.....=X

i never learn my lessons, always breaking promises. somewhat but not entirely.

what else? the workaholic in me is rearing its head.

now, i dont need to look forward to weekend. hahahahahaahah. and i hope it rains lesser. ;)

all this while...;)

tada... what is so special with this pic?

heehehehe. kekekekke. i practise how to put fake eyelashes. and while i am at that, i put the sticker thinggy to make myself have obvious double eyelid just to see how it would look. heehee.dont my eys look twice/thrice as big? I like!!!!hahaha ;) should i start saving and just go for the eyelid cosmetic surgery?lol.

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and Last last week... managed to squeeze in a cycling trip with mr hamburger...heehee. to east coast!! then he said we can cycle to geylang for nice food, and since i am very ON person, i said OF COURSE, LETS DO IT.

And we did. omg. GOSH!! super tiring and torturing to the butt... all the turns and curves... damm tiring!! meandering through the construction sites, argh.... but it was worth it. ( think of the calories burnt!!;) our rented bikes, at the front.

first up, the famous 24h serving tou hua.

this is the hongkong dim sum across the tofu shop. heehee. we r both glutton. it was nice. esp the glutinous rice( is that what its called?.

and of course, we must appreciate the nice scenery before ending the day out.

life is a journey

evon called me recently... yakked about the pay and work etc etc.

realistically speaking, i think i am worse with my current situation. but there are always bright spots in any situation and from where i am standing i am seeing plenty!!;)

tmr is my last day at ocbc... so dammm fast, ya? its been one month! i've been sending out resumes but although there are loads of job openings, i feel job searching and getting employ is quite hard, regardless how gd they say the economy is.

but still, i cant help but be filled with hope and excitement everytime some1 calls me for a job interview. but then... so far, my interview sucked. my one and only interview. the moment she said that it was a marketing and sales position... i deflated. inside and out. hahaha.

it just feels so kana-cheated la. say marketing then end up got sales?! bleah. NO WAY!!!

in any case,TGIF every1 :)

going, gone.

okay

i know i sounded real depressed and unhappy when i was talking abt my job. but hey, i've got good news! i am gonna be replaced real soon. now that, that is confirmed, i feel way happier and more positive towards the boss. ;)

though i feel it was a wasted opportunity.

in any case, life goes on and i shall go on, hunting my job. hahaha.

i like that i will have a chance to pick and choose again. not knowing where i will end up makes mi excited and regardless, i still anticipate the future!!

my boyfriend, is feeling unhappy with his work too. evon is feeling unhappy with her work too. jay is unhappy with his work too.... well, and the list goes on. haha. i stay positive and optimistic that one day, i will find a job that i am willing to slave over. like those people in %^&*South who work til nine or ten and tells me, it just takes time to grow accustomed to working way late.

(I DON'T WANT!!)

but it's okay. when you are down, the only way to go is UP ;)))))

cam whores aka firewire peeps =)

10 Nov! Ah-ho's bday!! happy 20th bday!! she is back from a 2- week trip where she was busy travelling asia with 14 days. such exciting life!!!!!!!!!!!

we missed her loads!!!! at first she say dun1 come, but luckily her conscience caught up with her (wicked laughter) just kidding, ah ho! we r just glad u decided to come.

we met up over jap dinner. waited 30 min despite with reservations. crazyyyy. i wonder how come iciban deserved the super long queue it had.

and the waitress knocked over the miso souP!;S

i dunno what we r laughing about and y we act cute subsequently.

here's when we started attracting srangers' glances.

After cam-whoring and attracting strangers' glances, we still had room for something sweet, despite being so stuffed! By alex's recommendation. the mango is damm sweet, not sure about fresh but whatever, it tasted bery nice and eh...sweet. and sour. coz got strawberry sorbet. drools. drools. drools.i wanna try the kiwi one next time!!!!!!

after dessert, we went our separate ways. i think we meet up like once every 2 weeks, but it seems so far part, ya. then again. of course, since we used to see each other 5 days of the week. rachie is coming back from australia!! so we r gonna have another major gathering again!!;)

not feelin so great

when one half of a couple says "we need to talk"... its hardly good news. =S

i ... dont like the new job. i know i can do it. but i dont want to do it for a person who does not know how to appreciate it. i am so stressed with my work n sch work.

when a full time student says he doesnt have enuf time to do his sch work, where does that leave the part time student takin the same modules???????

i have become more short tempered these days. too stress. too stress. i cant be happy every single day of the week, of the month, of the year. so do the rest of us. sometimes, ppl says seeing you made my worries go away. BUT.

i am a realistic, practical person with not much romanticsm.

seeing you doesnt make my worries go away. its always there at the back of my mind. seeing you, gives me happier things to focus on though, and thats very important to me. its very helpful to me. hahaha.

alrighty, i wanna say sorry for being so short tempered. i am just too stressed out. no time no time. no time... no time. i am just so scared of not enuf time....

okay, i know what u r thinkin. no time ? no time? then still here to type ur blog entry??!! well, its my right to do whatever i wish to de-stress hor.

i just feel i have so much to learn. learn about sch, work and... love too.

BUT JUST NOT everything at the same time!!!!!!!!!!!

at the bottom of the food chain

when ppl ask me about my new job, i would say it is boring. first and foremost, i have to learn the everyday admin procedures... i.e. maintaining the data bases and doing up forms.

the one whom i report to is exercise freak: tai chi pro. the intern whom i learn from is very very capable, seriously i am impressed. i am just ... there. and thats how big the team is.

then i told her if 50% of my time is to do data entry, i am afraid i am not the right candidate. its very fustrating coz i rather be doing my sch work than data entry la. (but then if its really data entry for my pay... i also OooooOOOOoooKayyy-lor. haha)

anyway, happen to speak to old colleagues. the assist mktg manager. then she say this might the teething period where i will be doing things i hate most before i can move on, this period is the test of the character, the patience and the determination.

but i dun feel as good in the env lor. not abt the capabilities... but the atmosphere and the feelings the perms generate. somemore i sit outside the big shot's desk!! i can hear her discipline-sch-mistress -like orders and conversations. sometimes i think its absolutely spine-chilling.

overall... my other comment is... raffles place has a lot of places of good food!!! whahahahahaha.

end of IPP part 2

hohoho, i just received the letter from Agency. this is not a dream. its in black n white.i am leaving n going. so fast!!


still...lemme introduce my very-soon-to-be-eX- manager!!

her name is Michelle!just like my previous IPP supervisor. and she just celebrated her XXth bday before leaving the office. (age is a secret for women.)

she is flying to thailand for her bday celebration.

happy birthday!!!!

not even thirty for a mktg mgr, i think she is considered quite quite young?

today, thursday, i am on annual leave! :) stay at home to do sch work. but i feel sick, so i guess i wont be productive anyway.

countdown: 1 last working day!

too bad i dun have a slacking period in between jobs. life's like that... always time not enough.

songs and trouble and future

today, finally i got to meet up with my best gal pal after so many months!!missed her company! hanging out with her, i got the feelin of being transported back to good ole sec sch days. not much stress. food was cheap. sch was near. friends were true.

just a short while and i ended up with a new pair of shoes, nail polish etc. haix. girls. i need to start saving up for my pending vacation.


there is always a first time for everything isnt it. whatever is hidden and oppressed will sooner or later come floating to the surface, and the longer it takes, the more explosive the outcome will be. hiding it, willing it to go away, is just faking everything. and wont it make things worst?

XoXo

i am scared of my new job... >,<>this is really happening.


maybe i should start envisioning myself as a tai tai and i will be able to be one of the tai tais instead of one of the worker ants. whahahahahahahahaha. maybe one day, my future husband is a .... millionaire or something coz he struck toto. that will be damm cool lor. whahahah.

okay, on the other hand, i am really mega mega excited la. i need the space here to gush about my excitement. whwhwhwhaaaa. hohohohohoohohoh. yah, baby! i am excitedly-scared abt where i will be heading.

after one and a half years later... i will be armed with a degree and it will be official, man. i will be climbing up the corporate leaders and er.... be in a well heeled position lor. what more can i hope and work towards to? tai tai is just not feasible. >,<

note to self:i need to start shifting my attitude. start asking : SO WHAT?!


Countdown:
1 working week. or. 4 working days.

from secondary to poly

had a sec sch gal pals lunch meeting at pizzahut. we took such different lifestyles and we are all at different points in life. i reALLY wonder what life has in store for each of us, twenty years down. WHAT WILL we become? i am so curious. sch, work, family, friends, love... how do we managed all this into 24 hours ??

now we are 5 young ladies, with a baby in a pram. hahahahaha. young ladies will grow to become auntie and... the baby will grow to become a brat and god knows, if any one else will become a mother in the near future. near... meaning by next year.

i cant be a mum!! i am still a child!!

ookkkaaayyyyyy. after the lunch appointment, i went to meet up with firewire i. e. maxine, teckie, KK and later ahmed!! fell very- asleep in the train though. tired sleepy. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

so tai tai... with our beloved seishii and his even more beloved sense of humour.

the group of 4. that is like only 1/2 the group lor. supposed to be the 5 of us but i was totally outta the pic!!!=C. syazzie sounded SO SEXY after this army stint. lol. excessive use of his throat has given him a damm hoarse quality which sounded... sexy lor. whahahahahahahahahah.

omg, i cant believe i have to memorise 12 chapters of law. can i really do it?? my memorizing skills... had been forsaken for god knows how long???????!!!!!!!

oh yah, i went to sign the contract for my new company alreadyzzzzzzzzzzzz. the agent said to me :" you dont know how lucky you are, Eve." and pls, dont expect me to believe this. i just LOL immediately. am i really? lucky? how am i supposed to believe that coming from an agent lor? he said i wasnt the first to be interviewed... and i was lucky to be chosen. am i really? i am expecting OT work and overworked. hahahaha.

it will be so different, working for a company with so many staff under one roof. office politics to 1000000 times, ya? i hope small fry like me dont have to be involved.

that familiar feeling of anticipation and fear mixed with excitement is back inside me. whahahahahhaaha. i really look forward to the first day of work. i cant believe, in a way, my wish came true. be careful what you wish for!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sadly, i am lucky

questions that keep churning in my mind...

how come my colleagues are such nice wonderful people? how come i still see their smiles, hear their laughter ....with me even tho i am the most dumbdumb person ever in that small space we work in? ( of course, taking everything at face value...*evil laughter)

i feel... i dont deserve their kindness. the better they are to me, the worse i feel abt myself. i want to run away. haix. too bad, at the same time, i am running away from a free 4 star trip to taiwan. i feel so super ultra sad.

there is a lot abt my current company that i will miss.... the different country manager ( and the food they bring back from their overseas trip), the different people from different country that i get to come across basically. =( and errrrrrrrrrrr.... thats abt it. whahhaahhaha.

my director says, so what if you commited a bad job? what if the same happens at the new company, are you going find a way to transfer....? of course not! that is my immediate response.

but... when i first had the thought to change job, change environment, i had wanted to try the banking industry. banking industry.... which according to my agent, once closed its doors on poly grads even for entrance level positons.

as luck had it, i spotted an ad for marketing assist(bank) and they promptly called me up and hired me after a 10 min interview, 2 hours later.

sometimes even if you want to run, it depends whether you have a place to run to.

i found it. and its my ideal place too!! what i have to give up.... no choice lor. at least i had a taste of it for 6 months. i will take it as another 6 months internship. yeah. reallly, i learnt and experience a lot, a lot. and whats makes it worthwhile was that the people were so absolutely nice about me the dumbdumb. so nice and patience and understanding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


the people who interviewed me already hinted they are workaholics and hinted that i would have to work OT.

OT.... who scared who lor. MCIS is the king of OT lor. whahahahahah. except that i now have part time studies to worry about. but lets just let nature run its course.

i got a lot to look forward to!!!!!! time is just not enough for me to do whatever i want and all that i want.

random

i just feel like posting this pic again. actually i duno if i posted this pic before. whahahah, but i definitely blogged abt this event before, the PRE UNIVERSITY SEMINAR WHERE WE WERE VIP!!!!!

misssssed those days damm bad. sch days. sch events= free nice food= eve- is -foodie- jokes= eve is fat. whahahahahaaaaa. i remmenber chocolate ecliars, sushi, ice cream puff, cakes, brownies from the below event. love their catering. dumb dumb jc students who served us. whhahaha. i MISSED ALL MY POLY FRIENDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i slept for ten hours. and then i still napped for an hour? and i SNORED!!! whahahaha, i dont usually have a habit of snoring... only when i am tired. VERY VERY tired. faint. dammm. i just dont like to snore. lucky i cant hear myself when i snore. whahahahahahah.

i am craving for a new start! i hope i can have a new start.

i hope i can work in raffles place, church street.it will be so so so cooooolllllll!!!!!! but then again, who knows what happen behind those doors? so many uncertainties but i look forward to the ending and a new beginning. whenever that might be.

argh-sad!!!

Lust, caution didnt have the impact on me i was expecting. I really think its because of the cut scenes. without the cut scenes, it was already 2.5h. what a long movie, i was kinda restless already.

but anyway, the leads can act so much with just their eyes. lotsa shots when they dont need dialogues to convey the story.

but without the cut scenes which had so much hype before, the movie just doesnt seem to live up to my expectations.

which brings me to another point. why not retain the original version and just show it at R21??
is the gov's decision or the cinema's operator? i rather not watch the lust, caution and just let it remains as the hype which every1 is talking about rather than see it but not see it all.

i am a S

caught an opportunity to attend course- relationship n communications mgt.

it was mainly delivered via loads of jokes and laughter. jokes usually made with references to sexual innuedos>,<. tsk tsk.

then the speaker profiled us and i am such a high S. yah,S. a team worker who likes things Slow and Steady. usually quiet and not flamboyant. blend into the crowd. dont like to argue or rock the boat.

that's true leh. 100% true in the office context.

its not that i dont like to argue, but just that, in the office, whats the point of arguing and make things difficult if there is no need? i really very much prefer the quietness and peacefulness of the boring times. i am a yes-person if i see no reason to say no.

ZH has become my personnal taxi driver already. see him almost everyday coz he takes the trouble to send me to sch. (*smirk, to ah-gu) whahahahahah. and he also send me back home too... and i usually feel hungry n end up eating supper. there goes my slimmer bod!!!!!i am also takin lots of caffiene since i wanna stay up late to do my project.

haix, the danger of dating, ya? a lot of eating n no exercising.=S


i cant wait to see that Ang Lee movie;)

where is my ZZZ

eh, i am up at 5 Am, doing work meant to be done in office. i wonder why i couldnt and didnt do them in office the way its meant to be.

actually, i wonder why i do things the way i do. >,<

a lot of things to be done! the projects are starting to roll in and those reference books are so super heavy. no time to sleep. n for some reason, i dun feel like sleeping anyway.think finally found a can of cold caffeine that seem to work! lol.

accidental murderer

i actually caused a PEN to be stabbed into his palm.

such supreme pain, his sleepy mood immediately disappeared. n i felt guilty supremely. but luckily he never cry la. haha/ as if he will.

there is lotsa work to do... i am just afraid i let slip something.

=S

bad:
yet another embarrassing elementary mistake, i made. majorly embarrassing. majorly dumb dumb. so stupid that it is silly to talk abt it. so we didnt. n i am so embarrassed of myself that i just want to vanish into thin air and let every1 forget i exisit.

i think by now, they r on their guard, high alert, with they work with me... if they dun1 to get into soup. whahahahahahaha. very sad leh. but i cant help it. i duno why am i so dumbdumb and clueless.

i am just super glad, they dun make mi feel worse over it.

GOOD:
I FINALLY MANAGED TO INSTALL WINDOWS 2007 INTO MY VISTA OS AFTER 1 STUPID MISERABLE WEEK OF TRYING.

gawd.

now, finally this episode is over and i have to thank alvin and alex for it. nope, they dunno each other but the common thing is they lemme their version of office and together, their discs allowed me to win the war against the stupid dumbdumb OS bug. i assume its a bug.

thanks to gary who pointed me to alvin for help. heeheee.

its all fated, isnt it. esp when i dun even know alvin is into computers! at all! previously. lucky fate has it this way, if not i will be on my way to sim lim to buy a 200 plus dollar software FOR NOTHING. goddd. monee is not meant to spend like this!!!

congrats to ZH for passing his class three license!! hohohoho. i bet you know what is the next step and pls dun pretend or act dumbdumb. oh, of course i dun mean to pressue u but if u can, the sooner, the better. whahahahahahahahahaha.

went to my first meet-the-friends session n it was OK. i dun mind his friends at all. cause they are not that difficult to be with. ;) but they dun look like the same type at all lor.

their hobbies ranged from hitting the books to hitting the clubs to hitting the backside of the baby girl.

hahahah. kiddding abt the last one. coz the parents like all other parents, obviously dote on their daughter A LOT.

nightmare?

i hardly remember if i dream, i often think i dont dream. anyway, i remember a dream from last night.

i was asked to go out and buy something by my boss, but i didnt buy anything after i reach the shop for whatever reason. n then, my boss could buy the same things by sending an email to the seller or something while i couldnt despite a trip to the shop!

ahhhhhhhhhhh.

okay, calm down. LOL.

i wonder can i really handle sch and work. i dont think i can afford to find out coz what if i screw up at work (again)coz i am too burnt out? its better to just leave without further damage to my rep. but the thing is, the timing is so akward. coz HR already included me in the Taipei trip. if i leave... it's SUCH A WASTE.

so stressed. haha.


yesterday ate too much. bloated. yest, the bloody traffice was so bad. yest, i yelled at the innocent older guy coz i was just so bloody fustrated.

restaurants accidents

yesterday went swenson, some waitress crashed a plate of main course onto the floor. she turned too fast and the tray went off-balance. a loud crash of the glass, lucky nothing hit the diners. reminded me of my baked rice incident.;S

today went LJS, n beneath the fish-skin, there was a slime/worm-like brown piece of... WHATEVER that just look like a slimy worm. i called the mgr to come see and he didnt know what it was either... i was compensated with a chocolate pie. hohohohoho.

there is a lot of gd things happenin to people ard me...

congrats to evon who is confirmed. congrats to my assist mgr who just finished throwing the chinese wedding dinner. congrats to HCY who is so happy with her decision after all the internal struggle. congrats to my dear friend who had a baby shower recently. the baby was so so so cute. hahahaha. congrats to kelly for ending her nightmarish-job. congrats to me for finding some one who is counting down the days n years before he can marry me. WHAHHAHA.



actually there is so many things to be happpy about.

a stone in my heart

i had a good start, only to deteoriate rapidly during the last lap. i cant find any reason which are valid, i think i dun need reason to justify. the reason is... me. i feel like a mess. thats why i am one. thats what KK would love to say. u r what u feel. things can come true due to willpower. yada yada yada... even tho he didnt manage to find any girls wearing short skirt when he said he wanted but thats beside the point. *rolls eyes.


didnt i used to say this were like an internship? guess i am having a F-grade now... but still got a few weeks to pull it to a D or a C-grade. in the meantime, i am still whining n feeling dumbdumb but just be prepared for... everything!!!


ahmed enlisting today!