i want to be contented with my life even if i cant have anything above.



cant be bothered to make new year resolutions anymore. they usually dont come true for me.

LAST week

it is over. the last working week of 2006. left office early according to usual standards. the person who is supposed to sign , didnt want to sign my time sheets on the spot. i mean, he said, can he sign in the afternoon, technically yes. and do intern say no? but when afternoon came he looked busy and i didnt dare to talk (disturb) him.

so i wouldnt be getting my pay on time.

GREAT.

i talked to chee keng. the very nice person from HR and i told what happen with the person who is supposed to sign and she rolled her eyes. the person who is supposed to sign probably wouldnt bite if i had asked him lah... but it shows that he isnt considerate enough towards his intern's welfare.


NVM. i wouldnt die getting pay late. chee keng said that once i submit, i will get it in a weeks' time.

i spent friday night trying to shop with kelly but end up just window shopping. hahaha. mostly. WAHAHAHHA. i need a pair of slip-on heels! pronto!

my feet is quite sad now. bruises/cuts/scars/handiplasts everywhere!!!!!!!!


to dear maxine... time will heal ur wounds. hope you wont dwelll on it.


lastly



HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!

shocked & guilty.

sometimes i dont believe myself.

i could upset my friend, a few continents away. made him feel bad abt himself and angry towards me.

i guess i accidentally crushed his ego/pride again. its something about me and guys and me rejecting guys. regardless what's their intention, friendly or otherwise. i panicked when i sensed his upset-ness, his anger. his hurt.

i panicked and didnt really understand what i said or more correctly, typed wrong. but he isnt the first guy to say that my name=rejection. ahmed syaz was the first to point this out, jokingly or not and i thought it had no ounce of truth in it.


i just want him to know that i am sorry for making him feel bad. and i remember a lot of promises which we made together. i reallly wonder will any single one of them come true.

rest rest rest!

got a MAJOR pimple near my lip. its causing major discomfort. i duno how come i am so tired despite sleeping for 7 hours. i mean, i yawn ... non stop. my eye lids twitch with exhuastion. and i fall asleep everywhere. almost. intern cannot fall asleep during work anyway. hahaha.

MCIS also had a party. 'party'. lol. think its fairly bad labeling. HAH. it would be more true if they put a 'tea' in front of it.

N today, i could finish the allorted work before time.even had time for some legal entertainment. kekekke.

had a off-in-lieu day on wednesday. thats just 2 days ago and it felt so long ago. i shopped so much that i hardly have any dough left in the bank. the good thing is, i dun have urge to shop anymore since i've got most of what i wanted. that being the key word. 'most'. HAHAH. i neever resist a good bargain lah.

and there is gonna be a new intern. i sure hope that it would not collapse last min. cause thats major good news. cause it looks like MCIS Mrkg could be doing PanPac's as well. the staff r gonna be so overworked. this situations had potential to be one of those case studies in our exam paper.

like, what r the advantages of merger in companies. the benefits of outsourcing and not outsourcing. the advantage is one person do two's companies' work. -.- think the managers have it worse.

i listened to SO MUCH 93.3 fm that i could practically sing to whatever chinese song u could possibly pick at K-box! thanks to all my colleagues there. kekeekek.

they like to joke tat i have stay back another six months to pay back for my blur-ness and for whatever not done right.

i am sure they r joking. so i laughed along.

then another guy said, besides working for another six months, potentially working for free, the situation would most likely deteriorate to ME paying to work for them. they laughed of course. i pretended not to hear. and resisted glaring at him or rolling my eyes.

he uses nice perfume. i mean, cologne or whatever. and before i forget, its kenneth cole's black. or something which sounds like that.

going off to sleep.=)

spinning around

YAY, the mktg team finally finish the website content updates. maybe need to adjust and refine here and there but the bulk its done. PHEW!!!

ever since the mrktg team starts to go on lunch together. we become quite crazy. I become quite reckless with my words. you know, the classic eve-syndromes. though my words are harmless and funny, it still might rub people the wrong way. BUT they would usually laugh first and say, EVE!!! YOU JUST EATTEN LEOPARD'S GUTS, IS IT??

okay, i will be careful to toe the line and not cross it. actually, i prefer not to be near the line at all. anyway, its been fun working with agnes, my Assist Manager.

she knows my weak points and doesnt ask me to any designing work. kekekee, i also have the real, convenient REASON of not havin photoshop at my comp. (thank god)

and there is also this guy, whose cologne is TERRIBLY NICE! i wonder whats the brand. perhaps its calvin kien? i have to ask him if i ever see him again. but the downside is, the cologne is there , mainly to mask his smoking aftermath. at least i think so.


staring at the computer screen for 13 hours is way too much for my eyesight. there isnt enough greenery in my life. and the luckiest thing i manage to GEDDIT. if not i will be so screwed upside down for the CMS update job. coz it always the intern's job. another PHEW!!!.


then after a eco-meeting/talk cock session at JURONG EAST... i met up with HCY to... what else. shop lo. i am going crazy with the sales! we were out from 1-8 pm and on average i maybe spent about $15 per hour. i am so gonna be broke. but somehow, i DON'T CARE. there is always the next paycheck.

on our way back, we saw some1 performing on a harp. some lady. so she looked realllllllly poised, elegant and angelic/fairy-like. i always associate fairy/angels with harps.

and thus, my day out ended with a nice musical note.

milkshake night

Oh my freaking god, 2006 will come to an END SOON. SO SOON!!!!!

Faint. Faint. Faint.
got my clubbin experience. Thought I would be like a piece of rock but with the loud music, the body just automatically swayed to the music. HAHA. The queueing part was hideous though. Coz it was the milkshake night, we were all like sardines but lucky got friend’s friends who could provide a helping hand.

But my time inside the club was cut short coz my friend had a panic attack. Yes. A panic attack. Coz she is claustrophobic and there were too many people for her brain to have sufficient oxygen and she had an attack. Poor thing.

And I bump into the Dinesh and Tim of all people. HAHAHAHAHA.

And I went to on a shoppin spree. Shoppin spree gives me a high. An impromptu spree. Wouldn’t consider it as retail therapy though. I realize I am more into comfort eating. Hmm, it would explains my (growing) size.

I think I cant wait for 2007. =)

further...

i wan to go Uni!!

we drank champagne. y did i ever associate champagne with sophisticatedness and classiness and everything nice and worldly?

hahaha. ok , whatever.

i wan to go jogging. i am afraid it will rain.

chOices

i've come to a conclusion.

what u choose is what you get.

and

i might doubt my decisions, but i dont regret.


the reprecussions r always unpredictable. and it happens to be worser or at least unhappier than i had thought it would be. i thought there would no reprecussions, to be honest.

surpRISE!

i went shoppin with Ms M&M and i took a pic with her. haha. my face isnt the biggest hor.

WHEEEeeee! i had a surprise present from my good ole brother. who is back from HK since yesterday. right! it's even wrapped. its PINK. -.-hm, it is a watch. i like. despite i am not a pink person. kekeke. thanks, korkor. i will try to be a better, nicer sister. ie refrain from crashin ur comp and buy nice food for u.

TGIF?

for the past Fridays, i had been doing major OT.

so what if its Friday? i still need to stay back in office and finish whatever work i have. work i would have long finish if they could just make up their mind abt what they want. oh, whatever... change is the only constant. at least i can sleep more hours after a long day at work.

my direct supervisor behaves as though she might leave this co. any moment.

will there come a day when this mrkting departmt has only interns and managers?

one month of IPP

in the span of ONE month,

i have undergone a change of boss and soon, a change of seating and maybe desk number? argh. whatever.

my brother gone to HK! bet he will LOADS of fun, joy and laughter and those un-mentionables. muahahaha. (my perfered kind of laughter now)better bring back something nice for each and every1 of us!

major OT

friday morning, I stepped into the office feeling quite apprehensive cause I was supposed go see some fierce, uptight woman for next work task.that karen woman whom an gie didnt have any positive feeling for.

I was afraid that she would be unbearably hard. But it was ok. Turns out that she wanted me to just tag along for the next field trip.

No exactly field trip, but u get what I mean.

From CME launches to F&N, to Printers at tuas, to Warehouse visit. marketing is kinda not-boring in its way.

I like! But still I keep making those stupid careless mistakes, like spelling errors!the truth is i always want to get things done fast, so much that i never check enough to make sure its perfect. anyway... I think I should start spelling things the way it should be spelt in my blog.

mi and genesis had to stay til 9 PM. thats 3 hours OT. i stayed behind simply to fax to ALL the secondary sch. boss arranged Mac for us as dinner. Mac 2x in a week.


Next Monday is the big day and I seriously pray that I don’t screw up for stuff under my charge. If not, I would absolutely just get a F for my IPP straightaway.
* stomach churning at the thought of it.

me and my cube

u r lookin at 5 days of my life.

i think i am satisfied.

an gie left. before she left , she had issues with karen, and karen practically shoot the messenger (me) when she talk to me abt the issue. in the end, she had her way and i hope she is happy/ -.-.

so the best thing is keep quiet and open ears big big.

then caught up with some sec friends. have they changed ? i dunno. if they did, i couldnt tell. hahaha. went to cafe cartel, i tried their new items and it sucked lah. pictures LIE. if there is ever a restuarant whose pictures doesnt lie , i swear i will be the most loyal customer it ever will have.

cheated by pictires 2x in a week!

so my friend and i were talkin abt r we satisfied with what we have now. r we satisfied with our lives now.

i guess i am. i dare not ask for more or think abt more cause if i dun achieve it, i know i will be reallllllllly disappointed. i think i am procastinating in determining wht i exactly want in life and how am i gona be on my way.

i wan to be a carefree teenager as long as possible. going to work is going to sch. except that whatever mistakes i make in work affects the company too besides just myself.

actually i like being in marketing. but as interns, i keep kana faxing. and following-up. nothing intense. i wish to lighten the load of michele, but i know too little to help.

got a new boss.everything changes again i guess. i definitely hope its for the better. put me in a more important role. hopefully not the web content management... i would just drop dead inside the computer system.=(

i was realllllllly snappish with M.Y. so old already still so uber lame. cannot stand him le. at first still think he quite funny and laid back. he is laid back. just that super cold. and lame. and not funny. total gets on my nerves today.

y cant i have just a straight answer?

the lame-cold-not-witty replies totally rub me the wrong way.ARGH.

book sale and its NOT media's fault

the book sale was actually held inside the F&N headquarters and it was in a ICE CREAM PARLOR!

It was decorated in old school American 50s style with Elvis and Marilyn as posters and red vinyl chairs and those record playing machines. okay, it was CDs instead. but it had a realllllly nice feel to it.


it was a sale of unwanted assessment bks and kia-su parents easily bought 4 years worth of assessment bks for their kids. i am glad i am not their kids.

and when (and if)i am a parent, i absolutely WILL NOT buy textbooks for my kids.
i think sch work is (bad) enough. HAHA.

then, we dug around for ice cream, it IS a ice cream parlor after all, and i found a strawbeerry cone which is not being sold in Singapore. it tasted yummmy!


in the course of work, got to know some MOE people and we started discussing about blogs and young people, blogs and dairy.

i suppose most of the blogs they seen r something like mine, just blogging about mundane things, stuff that made up my life. then they asked, so whats the use in letting the public know ur nitty gritty abt ur life? that i can i provided a decent ans. that it is an avenue where u can do catch up with ur friends' life esp when u haf no time to catch up in real life. its USEFUL!

then she commented abt why r young people doing putting their most intimate
pictures/videos of themselves... on the public domain? this, i haf no idea. i haf no idea why people r exhibitionists. i am a no pyschologist.


i also unfortunately have no idea how come young primary kids r exposed to nc 16 stuff and r actually following it without knowing what they r doing.

i would think that the blame if any, lies in the parental supervision more than the media. media is just doing its job! providing entertainment to its target audience. with censorship already in place. but if some1 other than target audience watches, how is it suppose to prevent tht?

by not showing at all? its rubbish lor. then u r not looking after some other consumer segment.

in short. i am just against people who totally blame the media environment. because , dont u realize? hafnt u realize?, in this shrinking global world, every1 has a part to play.


oh, and some MP's daughter's blog was shut down due to some backlash she received over personal comments she made regarding some remotely political issues.

oMG.there is no freedom of speeach or even ideas.=(

that y i stick to mundane blogging abt useless stuff.=)