shopoholic

the only girlie thing abt me is ...

I AM A SHOPOHOLIC.

today is vesak day, n was suprised to received a sms from stephen in the morning. he is a known pig. how could he possibly wake up at 10am to sms me? and the reason is, not because he wants to be an early bird, but because he gotta GO BACK OFFICE n WORK!!! So suay. hahahah. my condolenscenes to you.

today i spend it with ahho, combing Orchard n even Novena, though Novena was a disappoinment. my legs felt llike they were given an EXTREMELY good workout.

update abt my first bridging module.

after 3 lessons, went for exam on wed. n the invigilators were made up of 3 young punks. n one of them, knows me. he saw mi first. never did it occur to me that my friend would be the one to pass my script n exam qtn paper. hahahhaa. quite funny. his name is Qing Quan before i forget it.

thank You. my lucky stars

yet another week gone.

Friday = a last min shoppin trip with giang. i was way late! soorrry. but no choice. had a long discussion, in which i zoned out half the time. practically all i did i s lend a listening ear. haaaaaaa. then, they ask mi to hitch a ride. boss asked leh, y not? lol. anyway, i really dig their sense of humour. hahahaaaaaaaaa. n CK's driving style. deliberately made a sharp turn without informin just to hear us scream in fright. -.-!!!!!!!! but overall, he is funny.i like.

mphosis SALE. haha. the top which i bought kinda look like rags... according to my mama. its white with those butterfly sleeves which i adore!=)

Thur= my first bridging lesson. so far so gd. i was most worried abt grping n free riders n its nice to know that the lecturer also care abt the existence of free riders. she devised a rule to discourage free riders. Cool. but, exam is after 3 lesson. SO FAST.

the campus is so new, it reminds mi of ... my house eight years ago when i just moved in. haha. actually i think its not considered a campus. but like a hotel where the bedrooms are converted to classrooms.

Wed= Home sweet home.

Tues= a glummy leonard.=S when he is glum , he is all silent n serious n ... sulky even. *bleah. sigh. Company BBQ, where the best food is the tempura. Gone in Sixty Minutes.^^

Monday= meet most of the firewire gang. bought a cheap stella stella bag. took loads of picture. teckie minic me to great effect. missed hime though.

so that's a recap. time flew by leavin everything in a blur.


eh, i wonder whats stoppin michelle from dumpin work onto me.

i think she is too kind n nice to pressure and stress me with deadline. " its so tedious... aiyah, nvm, i can do myself." i raised my eyebrows. i mean, if its a manual task, all the more the coordinator shd do instead of the mgr , right?

haaaaaa, maybe she just prefer to do it than explain n teach. okay, nvm. i will do whatever i am asked to do.

i just feel SO satisfied n content with life now.

i've got a job which pays well, with a gd environment n a bunch of nice colleagues, nt very far, lets mi shop during lunch hour, clean n fragrant washroom (yes, the damm air freshener in the ladies SMELL DAMM NCIE) .

i've got my super naggyinaniceway mama, papa n a semi-existent brother.

i've no worries abt $$. i know i can earn. i know i can control. the fact that i know i can earn, makes me happy enough... to not care abt how not-rich i am.

i've got a degree to pursure. to bring me to greater heights.

i am learning new things.

i just feel happy.

maybe its just a residue of the high, leftover from my earlier shopping madness.

beach time

saturday...yesterday, i spent it at Pasir Ris Park. wanted to go cycling with some gal pals but since they not available so i asked KK instead. since he live so near n he always ON for some healthy exercise... hee hee.

slapped on some SPF 50 (!!) n we were all ready to go! cycling for 2 hrs, a bit tough on the butt, n the bike i had was a bit too heavy for me to handle tho the rental lady insisted it is NOT. i had a hard time just getting on it initially... grrrrrrr!! but , practise makes perfect !=) it is manageable after all.

yup, i cant help but wanna cam whore. kekekekkeke. esp at the beach. the water wasnt that nice... but the nice ones r already at friendster. hee hee. i think KK buay tahan mi, but he too nice to be bothered. haaaaaaaa.

and what did i do after cycling for 2 hrs? ( or actually a bit lesser),.. tucked into B&J! llalalaaaaaaa/ but it wasnt that sinful since it was a yoghurt ice cream. kekekek.

after that, went for my 4E1 BBQ at Pit 23. cookin the food, til i smelled very bad. constant thunder n lightning. i didnt stay for long. hahaaaaa. i bolted without waiting for my closer friends to come. but still. i saw them while they r on their way there n while i am on the way home.

one of my malaysian friend is still jobless. jobless for 4 months le!! i should thank Lucky Stars that i am not. would say that most of us became rounder since we left sec sch. haha. reflects on what gd life each of us has. hahaah.

urge

i thought i could go for a short break end up the one who said can go together say cannot... so wth, dun expect me go alone right? damm disappointed since initially it was agreed we can take leave. AND WHAT NOW?

i feel disappointed. even tho she has a solid reason to back her up. BUT STILL.

pls dun freakin phrase words in a premise of a promise even slightly remotely. i take it seriously. i was all pumped up. only to feel all the air come out.

my faith in u is... sian 1/2.

the morale is... Please Do Not Freakin Break Your Damm Promise to Me Even Though The Promise Is Insignificant To You.

i got quite a few urges...
1. SHORT BREAK... make use of my paid leave. an urge to feel the sun, sand n water.
2. SHOpping... GREAT SINGAPORE SALE, any1?
3. find a new job. heehee. after six months!

graduation is coming. got a robe to wear. to rent. haix, monee leavin me again.

stephen burned a disc for me. it's really nice of him, coz i didnt ask him to do it.... it reminds me of eric. haizzzzzzzzz. that was a damm long time ago -.-

i am starting to wonder, r guys manufactured from a plant, like matrix? they all have the same kind of reflexes, reactions programmed into them when they happen to like a girl...

p.a.i.n

today was a freeaaking painful day for me.

my cramps decided to visit me for today. it is still visiting. how can it? already 10 hours! i am battling with this pain for 10 hours if not more.

i hide in the toilet. i stoned in front of my PC. i drank hot water. but the pain was persistent. i give up.


overcharged by a stupid taxi driver. y did we just hand over the money with no fight?

all becoz we went to orchard premise without knowin the sch is moved to the new campus.

count down to sch day

9 days!

long due pictures

clockwise startin from man in green- 1: AhmadSyazwanbinAhmadKhalis 2:AlexShiehJunFa 3:AhHoYiTing 4:EveGohHuiBee 5:NgKhuanKungKei 6:GiangShiYuKelly 7:AngQianTingMaxine 8:DanielGohChinTeck!!!!!!!! our ninth member is RachelNgTzeYuan but unfortunately she couldnt be there with us due to church/production n i am not gd nuf to photoshop her face over ... ... BLEAH. lol.

why does this picture look so nice? coz the one who should also be inside took this!! million thanks to dear chinny! this is the pic where eve struck a model -like pose... for the first time ever leh.

okay, these r the most important pictures of them all. with them around me, i've got 8 fantastic ppl to turn to when i need some support n ears to bitch to n ... whatever else. hahaha. though now, its subjected to availabilty, i guess. lol.

how?

i used to think i am a workaholic. i think this statement still stands. at the rate i am going at HSG, i am just grossly overpaid n i am feelin guilty for it. my colleagues complained they r overworked, but i guess my boss is so nice that she dun give mi much work. it is not a good feeling to underwork or overwork. n i guess by now, i know the experience of both ends of the spectrum.

i will just take things day by day lor. wat else can i do? when i ask for work, she asked mi to help do PA stuff like callin someone up.

i just feel i can do more than that.


and dear all, what do u think of office romance?


anyway, today i bumped into NGOH. NGOH also works in THE STRATEGY. he ALSO works in Tower 1. he ALSO started 3 weeks ago. he ALSO start work at 9am n end at 6pm. and i only bumped into him today!! hahah.

SO QIAO!!! wouldnt have bumped into him, if i didnt take the longer route today by myself. wouldnt have bump into him at station, if stephen didnt call mi n i pause to take his call. it is JUST SO QIAO!!

how do we explain coincidences?

May day

monday flew past even tho i was doing nothing. night time got lights demo show. the guests invited included a very cute baby whom was very soft n nice to carry. i thought edwin , one of the colleagues, was reallly gentleman. he closed the car doors for mi! kekeke. so far in my life, only the chauffers did that, n he is a sales manager. okay, thumbs up. lucky gf or wife. ROFL.

made a spontaneous decision to k with KK!! so many 'Ks...=S,'so had to drag myself outta bed when i still never sleep enuf. but it was worth it. hahahaha.

i salute kk for singing female artistes' songs. such high pitch!! i had a blast singing my fav singer's songs. n listenin to him. hohohoho.=)

after that we cam whore!! just like a pair of girls. hahahaha. i think my skin looked really good in this lighting. hahahah. all righty, marina sq got a lot of gd backgrds to cam whore!!!=)

midnight retail therepy

evon said i was more particular abt shopping than working. LOL. true true. sadly, i did a really fantastically stupid thing at work, so i only hope no1 else will blame mi for my stupidity. =S

after work, met up with my gal pals n we were off to shopping. YEAH. i am a follower of retail therepy. mi n YT got kelly all confused in our superbly broken japanese. whahhaahha. i still laugh when i think of it.

shopping with the crowd is strenous exercise. in the end, we ALL got something! YAY!! happy happy happy! though my mom frowned upon the super high heel i bought. ehhhh. yah, i know i shouldnt buy high heels but i just look better in those!!

and the KTV session with the colleagues aint too bad, i guess. every1 has the chance to sing whatever song they liked. they said my voice was low, resmincent of Ella n Tanya Chua. kekekek. okayyyyyy. joseph once said i look like tanya chua... now i sound like a tinnny bit like her??

the colleagues were reallllly funny! LOL, can? but unfortunately, i broke a glass of drink when i was pullin the mug towards mi. my apologies. luckily, the mood wasnt spoil. *phew.

they were like " okay, now its XXX's chance to sing. when he sings, lets LAUGH!!". and they DID. so XXX got so stressed he just gave up on the song. whahahhahaahah.


n that's 3 weeks down. 21 weeks to go! still hoping things will take a better turn!

worse than i thought

oh my god, i thought brel seriously sucks like hell, but hella's CMS system is even worse!! its even more worse than brel.

it is so bad that i don't know how to describe it.

even the trainer wasnt sure abt the system since she only done it once ... or twice. but in anycase, we can all agree that it is an extremely unfriendly system.

=C fortunately, there is a consences that this system is bery difficult to use so they dont have unrealistic expectations abt the result. thank god. felt very drowsy and stone throughout the 3h session, of which 2 h were taken to TRY to create and upload a page. n in the end, it wasnt a successful attempt.

i felt like weeping.


isnt it very amazing how diverse , how contrasting our thinkin can be? in my current job, i am not busy. i have not many things to do. i dont like my current situation. i want to be involved, to be busy, to know what i am working towards. to know that i am learning something valuable.

maybe after the first month? maybe this is just a one month honeymoon period?


BUT i know there will be loads of ppl who like this kind of situation. what can i say?? i just lucked out.=D. maybe? i am really very not sure.

2 weeks

so brenda the marketing director has left. she has commented that the 2 new marketing coord, has merged into the team of marketing n product management pretty well.=)

that is a happy news to me.

but my eyelid has been seriously twitching during work. i am bracing myself from some spectacular fall from grace though nothing has happen yet. most ppl just tell mi twitching is simply a symptom of exhuastion of the eyes. that's true, the endless hours of researching is makin mi miserable.

at least there is evon to talk crap with mi. whahahhahahaah.

***

the incident that happened to dear maxine is really an eye opener to me. because of all that i heard n seen from my friends, i dont even entertain the thought of havin relationships easily. i admire her handling of such a situation with grace and maturity.

at 20, we ought to stop being childish , selfish and self-centred. IDEALLY.

girls seemingly always know that they cant give their all into r/s. but they still do unknowingly. n only end up going thru those emotional turmoil. but if they dun give their all into a r/s, then what kind of r/s is that??

but if they dun give their all, at least they can detached themselves faster from those big bad bastards n carry on with their lives and into the next r/s. i think thats something i heard from kelly longlong ago.

grrrrrrr........duno how to elaborate on these issues.




y is it that when we give trust by default, we r usually hurt most badly?

y can't i ask y when i duno y?

in love... or not

my friend actually wrote in his blog that one of the must-dos before NS is "fallin in luv".

i can't help but snigger at this comment. it is just so him. i observe that generally, a guy always need a girl to feel completed. there is so many mundane things that only doing it as a couple, it seems more fun.


IS IT??


in my pathetic short-lasting case, i didnt remember doing anything that was more fun if you do it as a couple. i mean, it is just as fun if u do it with a grp of tomadachi.

whatever.

i want to tell my friend, dont break up over silly things. i totally object to that. love aint easy to come by, dont we all agree?

meanwhile, there is nothing i can do except to WAIT. wait n see how things turn out. wait n see what will lead to what.... =S

Good Friday

yah, i noe Gd Friday was over but today was a literate GOOD friday. hahahhaaa. michelle just suddenly asked to mi to tag along their shoppin trip, so yah, at 10am , i could leave the office and just relax and enjoy. kekekekek.

went 4 places in total, brunch at north bridge road with late lunch at PS cafe cartel in between, and we r done!! go back to office , do some more work and we r free to go!

n i found out that paulina is really interesting, just like me. we r like, the same type. she is polish and polish is such a difficult language! hearin her say stuff in polish is amazing!! she is damm cool.

happen to board the same direction train as stepha(e?)n n i think he is pretty cool as well!! haha, no strange silent pauses is good for me.

mi and kt had time to met up. i had time to drop by FA n i saw weili, roslee, daphe and julie. daphe still with andrew!! wah, i am quite surprised. kekek. roslee is in office now... LOOKS real gentleman, but i tell u, its ALL looks. hahaha.

oh yah, my first business lunch was with pixel tech at flute@fortcanning. semi-fine dining, lobster soup and foire gas... all alien to me the mountain tortoise!! this is inspiration to work hard so that i can enjoy the finer points in life. kekekek.

99.9987 percent of the population in the office is attached or married and they r not even in the mid thirties. and i though ppl married late in this time?? i am shocked(pleasantly) whenever some1 say " My Husband or Wife..." becoz they look just so damm young to have settled down.

i am depressed.

i can't help it.

n i am "translating" jap articles. omfg, right??!! hahaahaha. no la, just want to shock u. i am corresponding the jap and eng version. how the hell would i know how to translate?

ok, n thats how my first week went. in the honey moon period. still happy. but becoz they r so nice to me, i am scared to disappoint with my level of performance.=S

the Other girl

here is my analysis after 3 days of working ard evon. hahah. no collaboration yet.

she quite friendly and nice and she dun mind lookin out for me leh! hahahahah. i must appreciate all the small acts of kindness! esp when i have no reason to expect them...

today i had a open-mouth-insert-foot kind of situation. wasnt intending for the words to come the way they did, but that always happenns with me. =SSSS

i am still in a positive mood after 3 days. wonder what the future has for me.

btw, got my name card today! kekekekekek.

internship part 2.

hi all, i went to my brand new company lookin like a tan-freak. i was SO SO SO burnt!!!!!!!!!!!!!


and it is SO SO SO FREAKING PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!.@#$%^PAIN.

delibrately went to buy some mask to pamper my thoroughly spoilt, irritated and damaged skin.


first day of work... the other new girl has the same initials as mi. so it confused them a bit. eh... i feel like it really is internship PART TWO. *HORROR music in the backgrd.

so many freaky freaky deja-vu similiarities.

1. 2 new girl at the same time with some pun on their names. this time, we share the same initials and the first 2 letters of our first names.

2. She is older than me.

3. my direct supervisor is called... MICHELLE. AGAIN!!!!!!!

4. my marketing manager is LEAVING THE COMPANY REAL SOON. AGAIN.

5. it is a six month contract, strictly speakin.


my friend said tht first day is the best. u dun really have any work to do. LOL.he is really right.

overall, the ppl there r quite nice. no airs. i like the HR in charge too!! she is like, the equivallent of chee kheng. bery friendly and wise. hahaha.

gambattenekudaisai!!!! must work hard. work smart. open eye and ear big big!!!!!

a leisure camp

moi finally made it to the ateam leisure camp organised by the big guy and royals at 6pm. after yet another entertaining jap class where the senseii picked on the same guy to tell time yet again, and everytime, he tells the time just as clumsily as the previous time. eh... jkjk.

the queen. pretending to be asleep only. hahahaa.

this guy is definitely one of the funniest guy i ever ever known!! cheers to hasrul!!
the aftermath of the camp. i turned DARKER. not to mention as RED AS A LOBSTER,can?? hahah, tmr i can go to my new workplace lookin as burnt as i could.

overall, yet another camp which i enjoyed a lot. could even sleep up to seven hours. and watch spongebob movie thanks to Jamie!=). maggii mee taste bery nice too. thnx fel for lending a shirt so that i play water game with a safe mind, kana bombed a lot but is still as fun. shachin is just as protective as ever over his leg hair as ever.

think they r all a BERY nice bunch of people.it is really gd luck and honour to know them. not to mention they r SOOO funny!! imagine knocking some1's teeth filling out in an attempt to self-defense!! bery LOL.

n now, my face hurts due to being burnt. every inch of my exposed skin. n i hate those unsightly tan lines .......!=(

being a student is the best.

pray for me for my new start!=P

strength

when she heard abt PB's vicious attack, she said that she will stare her down with her sheer size of her eyes. WHAHAHAHAH. so did alyssa. *touched. we got so many things to catch up. we see each other less than 10 times a YEAR. i missed havin her by my side literately. HAHAHA. but so what. i noe she will stand up for me without askin. i noe she will make time for mi if she can. n thats what matters. thats the strength of friendships.

i am sure firewire can make it too. we been through thick and thin for 3 years!! from kids to adults. hahah. from being black-haired to pink-haired to blond and brown and red. lol. from single to attached. to single and attached AGAIN. hahah. from havin CCA to being MIA. from being in sch to being in production house/office.

oh yah, before i forget, lemme comment on the service standards of cafe cartel. I simply love it! 2 thumbs up. never had a unpleasant experience there. they r fast and friendly, esp the mgr at cityhall branch. keeps me going there again and again! botak jones has gd service too but too long a queue to wait. n no aircon. hha=S.

service is not just something u expect from a restuarant. its also in the way you deal and handle ppl in a professional manner. i say that the treatment i got from one of the OL in the PASTAMANIA office is... -.- lousy, stupid and unfeeling.

i feel the 'thanks and bye' from her has no ounce of sincerity just becoz i am a ex-low-paid staff coming to return uniform. well, i can be fake right back at ya. really!! the girl i was talking to, deserved all the middle fingers in the world for the extremely cold, low E-Q treatment she gave me.

totally displayed her lack of brain cells when i cornered her into admitting that staff r penalised when its really the mgt's fault. N she admitted it WITHOUT sayin an apology. excuse me, the moment i am not ur staff, means that i am a potential client/customer. >,<

HMPH.

happy moments

a nice picture spoilt by some1 striking a eh... duno-how-describe pose. a bit like posing for shampoo-ad, then again, not really. ahahahah. and no, all those food were not for me only.ha.

last meal at Pastamania. pasta goes especially well with hoe-gaarden.*_*

we love 0ur frienship... not forgetting the mudpies too!!=) thanks rachie for helpin us take this pic!

firewire outings are fun regardless of what we do and where we are! btw how do i hide my fats in my super round face?=C.

the L day

on this final day, the feelings to work was different. walked with MO to office, hopin she dun mention its my last day if not i surely cry. did she sense my thoughts, she didnt mention its my last day anyway.

i was such a water tap today!! any little thing can trigger my tear duct to over produce.

the first person to trigger my tears, was Mr Kang. the MM. it was over lunch, we all went out for my farewell lunch, just simple fare (unfortunately=P). then, he asked will i miss certain colleagues. of coz i WILL!! then the tears start dripping to my horror. i just couldnt keep them in and i am too sad to care.

so... if they say anything remotely related to missing mi/missing them/last day at MCIS/wish mi all the best, i will be so touched/sad, i will just start to tear again. so they were forced only to talk abt funny/work things to keep mi from crying.

i still teared. i admit its really embarrassing. bery malu!!!

all the way from lunch to five pm, people's sweet gestures triggered spouts of tears.

most unexpected, were the 2 girls from editorial dpt who gave mi chocolates, hugs, hand shakes and gd wishes.

alas, my valiant effort screeched to a pathetic stop when AM asked mi in to the showroom, draggin mi away from M.K who was explainin to me how to fill in my eh, last timesheet... only to find my colleagues with a piece of cheesecake for me, all seated expectdly in front of me. haiz.

was touched to tears again, then tears start to flow. by now, they already expected already lahz. hahaha.

m.k came into the showroom shortly after, and then, he let out a groan when he saw mi crying again. sorry lahhhh, i really can't help it!!!!!!!!!!!

the reason i feel so sad, is coz they r such nice ppl n i think i see them more than my own parents for the past 5 months!!!!!! after the lesson with PB, nice ppl cant be taken for granted. this makes mi feel even sadder yet i cant tell abt PB. anyway PB is in the past, and she can eat my dust. hahaahah.

they ask me make a speech, n i was so overwhelmed by their kindness, words kinda stucked in my throat... too much tears, not enuf air. vision blurred, voice shook. i was a waste basket of emotions. total EMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! happy n sad at the same time. or is it more sad than happy?

wishes from them to me

thomas, the man with the fatherly aura, takes mi to breakfast and buy me McDonalds!!=)

AH POEI-C.J, n i will remembered his highly modified car too.=P

frelyn, new sales colleague... who really tries her best!

MO wrote letter on tissue....pengzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

my AM lorzzzzzzzzzzz. -.-

andrew- AH MAOO. let u noe if i have any pretty colleagues>,<

turns out Mr K has such boyish handwriting!!!!!!! kekekekekke.

Kwong hui the new marketing exec from ntu...

gek eng. mary's best bud in office! haha. she is the new self appointes snack-provider. haha.

this is from mary. general toh. lol. kind heart beneath sharp words.

good ppl

i think agnes for her concern and guidance

thank michle for lettin me noe the truth.

thank thomas for lookin out for mi.

thank ttyy for being so gd natured, always lettin every1 else have their way.

thank joseph for the lifts.

thank weien for coverin for me.

thank dila for accomodating me into the schedule...

thank yufen for being a solid friend.

thank firewire for being there.

thank god for my family.


yup. i am counting my blessings. if u r not listed, dun angry ... pls wait for rd 2!hahaha.



eh... yours truly will be starting a new chapter in life soon. lookin forward to all the challenges. i envision success. nothing but success!!!

today i received the gd news that the mnc has decided to hire me and even gave mi a salary higher than expectations. =).

so, i believed in gd karma, bad karma. life is a game of choices. i choose to make decisions out of my beliefs, intergrity and newly acquired professionalism. not out of selfish gains or revenge or just plain no-reason.

i never changed my values, i lost some faith in human beings, but overall, i am still good. i am happy. i don't hate. i learnt.

i believe in myself

for everything in life, except maybe academics, there is no right or wrong. no black or white. but a huge entity of grey area.

should we really question what's right and what's wrong when it was all grey to start with? who dictates what's right and wrong anyway? can't we follow our instinct and do what you feel is right and not be turned off by the consequences? it is about honour and your moral values, if you have any.

who knows what will be the consequences anyway? will it really be as bad as you think? maybe whatever u fear ... will not even remotely happen in real life at all. y cant we analyse the pros and cons first before we jump into the worst consequences ever? then again, thats the human nature, to see the bad points first.

marriage isnt the solution. but it is an acceptable answer. office politics is hurtful but it is accepted. the couple is together only becoz one of them is scared of being single and the feeling of loneliness, not together becoz of love.

we dont need to do right things. we need to do what we FEEL is right.

feelings dont cheat if you listen to them close enough with no ill intentions in ur mind.

i need affirmation that my choices are 'right' but even if every1 is against them, i will not lose faith in my decision because i believe in myself and everything that comes with it.

happy pictures

one of the helpful girls at unity p sch. mentioned in previous post, subsequently i dun have time to take pic ah. so young already know, how to make her face look smaller. haix.kkekeke.

obviously, my colleague, mary, was ignorant of something called headroom. not to mention about being centralised.wHAHAHAHA.

why are we both NOT showing any teeth? ha, we somemore never baka-ed abt this...
the face above is my supervisor's. or rather ex-supervisor. poisonous bitch dropped her bonding act after they become under different department. -.-,

*cheers to bo-liao us!*

fâché

beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

i went to unity primary for the sales drive and the kids there r amazing. when i just reached there, i saw them dancing to the beyonce song. dancing to DEJA VU. almost faintz with my amusement.

the kids there loved me a lot. WHAHHAAHA. i was alone... not!=) there were 5 of them , rushing to help me in every where, even thought of division of labour. They were store assistants, temp promoters ,advertisers and PR personnel. ALL rolled into one. hahah.

well, u guys are sincerely appreciated. so capable, not missing a single form or receipt even though u guys were only 9/10 years old. thanks for entertaining me. thanks for askin me to go there again next year. though u probably would have forgotten about me by 6pm, but i will always remenber u guys are so helpful and cute and funny.

this sch happens to be my last science spy school too. well, it ended with a fantastic full stop!=) loads of great memories. the malay niang, the boy with the ah-pek accent, the boy who suffers from a skin disease which made his skin peel and scaly, the girls who were helpful, so sweet to make sure my hp is inside my bag. n nothing is amiss.

i miss u all already. *sobz.


but...i was most (pleasantly) shocked when a little girl came in front of me and told me i am pretty.

she said she thought my eyes are pretty coz "they dont have a line..." yes girl, i know what you mean. apparently her mom told her that her eyes are not pretty coz they are double eyelids.

omg, the mother likes single eyelids i guess. but how could she say that cause BUT THAT IS NOT THE TRUTH. the girl's eyes are big , bright and beautiful, everything i want but i dont have, i resort to cosmetic tricks to make appear about 0.0005mm larger. thats my sad little life.

of coz i told her, thats rubbish, her mom is crazy and she ,indeed, has a pair of very pretty eyes. her mom should send her brain for some check up. doesnt she know a child's desire for parents' approval and praise?! omg. she might have accidentally rocked the girl's self esteem over such trivial opinions.

but thanks for being so honest to tell me i am pretty ah.


coz apparently, i am so ugly that i am being hated and backstabbed for it.


i am glad i know the truth. its never too late. even though it makes my blood boil.


for some reason, she manipulated a picture of me being a loser and a loner with no friends. AM I REALLY SOME1 WITH NO FRIENDS AT ALL??? that lying bitch!! i am so angry!!


for this, i am very glad that i have friends who felt for me. and ascertained what she painted was wrong. thanks for firewire, if not... lets not think abt ifs-nots.


so i had been clueless. knowing abt this only after 23 weeks and 6 days left.

i am dumb to want to believe in the best of people.

i had been stabbed again and again. coz i was trusting n never fought back.

the ones who pretends always win.

at first.

sometimes those snowwhite- wannabes are more scary, scheming and poisonous than the queen herself.

an unofficial dip grad

starting tomorrow, there is really only 10 working days left. what can happen in these 10 working days? really duno, but must be on best best possible behavoir!!!

one thing for sure, after the 2 weeks , i will have to join the workforce whether i am ready or not. i am a unofficial grad... i guess i will be joining the workforce as an umemployed.

huh-huh. unemployed leh. sadly, i just registered for my part time degree course. cant afford to be jobless for 2 long even tho i have severe nuah-ness inside me.

okay, before i forget , i dedicate the following space to my very nice managers i encountered. they looked out for me, believe in me , nurture me and forgive me for the undeliberate mistakes i had committed. i really can thank them no enough leh. hahaha.

and i believe they had shaped my character with their words, attitude and actions. so i thank them for being a positive role models whom i can learn from.

i am reallly glad that i had never had horrid managers in my life, as heard from horror stories from other colleagues.

the most classic one is the M-O horror stories. hahaha... hearing these true accounts made me thank my lucky stars above. today i short monee when i cashiering. perhaps my tiredness showed. manager allowed me to go home since i only left 1 h, n there is more than enuf crew to go ard. i got this one extra hour to blog and then work on the stupid work i brought home from work to work on.

lol. haix. back to zhong-dian of this post. i will be an unemployed after 2 weeks.

oh there is a really nice lady from one of the many sister-companies. her name is Mag Yip and i want to thank her for her nice word, encouragement and offer of help. hhahaha. she said i can look for her if i need help finding a job. but knowing my character, that is not gonna happen lah.

kekkekekekkeke.

nuah a bit and see how.

piece of crap

i believe in leading by setting example. i have more respect for AM than MM by virture she comes in earlier than him to the office every single day. actually her reason for coming like 1/2 h earlier is not becoz she loves her work so much but she wants to avoid the traffic jam, that would make her late for sure. that's an admirable quality.

i am not sure for big boss.

whateever.

leadership qualities need not be present in someone when the circumstances is favourable ???

i feel anti social again. i feel snappish. the questions ppl sometimes ask me r so super useless that i give a reply out of politeness. i put my msn in friendster, hoping to make some net friends, but usually clueless ppl add me.

the latest one win already lorzzzz. a really piece of crap if u ask me. he would the one to msn mi first. i dun even bother. and for everytime he talks to me, he will ask mi what i do. and then, i would ans. INTERN.

he would say. "WHAT'S THAT?" wah, a really big piece of crap of lor. so old already duno what is the meaning of intern, and i even gave him dictionary.com. obviously never go and find out. after like 3 times, i could simply anticipated his response when he STILL asked the same old dumb qtn. i laughed to my self when he still asked what is a intern when i said i already know u dunno.


disgusting piece of shit. lol. suddenly i remember that's what loo lin likes to scold ppl.

well, i can't think of better terms to describe this guy of 29 years old who claimed he is working as a marketing exec. a piece of shit working at that company. i pity that company. but i am nt blocking him la.

i like to see how low human intelligence can be. then sometimes, laugh at their cluelessness and feel a fake sense of superiority. yah, i indulge in myself too much.

i feel anti social. i need to make more friends on the same wavelength. but the difficult thing is, it might be a fact that i am the only on my level of frequency. i am too unique for my own gd. i am too individualistic for own gd. k.zzzzzzzzzz.

i wont be hired at my company. i feel sad coz i really like workin with my AM as u obviously can tell. she want to hire me as a term. but i wanna be hired as a perm. our frequencies quite match lleh. thats why its fun workin with her. can even ask her abt Jap since she took it til intermediate level. she said she even has a japanese language keyboard bought in japan. lol. yayaayay. bring to office and lemme use lar. then u can read a japanese email. think abt it. like , should be quite cool right? hahahaha.

and finally......ZZZZ

lucky

this is one of the very very few times, heck actually this is the first time i feel lucky to be who i am and where i was. i refused to publicize my internship - company. hahah.

lol, coz i managed to sit in Mr Peter Ng's workshop. nvm, who he is... he is a very charismatic, humourous speaker who conducted a leadership workshop for teachers. the workshop was full of his fuunnny, interesting stories while he spend THREE YEARS ON INTERNSHIP with Walt Disney Theme Park in Florida. it was full of LOL moments.

i felt alive in his workshop instead of just bored and sleepy and it was so evident that other colleagues could comment on me lookin different.

i seriously wouldnt mind interning for him. lol. AND he said HE WOULDNT MIND too!! joking or not, but i choose to take this as a confidence jab. a small fry like me really dun mind doing shit work in an environment like his... hahaha.

imagine he just flew in from beijing after a 4 day conference and he comes back to face 10 teachers who didnt know this and just gave him the typical silence response. i salute him for maintaining his enthusiasm and energy level so high up that at last... the teachers responded more energetically too.

just by listening, just by using my ears, i felt i had learnt a lot.

i kept askin if he eats batteries for meals.

and i high-fived this great man's hand. lol.

change in topic: internship ending in 2 weeks.

i need to find a job!

you know, work is a reallly important aspect of live. i really dont want to waste time on a job that is unfulfilling and mechanical. i think i can live with lower pay if i feel happy with what i am doing.

sigh. i think i really envy ppl who r making passion their job, carreer and life. life should be lived that way in order for you to enjoy every minute of the years ahead of you.

the speaker had asked us what's passion.

passion is intense enthusiasm.

what's enthusiasm?

enthusiasm is intense joy.

so what gives mi intense joy when i am doing it?



really duno. but i know what i dont like! hahahaha.

still smiling

nihon-go class's senseii is very kawaii-funny!!!!

after the class, which i yawned through out , desspite the relatively engaging teacher, i was off to meet ah-ho at bugis! when she finally arrived, we were off to eat some hongkie dishes which taste quite good!=). then ah-ho still wan desert.

went to another hongkie place to have those china deserts. and i didnt like mine!!!! but nvm lor, since the xue-er is gd for skin, just force it down and ah-ho helped mi finish most of it anyway. we laughed a lot at this small eatery. coz of us, of people before us and people ard us. they were all hilarious! it was a effort that i didnt spill the white stuff i was eating.

then its shoppping time!! i duno why, but somehow we can just laugh so much until my stomache feel pain!!!! what did we laugh at?

i finally bought my first dress at a steal. no1 ever seen mi wear dress b4. even wheni tried, my jeans were still on. lol. hahhaa. the ppl at the wedding will have such a priviledge. kekekekkeke.

another wonderful day ended.

and we still got many things never do before!!!

OMG

i always thought my brother dont remenber my existence , cause of the time, he ignores me and everything abt me?

then on thurday, he suddenly brought me a lap top (which i am typing on now) and say it's for me! *faintzzzzzzzzz. very VERY surprised,can? and the only thing i brought for him was a twenty dollar birthday cake. HAHAHHAHA. okay, wait for me earn big money from my perm job then i can also spend lavishly on my family too.

i think all of us are happy cause he can finally not share his computer and have my nonsense stuff saved in his desktop AND i never need to interrupt his gaming ever again!!!

whhahahaahhaahha.

AND i went to the IT fair with my supervisor on friday night and it was most crowded ever. will the weekend be worst? i went to buy a MP3, had in mind a REALLLY cool lookin Samsung touch-screen player but end up with a iriver. and in the end, i felt like i was buying speakers home coz i was havin such a hard time carrying the heavy speakers which came for free obviously, instead of the tiny, light weight white iriver!!

hohohohohohoho, later i am going to my first Japanese class and squeuezing with the crowd at bugis. if anything,i think IT fair at Suntec should be more crowded.

heeheee, i got mood swings now. and it's swinging up!=)

pms

it's the time of the month.

eh... the older i get, the more pms bugs me. i reallly feel so so pissed off at my internship now!!! and i credit it to pms symptoms. yes. this is a valid reason.

the words that a fresh -grad working adult strung together, just TOTALLLLY displayed her LACK of professionalism. full stop. a lousy excuse of a professional. obviously not into her job, but that's beside the point. the fact that she is so inconsiderate/clueless abt other ppl beside her irks me to hell.

and HOW AM I TO DO OFFICE WORK UNDER A TIGHT DEADLINE WHEN I AM NOT EVEN STATIONED IN THE OFFICE?? \

get ur new exec to do lor. just ask mi phtocopy and make kopi lor.

which reminds me. i want to end internship asap and yet i dun mind being a perm there... coz i work real work now and i dont get real returns. it is twisting my insides and makin mi sad when the truth is i am really really cheap labour worth nothing more than $2 per hour.

and well, dun take ur jokes too far. queen of comeback lines dont take words lyings down. even if u r boss. a good boss wont piss me off enough to warrant any comeback lines from me!!

pms-ing now. shut up. ignore me.

Songs

lyrics matter more and more to me. love songs are starting to touch me and i appreciate lyricists more and more. a good song needs a good melody more. seems like there is a lot of gd music that is exposed to me.

had a really fun trip to sec sch friend's house and our form teacher's house too. form teacher had a baby boy, very cherubic unfortunately, he got a bit too much of his father's genes. hahah. kiddding. might be a very handsome boy when he grews up. and we had to queue for toilets coz he invited like 4 batchs of 4E1s.

friend's house is like a testimonial on why we should all strive to make big bucks. then u can have a library, a mounting billboard of the Beijing Olypics 2008 poster, gym, tea house. table tennis, karoake system, plasma tvs in 2 wings of ur house. AND u NEVER need to queue for toilets coz there is too many to go around.

his mother is reallllllllly into decorations. even his toilet has a spiderman hanging on the window pane. very cool lor. and his house is very nicely decorated. we were cam whoring in his house. hahah.


i dont like ppl askin me can we be friends? it is so... unneeded. unneccesary. i just find it irritating.

my only toy.

say HI to ...my favourite toy at work. its a premium that we kopped from the supplier. kekekekek. cute right, i added the eyelashes. then my supervisor drew clothes onto her 1. then AM more subtle. drew specs or something. forgot le. p.s she is a radio, in case u r wondering.

working is so tiring. made a mistake so i am clearing up my stupid mistake, which makes things more tiring. wish i am a energizer bunnny. then i wont be so tired. wish i feed on battery. heck, isnt better if i am just a robot??????????

pig's yr

we all need encouragement constantly. i need motivation more than encouragement for me to make it through IPP. my current task is to stick about 2000 activation codes onto CD-roms. something that need to be done but no1 wants to do if possible.

whats the motivation for me in this task? to be as fast as i can? to see how robotic can i will my fingers to be? to see how it feels to pretend to be a machine? as i sat there, trying to paste those stickers as fast as i can, my features settled into something expressionless N black, in this case. so black that even my supervisor noticed.

in the end, i lucked out since she and a couple of temps helped me finish about 500 pcs tho they had no obligation to help me.

i remenber some1 sayin job satisfaction is secondary coz she just wan to earn money. i cant live life this way. i want job satisfaction as much as i need the salary. otherwise i know i will flood the office with my misery...

i was annoyed

hi all, every1 knows i have weight issue even tho i try not to bother myself about it unless some1 bother me abt it. so u can say some1 just stomped on my fragile self -esteem and self image.

first the new sales colleague said i look rounder. then she said if any1 cant finish anything u can just pass it to eve. then she asked if i got a bf. i said no, coz i am too fat to have 1. a blatant dig at her previous comments. but my sarca was lost on her. SO LOST on her skinny brain inside her skinny skull.

but NVM, thats beside the point. she hurriedly proceeded to do a self perceived good deed. she went on to advise me not to tell my AM that she doesnt have a bf coz she is 2 overweight to have 1. she though she had prevented a great disaster from happening.

EXCUSE ME!!! do u sincerely believe that i think i am single coz i am too fat to have a BF?! that i would be so DUMB to just go up to my AM and say " hey u know what ? SKINNY_thou made me realize something. we r single coz we r too fat to have bf!"

OMG, u totally underestimate eveything abt me. besides, my AM is prettier than skinny-thou by virtue she got curves and carry herself well. N she got more intelligence in her one quater of her pinkie than ur entire brain.

how clueless can some1 get? she totally rubbed me the wrong way. she insulted me. insulted my intelligence. insulted my EQ. insulted my relationship with my AM. OMG. i really had to control to stop myself from asking

ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT ???
ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT ???

but anyway, kept my cool despite i was so annoyed! i really felt incredulous at her response. my eyes actually widened, my jaw slacked and i was momentarily stunned by the knowledge that she THINK she is doing me a HUGE favour on how to behave myself. BUT i proceeded to laugh it off... and just carry on eating what i want. =) office life made me fatter. but i got no mood to exercise since i dun even have enough sleep. life is too short to deny myself from what i want and like. especially ppl ard me has been going to hospital in sudden notice.


tagged along with supervisor to accounts department. to see Jenny, a mature lady, for her claims. she looked at me and just said, I would marry a rich man! Of course i asked why. and the ans is, coz i am pretty enough to marry 1. HILARIOUS LOR. me in my specs and nude makeup face . kekeke. but it was music to my ears. i cant believe ppl can take a look at me n be able to guess that i wanna marry a rich man. kekekeke.

nightmares

my last blog post didnt appear!!!!!!!!

WHY?????

heaven is stoppin me from eh... commenting abt MCIS. not as if my comments were big deal or what. other ppl's blog post can appear. so y cant mine?

i am looking forward to the end of IPP. i WANT TO NOT WAKE UP SO DAMM EARLY.but i wonder if i would cry on my last day there or not. it wouldnt be so bad if every1 just carry on as if it is just another ordinary day.

i hardly cried when i was in early teens. i just wasnt a cry baby. pain also wont cry. scared also wont cry. sad also wont cry. disappointed also wont cry.

now ... guess when a girl matures, her emotions becomes more tangible n sensitive. maybe it is just becoz i am startin to think too much due to old age. (I can cry at movies now! ) But tears are good for destressing. hee hee.

some1 from my secondary sch days suddenly shows up again. amazingly, nothing has changed. OMG. i still need to find excuses to keep my distance. -.-!!! i am like, cringing inside and yet have to appear that i am... fine with him and his huh, invitations. realllllllly sian 1/2.

in MC...

supper(2)

after ty showed me some stuff on Photoshop, went for supper at Maxwell food centre. coutesy of Joseph. could have taken pictures. but he brought a along a 3.2 mp digicam with no memory stick. effectively, he brought no camera. and my phone died on me.

woodlands's like, really uber ulu. HAHAHAH. no1 knows which road leads to wdl. lucky Sg road signs r plenty and one of them leads to wdl. lucky he can claim petrol.

there he shared some crushee-troubles stories. one lucky dude whom some pretty gal had fallen for. the pretty gal had even taken the first move only to be rejected by him! but still, she doesnt give up. still continue to do things for him. perhaps hoping to move him, to touch his heart and melt his guard. eh... i duno lah. anyhow say one. hahahaha. but this girl is really admirable. brave, courageous and determined. qualities that i reallllllly admire for i would never had such guts when it comes to a boy.

but too bad. she still faced such cruelty in the end.


why is it that i can remenber wat u did and forgotten what i had done?

our dpt went to shop n save together last fri. hahaha. i felt as though i was out with my parents... that i could take whatever i want and AM will pay for it. hahah. no la. i restrained.i controlled. i succeeded in behaving properly.

i changed place. AM sometimes yelled over to me. it could be so embarrassing... imagine she yelling what mistake i had committed and other dpt could know as well...=S.

i counted. i have been sitting at 3 diff places. that means, i changed place and telephone no every 2 months. amazing statistics.

i think i want attachment to FASTER end. its been months yet i still wished i dun need to wake up at six.>,<

no longer in my teens

hi all, among my friends, i am the first one to be outta my teens compared to those who had only been 19 for less than 30 days. lol.

today i reached home early .just nice. coz today is meant to be spent at my home sweet home.=)

today i saw BREL's CEO. he looked very distinguished and also quite Japanese. hahaha, dun ask me why. seems like a nice man , too bad his system screwed up on us. and on him too. it 'internal -server -error'ed him when he wanted to check the system.

only he couldnt even log into it when it 'internal-server-error'ed him. major oops!

today i got nothing much to do. i guess tmr will more than make up for it.

AM asked y the 3 interns from NYP r like not very pally with each other. HUH. i dun know leh. i wish i know. coz this 3 particular interns want nothing to do with each other? other ppl purposely want to build a wall ard themselves, disregard attempts at friendliness then that's it already what.

the most important thing being we r each fine being on our own.

i have memories on being dumped on my own by my own firewire ppl too. during orientation when the OGLs had to be in grp of 3s. who was "sacreficed" in the end? and why? coz she was thought to be able to survive on her own. with comparitive strangers. compared to the other ppl in qtn...

yup yup yup. nothing has changed. i am still fine on my own.



argh. i'm not gonna bring this issue up anymore.

l luv my friends.

how did our lifes end up so differently? my life is so drama-less compared to other ppl close to me. but it's okay. with drama or without , we all face problems . differnt sorts and different kinds. i am glad i dont have to face yours. HAHAHHA. thats when i am glad for havin such a plain life.

i love my friends. they make mi cry. no lah. just kidding. i am Not drama enough for tears. cityhall is fast becoming our lao-di-fang.lol. my sec friends celebrated bday for me along with the night breeze at Esplanade. together with a about-to-patched-up boyfriend of YH. who doubled up as an excellent photographer. still dun have the pics. BUT will definitely have them... soon. i hope.

spent 4 hours in Jean Yip to rebond my hair. total fell asleep when i sat down there. my butt hurt from sitting down so much. then subsequently, for the next few days, i just didnt have enough sleep. kept falling asleep on the bus. i am so afraid i would miss my stop.

suffering from sore throat. slight cold. and a maSSive headache.

_______

i have a headache everytime i think abt what i wan and what to do achieve them. there are numerous , diverse things which i wanna do but they always have the same demominator.

MONEY.

NTU talk-NYP co concert

i feel happy today.

went to the NTU Comm Studies talk with poly pals. as i surveyed the crowd and entertain the thought that i might go NTU and these r the new friends that i'll make... it made mi dread going to sch.

in the end, i have no regrets abt not being gd enough for NTU comm studies. the speakers totally...-.-

hello?!

the most vital... most important , vital facilities of sch life is the benches. we have small talk, eat lunch, do project, hold bazaars and have a short nap at the benches... therefore sch benches at the SCI are very vital in ur 4 yrs of sch life!!


huh... guess u r trying to be witty, humourous but forgetabtit. thanks.

so i am okay with NOT being able to "make it " for this programme. which appeared so yaya. "cooler than Engineering students? less weird than Lit students? "THE MOST GORGEOUS in the sch??

yes, humourous and spoken in a light manner. but still... yaya lor-.-

guess i will be doing a private degree at SIM.

then we had "high tea " at cedelele . eat the first scone of my life. with a spoon and knife. Hahahaha. listen to everyone talk. it was relaxed. it was good. i told them abt G.it is a relief to know that the problem doesnt lie with me. heck, its not my problem and its not a problem even. kkkkkk. wahtever.

then met with Alyssa- The One Whom Kelly Likes to Stare. Hahaa. we r so different but our friendship is so solid.

yesterday, was ushering at the CO concert. i couldnt spot alex and chin teck. but i have ur cd. maybe u guys should autograph for me...

and i am very touched that SAOs remenber me. i am used to being a forgotten character. anyway, i wasnt that prominent to them anyway. touched til the point of tears and supremely amazed that they have such good memories to remenber my name. (maybe cause it is easy to remenber.) ha.

felt i wasnt doing a lot for the CO Concert. standing there and sticking out my hand to show the way and even accidentally slapping a girl on the face when i stuck out my hand last minute while she was walking behind me. She VERY SUAY. and i very sorry. but very hilarious. HA.


at the last minute, proved myself useful coz i manged to help a pair of mother and daughter to find seats in the dark and quite full audi. hearing their thanks made mi feel good. then got free food and just horse around generally with ateam ppl.

lifa said i am going to be out of ateam. she asked for a reason for me to remain in the team. guess what. i didnt want to provide a reason. if you want to kick me out. so be it. i am okay with it. since i am gonna grad in 2 months and there is nothing much i could do essentially. cool. calm and a bit too nonchalent. haha.

well, u didnt know that i did feel sad but i refused to tear and acted it was no big deal. truth was i was very VERY glad to know it is NOT true. ... right?!

IPP stripped me of the chance to join the installation programme. OT made it impractical for me to go GM. but i am reallllly glad of the ppl there r still so nice and friendly!!=)

a long entry coz so much happened. if i was not dreaming. my friend is goonnna get married and i will be helping her out her dinner bash! hahaha. what a change in direction when we r not that different to begin with.

AM's father suddenly went hospital on friday due to heart attack. so suddden. so sad. i hope everything will be ok. it effectively made mi squash all thoughts to go overseas study. i want to stay close to home and parents and my friends. i am learning new things still. typing in chinese, even. haha.

introducing the new intern(k)

i bought lemons to freshen the air up, due to the unfortunate mess created by the supervisor.that was about around 8.15 am.

then, help kaidi write 211 for about 300 hundred envelopes. then suddenly, Mary asked me to call Eugene and tells me that there is someone outside waiting to meet a marketing rep. HAIZ. felt like i was pulled in all directions. Eugene wanted us to go to NHS, which is at CLEMENTI... NOW. right boss, not when there is some external party all prepared for a meeting...right? thats about 10 am

then this guy rep from whatever print company, was expecting a manager, too bad end up its me. somemore he so tall, literately looked down on me. But still, after confessing i am just a intern, he never lost professionalism, still went through his sales call quite nicely, perhaps more relaxed. HAH.

duno why, started to ask what i study... and turned out we studied about the same thing. except he went for a uni edu at Perth. that explains his eng accent. even got to know he is into production but too bad, doing sales coz bread is more important afterall. running out of time, if not, i could have entertain him longer. so too bad, dude. HAH.

FINALLY STEP OUT of the office around 12 pm. haha, 2 hours after the first call to E. took cab to the NHS. sun so bright even big-eyed K had to squint until he smalled eyed like me. HAH. rush there, pay cab fare there goes the money in the wallet. NO MORE MONEE. very envious when we saw sec sch kids with a BIG wad of cash nonchalently.

go there ... not very productive in my opinion. stay at office would have accomplish more.

i just feel today is quite eventful. like a whirlwind day.

i hate red

hm, went to see 2 movies in a row.

firstly DEATH NOTE 2. just so that i can know the ending for this series. in the end, every lead character dies. if you dont want to think about writing any stories about original characters any longer just make the original lead characters ALL die.


then ta-DaaH. the end.


then, BLOOD DIAMOND. NC-16. blood and gore. now i aboslutely detest the color red. yucks!!! red reminds me of blood. of blood shed. of war. of unrest and death. no thanks.

me and KT both think its a good film. yes it is. this film squashed my desire for diamonds before i could i even start. it is a quite a sad film rooted in the ugliness of the extreme side of humanity.

so, my new year was spent watching Blood Diamond, in angst and suspense. in disbelieve with how crazy , self destructive humans can be with each other. lucky i didnt have nightmares last night.



i will be older in 24 days' time. GOSH!!! ... GAWD. no more candy and school. it has become money and work. it really doesnt feel that long when i was in primary sch and being caned when i was naughty. HAHAHA.

how my priorites had changed. i want a degree. a carreer. a boyfriend. a family. and 1.8 children.
i want to study communications. earn a lot of monee. do lasik. i want to travel as much as i can. i want to invest my monee instead of just saving it in POSB.

but HAH. bullshit lah. i want to be contented with my life even if i cant have anything above.



cant be bothered to make new year resolutions anymore. they usually dont come true for me.

LAST week

it is over. the last working week of 2006. left office early according to usual standards. the person who is supposed to sign , didnt want to sign my time sheets on the spot. i mean, he said, can he sign in the afternoon, technically yes. and do intern say no? but when afternoon came he looked busy and i didnt dare to talk (disturb) him.

so i wouldnt be getting my pay on time.

GREAT.

i talked to chee keng. the very nice person from HR and i told what happen with the person who is supposed to sign and she rolled her eyes. the person who is supposed to sign probably wouldnt bite if i had asked him lah... but it shows that he isnt considerate enough towards his intern's welfare.


NVM. i wouldnt die getting pay late. chee keng said that once i submit, i will get it in a weeks' time.

i spent friday night trying to shop with kelly but end up just window shopping. hahaha. mostly. WAHAHAHHA. i need a pair of slip-on heels! pronto!

my feet is quite sad now. bruises/cuts/scars/handiplasts everywhere!!!!!!!!


to dear maxine... time will heal ur wounds. hope you wont dwelll on it.


lastly



HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!

shocked & guilty.

sometimes i dont believe myself.

i could upset my friend, a few continents away. made him feel bad abt himself and angry towards me.

i guess i accidentally crushed his ego/pride again. its something about me and guys and me rejecting guys. regardless what's their intention, friendly or otherwise. i panicked when i sensed his upset-ness, his anger. his hurt.

i panicked and didnt really understand what i said or more correctly, typed wrong. but he isnt the first guy to say that my name=rejection. ahmed syaz was the first to point this out, jokingly or not and i thought it had no ounce of truth in it.


i just want him to know that i am sorry for making him feel bad. and i remember a lot of promises which we made together. i reallly wonder will any single one of them come true.

rest rest rest!

got a MAJOR pimple near my lip. its causing major discomfort. i duno how come i am so tired despite sleeping for 7 hours. i mean, i yawn ... non stop. my eye lids twitch with exhuastion. and i fall asleep everywhere. almost. intern cannot fall asleep during work anyway. hahaha.

MCIS also had a party. 'party'. lol. think its fairly bad labeling. HAH. it would be more true if they put a 'tea' in front of it.

N today, i could finish the allorted work before time.even had time for some legal entertainment. kekekke.

had a off-in-lieu day on wednesday. thats just 2 days ago and it felt so long ago. i shopped so much that i hardly have any dough left in the bank. the good thing is, i dun have urge to shop anymore since i've got most of what i wanted. that being the key word. 'most'. HAHAH. i neever resist a good bargain lah.

and there is gonna be a new intern. i sure hope that it would not collapse last min. cause thats major good news. cause it looks like MCIS Mrkg could be doing PanPac's as well. the staff r gonna be so overworked. this situations had potential to be one of those case studies in our exam paper.

like, what r the advantages of merger in companies. the benefits of outsourcing and not outsourcing. the advantage is one person do two's companies' work. -.- think the managers have it worse.

i listened to SO MUCH 93.3 fm that i could practically sing to whatever chinese song u could possibly pick at K-box! thanks to all my colleagues there. kekeekek.

they like to joke tat i have stay back another six months to pay back for my blur-ness and for whatever not done right.

i am sure they r joking. so i laughed along.

then another guy said, besides working for another six months, potentially working for free, the situation would most likely deteriorate to ME paying to work for them. they laughed of course. i pretended not to hear. and resisted glaring at him or rolling my eyes.

he uses nice perfume. i mean, cologne or whatever. and before i forget, its kenneth cole's black. or something which sounds like that.

going off to sleep.=)

spinning around

YAY, the mktg team finally finish the website content updates. maybe need to adjust and refine here and there but the bulk its done. PHEW!!!

ever since the mrktg team starts to go on lunch together. we become quite crazy. I become quite reckless with my words. you know, the classic eve-syndromes. though my words are harmless and funny, it still might rub people the wrong way. BUT they would usually laugh first and say, EVE!!! YOU JUST EATTEN LEOPARD'S GUTS, IS IT??

okay, i will be careful to toe the line and not cross it. actually, i prefer not to be near the line at all. anyway, its been fun working with agnes, my Assist Manager.

she knows my weak points and doesnt ask me to any designing work. kekekee, i also have the real, convenient REASON of not havin photoshop at my comp. (thank god)

and there is also this guy, whose cologne is TERRIBLY NICE! i wonder whats the brand. perhaps its calvin kien? i have to ask him if i ever see him again. but the downside is, the cologne is there , mainly to mask his smoking aftermath. at least i think so.


staring at the computer screen for 13 hours is way too much for my eyesight. there isnt enough greenery in my life. and the luckiest thing i manage to GEDDIT. if not i will be so screwed upside down for the CMS update job. coz it always the intern's job. another PHEW!!!.


then after a eco-meeting/talk cock session at JURONG EAST... i met up with HCY to... what else. shop lo. i am going crazy with the sales! we were out from 1-8 pm and on average i maybe spent about $15 per hour. i am so gonna be broke. but somehow, i DON'T CARE. there is always the next paycheck.

on our way back, we saw some1 performing on a harp. some lady. so she looked realllllllly poised, elegant and angelic/fairy-like. i always associate fairy/angels with harps.

and thus, my day out ended with a nice musical note.

milkshake night

Oh my freaking god, 2006 will come to an END SOON. SO SOON!!!!!

Faint. Faint. Faint.
got my clubbin experience. Thought I would be like a piece of rock but with the loud music, the body just automatically swayed to the music. HAHA. The queueing part was hideous though. Coz it was the milkshake night, we were all like sardines but lucky got friend’s friends who could provide a helping hand.

But my time inside the club was cut short coz my friend had a panic attack. Yes. A panic attack. Coz she is claustrophobic and there were too many people for her brain to have sufficient oxygen and she had an attack. Poor thing.

And I bump into the Dinesh and Tim of all people. HAHAHAHAHA.

And I went to on a shoppin spree. Shoppin spree gives me a high. An impromptu spree. Wouldn’t consider it as retail therapy though. I realize I am more into comfort eating. Hmm, it would explains my (growing) size.

I think I cant wait for 2007. =)

further...

i wan to go Uni!!

we drank champagne. y did i ever associate champagne with sophisticatedness and classiness and everything nice and worldly?

hahaha. ok , whatever.

i wan to go jogging. i am afraid it will rain.

chOices

i've come to a conclusion.

what u choose is what you get.

and

i might doubt my decisions, but i dont regret.


the reprecussions r always unpredictable. and it happens to be worser or at least unhappier than i had thought it would be. i thought there would no reprecussions, to be honest.

surpRISE!

i went shoppin with Ms M&M and i took a pic with her. haha. my face isnt the biggest hor.

WHEEEeeee! i had a surprise present from my good ole brother. who is back from HK since yesterday. right! it's even wrapped. its PINK. -.-hm, it is a watch. i like. despite i am not a pink person. kekeke. thanks, korkor. i will try to be a better, nicer sister. ie refrain from crashin ur comp and buy nice food for u.

TGIF?

for the past Fridays, i had been doing major OT.

so what if its Friday? i still need to stay back in office and finish whatever work i have. work i would have long finish if they could just make up their mind abt what they want. oh, whatever... change is the only constant. at least i can sleep more hours after a long day at work.

my direct supervisor behaves as though she might leave this co. any moment.

will there come a day when this mrkting departmt has only interns and managers?

one month of IPP

in the span of ONE month,

i have undergone a change of boss and soon, a change of seating and maybe desk number? argh. whatever.

my brother gone to HK! bet he will LOADS of fun, joy and laughter and those un-mentionables. muahahaha. (my perfered kind of laughter now)better bring back something nice for each and every1 of us!

major OT

friday morning, I stepped into the office feeling quite apprehensive cause I was supposed go see some fierce, uptight woman for next work task.that karen woman whom an gie didnt have any positive feeling for.

I was afraid that she would be unbearably hard. But it was ok. Turns out that she wanted me to just tag along for the next field trip.

No exactly field trip, but u get what I mean.

From CME launches to F&N, to Printers at tuas, to Warehouse visit. marketing is kinda not-boring in its way.

I like! But still I keep making those stupid careless mistakes, like spelling errors!the truth is i always want to get things done fast, so much that i never check enough to make sure its perfect. anyway... I think I should start spelling things the way it should be spelt in my blog.

mi and genesis had to stay til 9 PM. thats 3 hours OT. i stayed behind simply to fax to ALL the secondary sch. boss arranged Mac for us as dinner. Mac 2x in a week.


Next Monday is the big day and I seriously pray that I don’t screw up for stuff under my charge. If not, I would absolutely just get a F for my IPP straightaway.
* stomach churning at the thought of it.

me and my cube

u r lookin at 5 days of my life.

i think i am satisfied.

an gie left. before she left , she had issues with karen, and karen practically shoot the messenger (me) when she talk to me abt the issue. in the end, she had her way and i hope she is happy/ -.-.

so the best thing is keep quiet and open ears big big.

then caught up with some sec friends. have they changed ? i dunno. if they did, i couldnt tell. hahaha. went to cafe cartel, i tried their new items and it sucked lah. pictures LIE. if there is ever a restuarant whose pictures doesnt lie , i swear i will be the most loyal customer it ever will have.

cheated by pictires 2x in a week!

so my friend and i were talkin abt r we satisfied with what we have now. r we satisfied with our lives now.

i guess i am. i dare not ask for more or think abt more cause if i dun achieve it, i know i will be reallllllllly disappointed. i think i am procastinating in determining wht i exactly want in life and how am i gona be on my way.

i wan to be a carefree teenager as long as possible. going to work is going to sch. except that whatever mistakes i make in work affects the company too besides just myself.

actually i like being in marketing. but as interns, i keep kana faxing. and following-up. nothing intense. i wish to lighten the load of michele, but i know too little to help.

got a new boss.everything changes again i guess. i definitely hope its for the better. put me in a more important role. hopefully not the web content management... i would just drop dead inside the computer system.=(

i was realllllllly snappish with M.Y. so old already still so uber lame. cannot stand him le. at first still think he quite funny and laid back. he is laid back. just that super cold. and lame. and not funny. total gets on my nerves today.

y cant i have just a straight answer?

the lame-cold-not-witty replies totally rub me the wrong way.ARGH.