canon dv

our cannon dv production... it was a project among the 9 of us.

they like to say the bigger the group, the more the conflicts? after all, too many cooks spoil the broth.


but i could safely tell people that despite our large no, despite our disagreements due to different opinions, unhappiness or whateve negative things we feel, we r always able to thrash things out in a reasonable way... ( it only takes a meeting.)

we would not habour any bad blood between us after that and our friendships would not be affected in the slightest way.

the broth isnt spoilt in the slightest way.

we are always careful to put ourselves in others' shoes ,try to remenber to think for the others, to be as considerate as possible, allow room to learn from mistakes, to explain to those who dun understand , to tolerate the occassional mood swings... etc etc...

we dun demand explanation. we help each other out as best as we could.we accomodate. we correct each other if one is wrong, and the one who is being corrected is usually grateful for it.( at least i know i am)



and we forgive and forget!

that is why we r still such great friends!... ... i hope!

my entry is history

if people chance upon/dig out/look for/happened to read blog entries long ago... and then find it offensive/hurtful/untrue...

i can only offer sincere apologies.


as e blog title already suggests, welcome to my world of imperfections. if i had to choose words carefully. might as well just shut it down.


i am careless and i say thoughless stuff, do thoughtless things. i change my mind and opinions at quite a frequent rate.

my opinion can be wrong. extremely wrong. i can come across as mean.


so i will learn my mistake.


i get this all thrashed out and conc on meetin the dl. and hope for the best.

thats the problem with" free speech". no1 said that what i think is right anyway.i am bery brave when it comes to admiting mistake.

its so...................... when i offend people without meaning to.=(

"mentally insane person"

this is qoute from my chat window.

Z says:
nothing's gonna work with an insane person
Z says:
you just gotta say 'yeah, whatever...' and leave asap

extremely fitting in my case. sane people can have moments of insanity.

interning

FA recently had 3 interns with them for a week. 3 fillipinas. they love singing and dancing. and there is one who loved cleaning.

they r cool. six months here doing internship with FA when they r doing studies on HOTEL MANAGEMENT. total kana cheated. they should be with at least hotel 81. dont u think so? and i think they r paying for it. pay to agency for arranging the accomodation etc. however they get paid by FA. but i guessed they still lower-paid. argh.

i am NOT paying for internship.

wil be working for 4 straight days. i hope i can wake up for sch, cant wait to close the chapter there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LA-ZI-Ness

5 snacks i enjoy:
1- Ice Cream
2- Haribo or other gummy candies
3- Strawberry Pokey
4- Dark chocolate
5-.... fruits? for the weight/health conscious me.

5 things i willl do with a 100 million dollars
1- Shopping?
2- Traveling with my family and friends?
3- just enjoy life lor...

5 things i will never wear
1-tube or revealing stuff.
.... i dun anything as long as i look good in it!whahahah

5 BAD habits
1- Too straight/mean
2- Too impatient yeti procastinate
3- Too bochap
4- Bingeing!!!!!
5- u can decide for urself...

5 famous people i would date...
1-takeshi kaneshiro
2- alvin lee? alvin something with the braces and was on the ruien show recently.
3-stanley Huang!!!!!!!!
4... dunno lah.

ok that was just a tag my friend has given me, so its done!


i think i cannot ceased to be amazed by how lazy 1 can get. and how technology plays a bit in it.

had it not been for email , we will be walkin around, sending stuff, instead of sitting down typing. we will be moving, burning calories. and not finding walkin a chore. even tho it takes just seconds.



whatever, i think i give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i will be the first to admit that i am LAZY. i dont want to think too much anymore. hoping, wishing, thinking, fearing, is too energy consuming for me.=(

what why how

i hardly make wishes. coz be careful of what u wish for. i am a believer of that.


recently read old posts of a besty. hee hee... so nostalgic. the more we move ahead with times, the more we cling on to the past... at least me. i long for those phone calls. shopping trips. gossiping over lunch. asking abt homework. combining desks in classroom... kekekekeke.


but still have to move onto the grownup stuff. but i will keep the not very grown up stuff inside me also.

wishing to read minds

if only we can read minds? then we wouldnt need to assume. we can just know. okayyy, i know its not feasible AT ALL... but sometimes i just wish I can read people's mind at important point of time.

like, when a person is trying to let you down gently and searching for gentler words to let u know the truth. eh... if i can read ur mind at this point of time then u r saved from trying to let me down verbally coz i would already know. and i can pretend not to know and everything's fine.i would know the extent of how deep is emotions you had really felt instead of only knowing the superficial part of it.

i am some one who likes knowing everything or nothing at all. =)


... national day and i spent the later half of it working... workin is becoming like a chore most of the time. think the eleventh month curse is coming. i just cant seem to spend a twelvemonth at any of my workplaces. someone save me from the montony. if not i become more and more grouchy when its the 8 th month, think about quitting in the 9 th month and finally quit when it is the 10th month.

then when i realise i miss my paycheck, it would been about after three months. then i would start to find a job.


i think that might still happen after i graduate and find a full time job. Reason for quitting? Work is becoming too sian for me.

insecurities

yes. we will be learning aVid after all. after 2 years of promise. i guess we should be satisfied when promises r kept.

some girls r such funny creatures.

his gf actually talk to me in msn, and i had to use my lousy hanyupinyin to talk to her. and she , to me, gloated abt having him.

ta shi wo de le.


ehm right. it struck me as an insecure statement. insecurites... part and parcel of life. tho i didnt expect her to feel it towards me.

couples... why dont they have enough trust with their partners and themselves? not referring to them, but generally i guess. but... kekekeke, i wouldnt know!

ms soo said we can consider more cam work. in- front- of the cam work. lol. if only she witnessed all the NGs.

AND... majorly embarrassed that i didnt finish the packaging efficently. ARGGGGGh. PH cant come soon enough.

4th epi host

kekekek... i was the host! together with keith. but no pic. maybe might take a screen shot later.

and it was a good experience. would have enjoyed it more if not the fact that i didnt finish packaging for my second epi yet. there was a nagging doubt at my head.

we even had khai as talent coach. lol. i am NOT a natural camera person. think kieth was better than me. his role required loads of acting! hilarious!!!!!! i cant help it . i laugh and then he laugh at me laughing then NG. who ask his audio no good and he had to pass off screaming as normal speaking.

thanks to my image people so that i can pass off as a fashion person , khairiyah for hair, Maxine and Farhanah for my face. first time i had wore a dress in school ! i just feel weird in a dress. thank god i didnt spilt the dress or what.

thanks for everyone tolerating my bad hosting skills. sorry for my NG.s. let bygones be bygones!!!!!! since "it's a wrap!"=)

arrested

my colleague was arrested when 19 because of driving with out a license. arrested.

so, that means he has a criminal record? kekekekekkee. his story was pretty interesting.

yesterday laugh so hard at work that i cant serve customers and almost choke on my phlegm. thats what i go to work for. lol. rumours has it that the breadtalk manager next door likes our manager ... so we get free bread to eat.lol. like one big plastic bag of almost not-fresh bread is very appertizing like dat.



only 2 more months to go! before the end of tep. i remenber when i was just casually chattin to felicia and she could tell me exactly when her ipp is gonna end, right til the number of days and hours.


i like hearing ssl sharing her past experiences. i wish she can have a sharing session regrading her hey days as an award winning producer. how many times can u get to talk to a highly regarded producer?

i got a bag

okay, so i finally splurge on The Bag. splurge according to my standards. not some rich family's only daughter. Hee Hee.

after one month plus of lookin, i looked and found and hestitated. needed that extra push and my mama gave it to me. i am just so price conscious.

heehee. whatever. i finally have a new bag! content.

i dun like people with big mouth. figuratively and literately.

sadded

i think i am so sick of TEP that i fall sick.

ok, i duno why i felt sick. could be the weather... catching up on the sleep. maybe i can feel better. the doc ask mi not to spread germs.

overall, i am just not feelin good about myself.

infatuation.

he looks so the dAMMM cOOL to me! ( fetish for bad boy with the crew cut, tan skin , muscular arms, lean bod and ... not so cultured attitude?)



he was crowned the best male singer... the same year Sun YanZi won best female singer.

my dearest father.

to my dearest papa.
HAPPPY BIRTHDAY.
and.i am sorry.i am sorry for making u and mama worry sick about me.

i never thought of calling you and mother cause i thought you all would be asleep anyway. i am sorry that i caused a sleepless night for you cause you thought i might be missing. i am still the little girl who couldnt take care of herself in your eyes.

i will always be a little girl in your eyes.

anyway, you shouldnt have worried. i spent the night holed away in a ktv room with my colleagues and managers, with smoke and green tea chivas, with bad shouting/singing, with also tears and laughter.

because our dearest outlet manager Amaida will be transferrin to Tampines after spending three years at J8. Jean weeped like a baby despite she was already 40 years old. thats how deep the attachment she had with the older crew members in the outlet.

i didnt feel that sad. after all, i spent only 7 months there and half the time i didnt work with her. but still, had to admit she is nice to all of us.

they drunk and drunk. to drown their sorrow and conjour up the High. but ultimately, they dedicated songs like Hero to her and sang it in tears.

saded.


anyway... change is always a constant and althou u should embrace it, you cant stop yourself from feelin sad.


and so, i was holed away in the ktv room at town from 1 to 6 am, til they closed the place, from the stoppage of public transportation til they resumed the service. saved from giviing the exorbitant midnight charge!=)

a night without sleep, followed by a oiishi breakfast at Casuarina Prata... DaMMMM NICE. way better than Jalan Kayu. i dun think i will ever go there again. again, JK SUX. bad service and so-so food.

big and crispy and fluffy and hot and tasty. yum!=)

again, good food seems to be at ulu places. was only introduced to it by joseph, and lucky he provided the transport. the perks of being able to drive. but still, finding a parking space is damm hard.

we tried to find the famous bak ku teh shop near balestier. BUT COULDNT FIND DESPITE CIRCILING THE STUPID ROAD FOR SO MANY TIMES. oh well, in the end, we found out we had the wrong road name. it was NEAR balestier road but not AT balesier road, but instead at rangoon road. we are a family of goons.

sadded.


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will you help me wipe off my tears/ persiprations?
yes. only if i have a third hand.=) only if there is a space for me to stand next to you.

bad premoninations

i just kept nursing bad premonitions. regarding... just about everything. its awful not knowing. knowledge is power unfotch, i duno whether its for my good that i dunno anything.


trying to be calm, keep cool. and dont lose my head.


move forward with my initiative. take control. take the lead. if only my guts can override my brain. ArGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

my first pedi ...

all righty... this is how the feet looks like after the first pedi it has ever been through!

*******
morning : went for the CPF final round thinggy which i never even previously played before. hahaha. and to think its meant for people who are the tops in the sch. ehh... i was there just to make up the numbers.


wasnt too bad. winner could walk away with LAPTOP and welllllllll.... RP who was the organiser, won the top prize as well. -.-


and then, it was lunch at CWP. A big hot bowl of chewlian noodles. after the napfa yesterday, my appetite was extremely well. i woke up early coz i couldnt sleep... my stomache was growling !! i could finish a bowl of laksa for breakfast. wow, huh. my mother was also suitably impressed.


i had a shopping spree today. if i shopped like this every time i went near shops... i think... i rather not think abt it. bought stuff like shoes, top,necklace,bottom and food of course... BUT i set out wanting only to get a BAG!!!!!!!!. JUST A BAG.

i ended up almost everything except a bag.

this cannot go on. HAHAHAHAHAhAHA. so broke at the end of the day, that my dear friend YF had to gimme a treat. WHAHAHAHAH. i will repay u thoough ~ !=)

AFter //=)

Loads people dread Napfa. including me. but it doesnt matter to me whether i can pass well or not. i just wan to get it over and done and try my best at it. i feel ok about it. it is just something i have to do. like having breakfast or something.

thats all.

after today , i dont have to worry abt NAPFA ANYMORE!!!!!!!! YAH!!!!!!!! I pass everything.

and ms soo is champion stretcher. i think she takes yoga? so flexible!


and i find whining hurts my brain and ears. i think i will turn blue if i have to listen to non stop whining.

i just dont appreciate the benefits of whining and complaining. to vent off fustration maybe, but it doesnt make me happier cause it wont solve any problem. AT ALL. so yah, it will be good if you remenber not to whine around me. be positive. why commiserate when u can get ur act together and simply look on the bright side??


lookin for potential cast for drama project is SO DAMM hard. if any1 who know sany1 is willing and a good actor please please inform me!!!!!!!!


my white tote bag is spoilt! time to find a replacement! * whahahahah. and workplace havin a KTV session next week, HA... i think i am lookin forward to it...=) i am havin a craving for k-singing.

so many things

lifes just keeps going and going.

fate leads those who believe in it.
it drags those by the nose, those who does not.


downtown escapade is over. i spend more than 12 hours on that tiny island. my feet has tan lines from my sandals.i met another cam whore who happened to be my partner in the station. i have some pictures in hp, but couldnt find the time to upload them at home. even now, i am blogging coz i am having writer's block at school.

there are gonna be some new faces at work. i wonder how will they be like. there is even one who is from NYP too.

went shooting at zul's production house. he cant wait to be in TEP. six months at IPP is too long, he said.

really? feels the same way at TEP.

HAHA.

this friday is .....NAPFA!

and i am workin on a drama script for my group. with loads of friends' help of course.=)

politics aglore

there is a lot of politics.

there is more and more politics.


so i guess i prefer to be in the dark ... even if the dark only has me.


next week has NAPFA!

nothing is ever so bad.

i think i am scared of good lookin people coz i feel inferior next to them.

i dont want to be near them.


and i am just happy to say that things aint as bad as i initially thought so. i am getting the hang of it. ( hopefully)