unavoidable. NS

we met over high tea today at that super nice soba japanese restautant. this time i had green tea tofu with vanilla ice cream and some slices of fruits on the top with red bean paste to go along. su-go-ii desu! the rest had cream amitsu except ahmed who ordered red bean paste.

Below, mr alex shieh, who injured his hand accidentally and lucked out on confinement due to his audition ( good luck:)).therefore, he could be there with us. heehee.

and ms birdie n me acting cute. ( i know i am not suited for this. hahahah.)
and... ahmed on the right, is the reason of our small outing. hahah. he is going IN NEXT SATURDAY!! time flies. i feel so sad too!! but... soon, 2 weeks will be over and we can get together as firewire soon enough!

kk will be going IN one month later... its time to count down too.

today, we totally went japanese all the way and totally overate. at least for me. high tea, dinner with in the space of 3 hours. and then some potatoe chips that we had from ah ho's subway meal. hahahah.

and then, i met up with Mr Caveman ( coz he slouches as though he is one) over ice cream. guess we r still in the honeymoon period. i just like the way he think he is funny.... ( but actually he is not) hahah. :)

down n out

i am , like at the height of my PMS, when i feel damm down and out. Lousy with a L. everything that can go wrong, most likely will go wrong if I am involved. murhpy's law rule!!! >,< SOBXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX.

of all plaques to have a loose screw, the ONLY one that the MD present is the one with the loose screw.

but in situations like this, the MD and guest shown that they are REALLY gracious people who aint that high-maintainence about non -threatening issues. ( PHEW)

i cant figure out how did i messed up simple things!

just lucked out that i got really nice n understanding colleagues but i cant help feeling damm guilty at my... lousiness that made life difficult for them.

can i have a company retreat

it doesnt feel good to know that there are people who are not interested in talking to u and helping u understand. they rather talk to someone else who already knows. then they dun need to explain to a ignorant person.

my company is going to Taipei, Taiwan for a 3 day company retreat!!!!!!!!!!!! that is fantastic news. there was a buzz once people recieved this mail... and to my horror, when people r already talkin abt it, i STILL NEVER received this mail. i was so scared that it is a deliberate action, that i was deliberately left out cause i wont be there for company retreat.but... i got received lah. hahah.

i duno why, but i just got this irrational fear that keeps making me so confident-less about gaining permanency in this company. and the thing is, i think i underperformed. >,< there is numerous times where i couldnt ans qtns posted to me by my superiors. haix. maybe my irrational fear is simply i am too embarrassed to stay if i am not up to standards. okay. there u go, the root of my fear.

this is yet another mgr-less week and next week will be another one time. i look forward to my Uni class. there is always a mixture of fear and excitement whenever its time to meet new people again. it will be hard to bump into firewire-like people but i will be hopinhg anyway. i see my ex supervisor, so happy so buddy with her uni mates, i really wish that i will be lucky enough to be like her.

i finally got the p-size white Fox jacket which i liked so much the moment i laid eyes on them. last piece,too! shopping , sometimes, is also about fate !!!!!!!!

so tired. always sleepyy. no matter where i am. =C

peace at heart

i've got good news. i made up with that pettychildishcolleague.

haahaa. despite whatever names i have for him, he was a friend in the first place, and i hate to lose a friend i made. i mean, every1 has shortcomings, i am just as lousy as the next person to me but we accept the shortcomings, try to improve on them and work our way around it.

how do i escape the zzz-monster after lunch.... dont eat??!!! IMPOSSIBLE but really, its so ... irritating to feel so sleepy at work lah.


let me have a moment to daydream and create a fantasy...

i daydream about...

being converted to a perm, promoted to a exec... and most esssentially .... a RISE in pay. then an expansion in the jobscope.tobegivenamarkettobeinchargeof.preferablyjapanmarketandthenthey will send me to study jap so that i can be better equipped to handle jap.flytojapandwork on -off.occasionally. not that i want to be based there.

BUT WHATEEVER. in anycase, i know its not coming true. so i am... sharing my wildest fantasy with my pos here. just imagine it makes mi feel on a psuedo high. hahahaha.

but, that is something i can work towards to. =) in the next 2-3 years.

aftermath part 101

u know what, a blog is a place where u r supposed to blog abt what u want... and yet that is the furthest from the truth.

i feel so sad.

i might have control the urge to let loose my sarcastic tongue and shut my trap during the day n yet when i am at the refuge of my home, at my blog, i still have to shut my trap!! what sense is there in this.

yah, i am blogging abt this in relation to that pettychildishcolleague coz i went to read his blog coz i KPO. hahahaha. the current situation is ... we r both over it and we r former friends. yup. he cant be more right than this.

haixx. i think i will try to talk to him and see if there is anything left to salvage. then i can leave the office knowing i had tried.

fantastic food

today, i had too much to eat!!


i have to say... today's lunch was dammm good.

we went to Fish and Co. long time since we went there, guess it is those place where you visit 2x a year is 1 time too many. i cant remember the last time i went there! was it my 19th birthday? or my 20th birthday? hahaha. really seriously cant remember.

it was satisfying, n worth every penny. the seafood clam chowder was fabulous! the main course was... just yummy.

today's dinner is also so oiishi. home made curry. hot n just a little spicy. i just poured the sauce all over the rice and it made the rice 600x more delicious. hahahah.


in conclusion, i overate. BLEAH >,<


at work:
we r supposed to set personnel targets. sounds... tough. and scary. what if u cant deliver? just kick u outta the company!?? scary scary!!

countdown to appraisal, 2 more months. exactly. if they dun extend... its a relief/shame. if they extend... its a joy coz they MUST MUST MUST raise my pay til i think its worth it.

learning.....

rueben brought his baby boy into office for baby shower. the memorable thing is... the catering he ordered was dammmmm GOOD. oiishi desu ne. haha, his baby boy wouldnt wake up and play with us, despite us using loads of eye power and mental power.


announcement
i am giving myself n the other older guy a chance to see if things can work out... exploring the world of relationships.

so far, i think i suck at it. hahahah. with my character, i am the exact opposite of the typical good girlfriend. he once asked, so whats the difference between mi and the rest of ur guy friends?


eh... u pay for my... almost-everything ??



JUST KIDDING. obviously that is NOT true. hahahahahahahaah.


anyway, i have no intention to learn how to bake a cake, how to cook , how to do housework just coz i have some1 whom i supposed to try doing all the above for. eh....... not now anyway. u can nvr know whether i will change my mind in the future or not. kekekekekekekke.

Sunburnt @ Siloso

azhar's son is so cute! azhar's gene is distinct in him. hahahaha, small age, such a joker already. he tried to walk backwards, while waving goodbye at us. by the time he turned his small little head around, he bumped into the pot of plant about the same height as him.

i cant help it. i laughed out loud MAJORLY. evil me? but i laughed at how cherubic he is. its been long time since i could use cherubic to describe any1 i come into contact with. haha.

anyway, my saturday was spent with chinnyteckie n ahmed syazzie. being toasted alive on a superhot saturday afternoon as student helpers ball-runner for the EPL-fans event power98 organised.

i learnt the importance of putting sunblock consistently during a hot afternoon.

despite everything, i dun mind spending the time there to chase after the soccer balls. just for experience's and goodie bag's and friends' company sake.

then went to vivo to get baby wipes to clean ourselves up. heehee. we waddled past the shallow water, akin to crossing river, to get to Daiso. hilarious experience. hahahahahahah.

think vivo is designed to be one of those dating spots, with views facing the sea, loads of corners/holes for couple to nest themselves somewhere. saw couples dippin their feet inside the shallow waters, n i really wanna know what would it be like to accidentaalllly push them inside. hahahahaha. evil.


trying quite hard to find a jacket which is calling my name, but turned out to be quite hard, as per normal. the harder you try, the worse things seem to get... sometimes. people like to say you wont know until you try. or, you should keep trying until you succeed. but to try n try again, is so exhausting and fustrating when you couldnt even get a satisfactory response. things seem to go round n round in a non-conclusive manner. it gives me a headache.

breeze

i like night breeze. dippin ur feet in the cold water. it all feels great.

i made my mama angry coz my phone bill overshot.

i should learn japanese, thoroughly, so that i can work in the japanese market, but how? i dun think i can handle that now, esp with part time uni coming up and also full time work. but if i dun work, maybe can learn, but where i do get the sch fees all saved up??? want to cry.


the oldest trade in mankind, is the saddest trade too. nowadays, would any1 want to do that as an ambition? waiting on the sidewalks ,waiting to be picked up, hoping to brought back to a room. bleah. n the papers said that a prostitute was kana robbed of her handbag n not paid for her service. guys can be such bastards!!

how do u trust guys when they r capable of such despicable actions? so... the tactic would be Not To Trust. can trust... only as far as u can throw them and that's not a lot. for me, the sole tactic i live by to deal with men, is not to give them what they want. not until they given u what u want, whatever it is, that u want. hahahahaha. is it confusing?

but anyway. i dun trust. not becoz i had been hurt b4 terribly but coz i witness ppl kana hurt so terribly especially when they had given literately whatever they can give to a man they supposedly love n love back them.


bleah.

pirorities

just reread my previous entry n now, mere few days later, my feelings towards work has changed again. how capricious of me?

anyway. i dont want to sound
like a workholic. feel ... so fake ah. esp with regards to my current job. hahaha. none of us r workholic n thank god for that.

my colleague from other dpt actually ask mi to put up a good performance so that they have no reason not to extend me. i am trying. and if i am not good enough, i also got no problems with that... haha.

have i really found a shoulder i could lean on for always???

happily busy

=)

i feel happy. i am happy. i am delirious with my happiness n excitement. whhahahahaahahah.


this is because... i am finally doing Work. Work which makes mi feel alive and makes my life more enriched. wHoo-HOOOOO.

i feel so excited knowing that i can learn so much with what i am gonna do. michelle might be jaded by this time, but i am the fresh greenhorn, eager to learn!! SOOO exciting!!!!! do presentations for marketing plans, dig out facts n figures abt the industry... come up with promo mechanics.... etc etc.

today is the first time my hands r tired from all the typing for work related stuff. haha.

mi n michelle even said the same thing at the same time. hee. means mi n boss can be on the same wavelength. kinda comforted by this ...


but whatever it is, i hope i dun fall flat on my face by not being able to deliver.

pms mood swing

had an semi impromptu primary school gathering. less than 10 but i would consider it a success cause none of us met up in a group, more than 5, for about 8 years. effectively speaking, since we graduated. hahahahaha. thanks to YK who was super high n kept calling p-sch mates up, out of the blue. hahhaahha.

imagine callin some1 up and telin that person : "Hey there is a p-sch gathering, n its NOW! wan come or not? "

surely, withou a doubt most of them thought "crazy" without skippin a beat. but there is some ,who did come down even tho it is literately last minute. since we met in Bukit Panjang and most of them live near here.=)

the sch flower n grass are in the pics!!! (u can play GUESS WHO n leave a tag to tell mi ur guess but no prizes though) they were nicknamed the legendary Xiao Long Nu n Yang Guo. hhahahahaahha. the guy is totally sick of this joke, but we had a lot of fun laughing over this.

most of them are in the NUS. some doctors, some chem enginners. we even got a friend, not in uni, but trainin to be accountant. n he has finished writing a script which he hopes to sell. but none of them are snobbish. the favourite word of some of them appears to be 'chui'. hahahahah. i tried to follow their uni topics, n it seems to me, that their world is so small.

surely they know ur friends if ur freinds went to the same uni as them. coz they would have some connections via JC or Sec Sch. lol.

most of them come from the Top 3 JC. i am jealous of their brain. bleah. how come they can achieve such good results? how hard did they study for it? how many more times effect did they put in compared to me? haix. i will never know.

but at least, they r all cool to talk with. i think ZY is the easiest to talk to, for me. hahahaah. he catches onto my hidden meaning damm fast.

okay.POS. its that time of the month. Mood swings. hahahah. this is the not-funnyjoke-story of the month.

all righty.

humans have flaws. all of us. this time, the character flow i wanna bitch abt is... SNOBBISHNESS.

snobbishness is inconsiderate. what gives u the right to belittle and make them feel less important than U? esp when they r in the same level?

okay, i dun want to continue le.

anti climax ah. but some1 made snobbish joke-comments to me n ... due to my oversensitivity, i felt hurt.

another not-funny-joke. haix. the problem with them is, they dun laugh at their own joke. therefore to me it appears that, they take their comments not as a joke but as their observations.

i dun like being belittled, who likes? do onto others what you want others to do onto you. i am just as important as the next person. bleah.

what is a good buy

Mr intellect, asked. What is a Good Buy?

a good buy is when the product, comprising of favourable design and quality is bought with a monetary value lower than perceived. of course, as low as possible is the best, like, at least 40percent off.

there, short and sweet.

the ans of course comes from a personal point of view of a cheapskate, bargain hunter out to maximise her limited dollars n becoz she derives unexplained happiness from buying stuff on sale.

Good Buys are also products bought with Further Reduced prices at quality shops. hahaa, with such prices, the SP is comparable to This Fashion! but at higher quality!!

okay, i must confess, i indulged in a few of "good buys" in just 2 days! esp when i wasnt supposed to buy anything for myself save a bikini for a birthday girl. n i was shopping for it with Mr Big Guy who said he could be steamed from seeing too many of the too-sexually-arousing bikinis hanging in the shops. *roolllls eyes. ( i geddit, it's just a joke.)

oh, i saw those Taiwan jelly thinggy at the Taka Food Fair. they r simple oiishi ne!!! hohoho, i am going to get some of them back with me.

great bosses

generally, i have great bosses in my dpt and in the company. that is just plain luck and nothing more. great bosses are met and not pre arranged.=)

i've got a immediate superior who doesnt scream at me when i get thiings wrong but talk thing through nicely. i've got a kind marketing director who has patience to show me through the steps and always have a minute for me to ask questions. and finally the big-big boss, the managing director of the company itself, doesnt mind walking to the marketing coordinator to pass her the documents instead of her walking to him for the documents.

haix. i kana teased by my mktg director that the MD made the effort to walk towards me instead of the other way round. aiyooooo. dun make it sound political or it has hidden meaning, please. i rather just take it that he is a really nice and humble person who doesnt mind walking a few steps. afterall, our office not that big what. hahahahahaha.

in all, the bosses are great, nice and humble people. n i love them!=)



i also discovered that i can be happy over non-issue. hee. for example, XXX from Japan is coming to office!! XXX with that great chinese/us-eng/japanese accent which i just found so sexy!!!!! whahahahah. XXX the one with the sexy accent said he is lookin forward to meet me. hohohoho. okay. excuse me while i am being bimbotic.

being in this work env, i got to hear so many diff accents and languages. still, i can never get over the image of a ang-moh speaking perfect Beijing chinese. i just find it amazing... it is like, seeing the color white and have to call it yellow.

happiness is a choice

ZH asked me, why am i always so happy everyday?

on reflex, i told him cause happiness is a choice. but that is just a quote i remember from someone's msn nick or something.

on second thought, he thinks i am happy, always, probably because everything he sees/talk to me, i am happy. i am wondering, am i happy because of him?

after my retribution for shooting my mouth off, i was/am down. hah, who would use "happy" to describe me? i am permanently scarred. the fright i wrote about in my previous entry lingers. i cant be relaxed if he is near me. a single wrong adjective cant possibly warrant so much hatred in a normal less-egotistical person, right? (haahah, still taking every chance to shoot him.)

i do think back abt what i wrote. i need to say, i probably over-reacted from his jokes too. the thing is, i just see him no smooth. everything some1 i dont like do, just irks me lor. n i kana threatened over it.-.-, for airing my feelings.

people r leaving. boss even sat us down to get feedback. i refrain from tellin her there is absolutely no way i would stay after my contract ends. hahaha. unless u pay mi two thousand lor. kekekekkeke. there, i am money minded, too. but i love myself so its all right. LOL.

things to be happy about

things i am happy about today...

1. hang out with my so-cool friends.
kekekekek, boys accompany us gals shoppin to much laughter. we must be the most enteraining customers around. haha.

2. being at the right place, at the right time.
hee, i didnt know today is the NDP preview day. but since we are the right place, at the right time, we just stayed outside n wait for the fireworks to start. the weather was cool n breezy which made waiting more enjoyable. hahhahahah. and a running commentary by the kids behind us, made things hilarious.

3. made plans to hang out with friends.
i got addiction to kbox. hee. lookin forward to get my fix. n cant wait to hang out with HCY to k songs and hit high notes. kekekek.

then, catch up with my pri sch buddy for shoppping. or window shoppping. doesnt matter, it is the company that count.

and FINALLY, firewire peeps have arranged to conquer the park connectors!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tentative plans. been talkin abt that since, quite long?

hee, feeling happpy is a choice! choose the right thing, people.

n i can understand why YT has the hots of wang lee hom so bad. heehee. he looks damm gd playin piano n singing his songs. think only talented guys can attract her ba. hahahahahaha.

grad pic with cy

this is our second graduation together already. i dun think i have any pic from the secondary school graduation though. it takes 7 years for 2 graduations. graduate from teens to young adults from young adult to a young woman, huh? lol. and anyway if got sec sch pics also dunwan let u all see. hahaha. dun spoil my current image with ugly specs n makeup less face. yah, i think i am a girl who needs makeup to look more presentable.

has anything changed? i duno, she is the way i remember her to be. but hor, sadly there wont be a 3rd graduation together. that distinction will ... go to kelly giang! hahahahahaha. surprise, surprise. i will jam my blog with Firewire pics too. after this sat though. heehee. kekekekekke. whats is 4 or eh, 10, compared to the 100s we took? kekekekekekekek.

moving on-saga ends

Hi guys n gals,

just want to shift the outlook of my blog entries. cause i dun do hatred or bear grudges. just need a couple of more days to drop out of my angry/sad mode then i will totally be outta this episode. again i emphasis the fact that i admit that i was wrong.(to a certain extent)

in any case, i will never speak to this man who had raised his voice at me over such a non-issue and spoke to me so threateningly.

in a way, he scared me. i dont ever want to speak to him. i guess ... he scared me into being voiceless around him.

this was a guy who had crushed on me, u know. when he crushed on me, he was ... almost bending backwards to let me have my way. hahahaha. how fast a man can change and that is scary too.

saga continues

i cant let go of what happened on the 10th july 2007.

his stupid words keep burning in my mind and my clever retorts had to be bite back. i really hate this. i hate being beaten down just because the other party is unreasonable and angry and i am not. i hate having to back off because i was ASKED TO by my boss. i hate that i lost the chance to show the people ard me that i am very capable of a verbal fight. i hate that ,since i am never gonna talk to self centred jerks anymore, i am never getting a chance to shoot such people left, right, center, front and back.

yes, like any normal bitchy girl, i want to retaliate but i cant and I HATE IT.

and i just read his blog, his side of the story.( HOW could i NOT read?)

he makes perfect sense.

i did judged things superficially. which is the only way things could be judged whhhhat. i was giving my opinions formulated after observations of physical actions! pls advise, how else to judge?

in any case, I WAS WRONG to do that. here, i apologize. i am not afraid to apologize when i am wrong OK? i apologize becoz i didnt know abt the hardships he had to go through. because before this, he told stories about how he collected V3s and PSPs as toys and treated his parents to the very best, how am i supposed to know that he is very tight every month, if he chose to leave those details of him scimping and saving out?


so even though his actions technically qualified as what i described, i still cant use those words to describe his actions.


i am supposed to "grow up and fuck off."



ohhhhhhhhhh. that's very grown up of u.



and i also come to realize, this is simply a clash of opinions. things dun have to be so ugly. personnel things dun have to brought into the office.

the source of the problem, is my ignorance and misinterpretation of the situations.

is that a very big deal? isnt this problem correctable?

while his focus on this whole saga is on the words money-minded, mine werent really on it. the focus of the entry was Lack of Generosity.-.-

shocking

i had to deal with child nearing 30 years old today.

he pouted. got angry. got pissed off. he folded his arms n glared at me. the anger fuming in his eyes was scary. his tone was interrogative and accusing. how ironic that he accused my words of being accusing and defamatory when i merely stated the truth as seened from my own 2 and sometimes 4 eyes.

there was a mother figure and later a father figure to make sure things stay in control in the room.

he raised his voice. his words , after i told him to be softer, were :"u wrote on the internet n now u r scared the office knows??!!?????" the mother told him to calm down. well, how about it is more about being considerate for others n not disturb others at work with the fuss u r kicking up? as illustrated, self-centredness. tell mi, how else can i describe this action?

dear POS, knowin me, there is so many things i could have shoot at him til he corrodes of acid and yet i didnt. since the mother figure ask mi not to aggravate it.

i apologize. without skippin a beat.i was meek. i half whhispered compared to his bellows. i guess thats y every1 knows its not sincere, but thats beside the point. at least, i, the small ignorant sister in that room, apologized to the older boy, in a bid to smooth the hurt big-ass-fat ego n pride.

our exchange, roughly. (here i am, running another risk of steeppping on his bloody tail, but GUESS WHAT. I DONT FREAKIN CARE ABOUT STEPPING ON YOUR TAIL AFTER TODAY.)

him:"what is this entry all about? why are u accusing me of such things like being money minded and all. do u know i need to pay for my EVERYTHING and every month is a tight month. i kana cheated of $$!!?? by a friend ????" He proceeded to throw a printed copy of my entry onto the table. wow. well prepared to show the evidence.

me:" okay. i didnt know. sorry i misinterpreted then. in this case, if i am wrong, i apologize for it. you can always prove i am wrong..."

him:" why should i prove u wrong??????????? after all, u said i am a unforgiving, narrowminded person in ur blog!!!!!!!! SO WHY SHOULD I PROVE YOU WRONG?!"

OMFG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! is that stupid or is that stupid. i was so absolutely dumbfounded by his words that i was momentarily stunned. STUNNED! totally!! all right let me educate u why, since i didnt have the chance to, just now.

THIS IS because...

drumroll please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

if u dun prove mi wrong, u can only prove me right, OK?!!!!!

there is nothing in between.





GEDDIT??

him:" I am Not money minded. all my friends know that i am not fussy abt monee."

me:" good. then they will know i am wrong and they will stand for you!"

him:" hello. it is on the internet, EVERYONE knows!!!!!!!!!! my friends n family can happen to read it! How can u accuse me of such untrue things?"

me: speechless.

if u can dun care enough to prove me wrong, why would u care abt complete random stranger's opinion of u. and do u think INTELLIGENT people form opinion of others just by one SINGLE entry?

and hello? u mean, everyone is your friend lah. all 8 billion people in this earth know is it? my blog only my own close peeps read ok. they DUN KNOW YOU. stop being so thick skin n self centred n think every1 paused to worship your image. i never tell any1 in the office to read. if they read n know what i think of u, SO WHAT? are you scared of something?????????????????

are u scared what i am saying is the truth?

okay, no more energy to give u guys the POS a blow-by-blow account of the intergoration.



i am SOOOOOOOOOOO glad this trip happened and ended with such a grad finale. i love seeing true colors.

traits of a CMI

If my dear girl friends remenber what I updated them about my lack of social life, they will remmenber that i mentioned about Financial Mismanagement and Lack of Genorosity as flaws in a man.

Now, i will add Self-Centredness into above list too.

And the number one trait that i ABSOLUTELY hate is Lack of Generosity. and ppl, dun mix up thriftiness with Lack of Generosity. Generosity is about being caring, accepting, forgiving and harmomious.

now u know what i hate in a man.

5th july

uninspiringly, my entry title is named fifth july.

i sensed something has changed yet i cant put into words. yet if i put into words, words can be misinterpreted.

sigh.i feel irritated n depressed. definite signs of pms. grrrrrrrrrrrr.

did u watch Switched starring Fann Wong n Jeanette Aw? one line has been stucked in my head.
" I DIDNT ask to be born ugly! why am i still suffering so much? Heaven must like playing jokes a lot on me." Fann Wong, said, crying bucket of tears as well.

yup, today or this entire week, so far, has been my feel-ugly days. another definite sign of pms.

i really hope it wont come until after 9 july.

my Assistant Mktg Mgr will be flyin to bkk to join us to shop on Sunday ahead of her business trip on Monday. wonder how would it be like to shop with 2 other girls with such different likes. i forsee myself wondering by my own... i hope i dont get lost.

tomorrow is grad day. honestly, the grad gown is not as hideous as i previously had thought. haha. thank god, especially if i compare it to TP. okay, no more comments. i look forward to makin myself less ugly tmr, n meet my buddies.

though firewire will be kinda weird, since M divorced K from the circle of friendship. aiyo. i dun geddit n i wont even try la. in this case, friendship was sacreficed indirectly of BGR. and for a B who is no longer a BF.

at work, i am practically working on a day by day basis. kinda lost, in a way, even tho they said i am working under whatever n whatever. oooh, i must mention, Rui from Hella Japan, has such a sexxxxxy accent!!! kekekekkekeke, kinda british but he is chinese. overall, sexy accent.

hahaha, i think i have a thing for accent.

my mother is thinking of how to celebrate my 21st birthday. but i dun wan wanna celebrate myself. i just wish to have my close friends celebrate for me, instead of me turning the bday into some sort of project mgt, sending out invites , chossing a party dress n gathering ppl at some place.


judging from my character, i am not likely to want it to be any sort of Event.

okay, if my gd friends read this, remember to celebrate for me, not wait for me ask K?? heehee. * pls take this super duper big hint. its only six months away!!!!!

currency trading

when i went to the money changer to buy some baht, he said that he doesnt have enough. so i say, ok, i will take all the baht, n change the rest into USD, then. so began my afternoon of currency trading. haha, just kidding, but i wouldnt mind doing currency trading as an investment.... demo when will i have enough monee for investment????? ok. depressing.

thank u ah-ho for helpin me ask the monee changer at lucky plaza.

i passed commercial law nicely. i passed accounting with less than ten marks. haiz. despite taking leave to study for it.

home

i feel a sense of irrational guilt coz i took MC ... when i feel perfectly fine now.

the doc says my blood pressure is healthy. and i am not anaemic. that fainting thing was a freak accident probably coz the breakfast i ate wasnt digested n broken down into the blood stream yet.


yesterday i saw Dennis in the train. but between me and him was a lot of other people , so i couldnt play catch up with him. i wasnt sure if it were him. just tried my luck to catch his eye and see how. But he always look at the opp direction.

finally i saw him lookin at mi, n he tried to look away when he realize i know he is looking and it was just so stupid, he couldn't even managed a HI??!! whats the shyness about? dun geddit. but i smiled at him in the ridiculousness of it all. he smiled back, so yah, it wasnt a case of mistaken identity. something nvr change. i think he is still as wooden as ever. lol. too engrossed in his passion... (robotics) to practise social etiquette. lol.

window shopping N high tea

OIISHI DESERTS!

what has this week has in common with last week??

High-tea desu! so tai-tai hor? hahahaah. japanese ice cream vs new zealand ice cream. japanese 1 definitely was more exquisite. I, unfortunately, forgotten their sophisticated japanese name, only remembered that I had mango tofu with vanilla ice cream with maple syrup and some crunchy crisps. the mango tofu was soft and smooth with just a hint of mango sweetness. magnifique!! hahahaahha. anderson's ice-cream, was of coz... like dat lor.

that girl is Evon, my fellow marketing coordinator in Hella Asia Singapore. she shopped while i window-shopped. since i am going to the land of smiles already. she is so fair that she is overexposed!! n she has a way smaller face than me, and way bigger eyes than me so in conclusion, life can be SO DAMM unfair lor.

but our wavelength damm similar, esp when compare to other colleagues. wah seh, talk toXXX can puke blood sometimes leh. *breathe in, breathe out. ** it doesnt matter, just one ear in one ear out, dun remember ridiculous anything XXX says. life will be easier n u can live with XXX's slightly off wavelength. hahahaaaaaaaaa.

my PRIMARY SCHOOL mate. she so over-intelligent, simple things in everyday life, she cannot geddit ah! hahahaha. i windowed shop with her today. she bery small size, small boned, small face, so purposely ask her stand in front of mi, so my face size is less obvious.

p.s she is wearing Acuvue Define. i think it works. lol.

and i fall in the train while on the way to Rave for my hair cut, too dizzy from standing for 30 min n so many ppl, so crowded, lack of oxygen, lost balance when train jerked to a stop. got a small blue black to show for it which i initially thot i got it from ah ho's elbowing... hahah. think its not ah-ho la.

i think i am quite a serious anaemic.

personnal shopper-ing

i took on another role today. heehee. i was a personal shopper to Evon today! after work, went to Orchard as she had wished. all the way, she and I, just coulnt stop laughing... at stephen. i dunno, his different backgrd just create so many jokes. so, us girls were really excersing our abs real hard, while poor stephen had to tolerate 2 girls laughing at him almost constantly.


we bumped into KK, Syaz n Teckie!!! at the steps of Taka. nice surprise! KK's head was a must touch since he recently shaved it.

i think, personal shopping is fun. u help ppl pick out clothes, watch them try n wait for them pay for their new conquests. the feeling is ... you get to help people to do something wonderful! hahaha.

esp since now i cant shop, helpin my colleague to shop is just as good, i guess.


my mom has told me that she prefer me to gift wrap myself for my future husband if ya know what it means. but erm... who cares abt gift wrapping now??!!

anyway, i am still a single gal after so long, so i wanna assure my mama she has nothing to worry about.



my friend told me not to string him along. yah. i am not and will not, but if he choose to intrepret things wishfully at this stage, what am i supposed to do. i mean, sometimes u might grow to love some1 unknowingly, n god knows if it will happen to me, so i am just saying, the future is open-ended. as of now, i dun love/like him. but i duno abt the future. maybe he might just managed to worm his way into my heart. but ... most likely... not. hahahaaaaa.




n i reallllly feel for KT. a pretty girl with a decent heart and yet she always KANA til heart is so thrashed. i agree with her, so what if u have looks, and there r guys wooing u when the one u really like, does not reciporate?

she would be most jealous of a plain jane with a plain joe madly in love.

at the eleventh hour

eleventh hour, that sounds familiar. sounds like the cafe's name for my entrepreneur ship project.

anyway, the working style i am under is also considered eleventh hour.

it creates great sense of urgency. must be fast and accurate. everything need to go by the next few hours. haix. this week, i learnt not to be act smart, just follow instructions. lucky boss nvr blow her top or even say i act-smart.

anyway, i wont act this way again.


spend approximately 15 min laughing at my colleagues who doesnt know the meaning of baby shower, i mean, he confused it with baptism, can ??!!! and it turned out that most of them didnt know whats baby shower ( NO, its NOT to see a baby literately showering.) Engel, our marketing director even sent a mail to our guy colleagues to educate them whats a baby shower.

majorly funny. hahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

exam is over. equals summmer sch is over. no more juggling work n sch for the next 2 months. YES!!!!! boss will be away for 8 days, overseas. stufff which need her signature come to a standstill. too bad la. when boss comes back, i think she also have a vacation break.

when her vacation break is over... its MY TURN. hheeeheee.

time flies. already 2 months. HR dpt so nice to let us take paid leave already instead of the stipulated 3 months.

i am thinkin, the next i go shoppin, i will bring my own carrier bag. unless the shop's carrier is damm nice la. hahaahaaaaaaa.

not cut out for it

is it good that i realize?

i realize that i am not cut out for full time work n part time study. night time is not the most condusive for me. i am so ... procastinating towards studying.i rather comb my hair, stare at tv, sit on toilet , play msn, blog(such as now) rather than look at my notes. knowing full well the more i procastinate, the less time i have to memorise my notes.




random thoughts...
you know, love can be such a scary thing? it can change people so thoroughly. it pushes them to do things they didnt originally set out to do, with a crazed, fierce look in their eyes whether they know it or not. it. their emotions are not balanced. they are hurt too deep. and it just make everything scary abt them at that single moment when they had forgotten to keep their emotions in check.

so what do one do when he/she has fallen out of love? and not fall into an exteme way of dealing with it? i.e how do you refrain from committing suicide and other forms of self abuse? when u dumped cruelly out of love, broken up from the some1 u wanted wholeheartedly to be with?

how do you be happy again? how do you refrain from talking abt the same person years and years later?

wounds on the flesh can heal. how do the heart and soul heal?

how do you stop to smell the flowers and learn how to be happy again without the love of that of man and woman? which is the one thing u never crave more for.

maybe some1 should study the heart n prescribe some hormones to make the heart feel better so that poeple can crawl their way out of perpeptual heartache just like aspirin make headache go away.

learning law

Mr Adrain is our commercial law lecturer and he is SUCH A SUPER UBER HILIAARIOUS and effective lecturer.

the examples he gave to illlustrate all those laws, are picked from everyday life but delivered in a humourous angle. u have to give him credit for making law lecture, constantly filled with laughter. thanks to his singlish, hokkien, cantonese, french and exagerate Rolling Rs.

An ex-criminal lawyer with friends in the legal, illegal and entertainment circle, it is a learning experience just listening to him talk. literately! the deep dark secret... or gossip, haha, he shared were ... insightful to say the least.

morale of some of the stories he told: what u dont see, does not mean it doesnt exist.


thank you for makin law so easy to absorb. thank you for being so hilarious!=D


friday night, went to Isommnia Bar, coz Baraclava was too packed. n later i found out the age limit at Bara is 25!!!!!!!?????

at I., the live band is not bad, n the music they picked was good. was there coz it was a gathering with the ex MD of hella. not that we sat in a circle and had a good talk. the music was too loud to talk and every1 was standing in clusters anyway.


i am so looking forward to grad day!!!!!!! cant wait to see the friends, and also most significantly,

i will be flyin to thailand that very day!!!!!!!! ... er night, would be more accurate. heehee.

exam stress

argh, before i mug, must vent out my stress first.

ACCOUNTING IS SO DAMM HARD. maybe i am too dumb for accounting... argh. not true not true. i just have to revise n study n concentrate. n motivate myself. n sleep lesser. i actually wake up today, havin accounting as the first thing on my mind. or the lack of accounting knowledge as the first thing on my mind. =S

somehow, ppl at hella have stomache virus or something. they keep LS-ing!! poor thing. my mgr n another colleague took mc despite making the effort to come for work.

just watch shrek with sec sch friends. not bad not fantastic not as funny as the previous 2. same fate as spiderman n pirates.

have plans to go bangkok but now riots. means can dun go n save monee. haiz. y like that?

accounting class... again

i cant believe despite passing my accounting module during poly with solid results, i have to take ACCOUNTING AGAIN.

its a refresher course, n it makes mi wonder... HOW DID I MANAGE TO PASS ACCOUNTING LAST TIME?? hahaha. wendy's cake shop? any1? maybe it was just because the teacher was gd.

after lesson, we went to marina square. kt wanted to use toilet. so i waited for her near the handicapped toilet. for... very long. long queue for the ladies. n the handicapped toilet remained in use for just as long. was it really a handicapped personnel, therefore he needed more time.

already 10-15 min, n i was still waiting. i was waiting to see who was taking so LONG!!!!


then. finally, a girl stepped. she looked not happy. behind her, a guy came out. i was staring at these 2 inconsiderate pieces of shit. they didnt act at all couple-ish. went seperate ways even.

so... WHAT WAS THAT ALL ABOUT?? first time i witnessed a quickie in public toilet during peak hours. n the handicapped toilet was in a secluded corner either.


total disgust.

cant u get a room?

and it was yet another shopping trip. lalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

shopoholic

the only girlie thing abt me is ...

I AM A SHOPOHOLIC.

today is vesak day, n was suprised to received a sms from stephen in the morning. he is a known pig. how could he possibly wake up at 10am to sms me? and the reason is, not because he wants to be an early bird, but because he gotta GO BACK OFFICE n WORK!!! So suay. hahahah. my condolenscenes to you.

today i spend it with ahho, combing Orchard n even Novena, though Novena was a disappoinment. my legs felt llike they were given an EXTREMELY good workout.

update abt my first bridging module.

after 3 lessons, went for exam on wed. n the invigilators were made up of 3 young punks. n one of them, knows me. he saw mi first. never did it occur to me that my friend would be the one to pass my script n exam qtn paper. hahahhaa. quite funny. his name is Qing Quan before i forget it.

thank You. my lucky stars

yet another week gone.

Friday = a last min shoppin trip with giang. i was way late! soorrry. but no choice. had a long discussion, in which i zoned out half the time. practically all i did i s lend a listening ear. haaaaaaa. then, they ask mi to hitch a ride. boss asked leh, y not? lol. anyway, i really dig their sense of humour. hahahaaaaaaaaa. n CK's driving style. deliberately made a sharp turn without informin just to hear us scream in fright. -.-!!!!!!!! but overall, he is funny.i like.

mphosis SALE. haha. the top which i bought kinda look like rags... according to my mama. its white with those butterfly sleeves which i adore!=)

Thur= my first bridging lesson. so far so gd. i was most worried abt grping n free riders n its nice to know that the lecturer also care abt the existence of free riders. she devised a rule to discourage free riders. Cool. but, exam is after 3 lesson. SO FAST.

the campus is so new, it reminds mi of ... my house eight years ago when i just moved in. haha. actually i think its not considered a campus. but like a hotel where the bedrooms are converted to classrooms.

Wed= Home sweet home.

Tues= a glummy leonard.=S when he is glum , he is all silent n serious n ... sulky even. *bleah. sigh. Company BBQ, where the best food is the tempura. Gone in Sixty Minutes.^^

Monday= meet most of the firewire gang. bought a cheap stella stella bag. took loads of picture. teckie minic me to great effect. missed hime though.

so that's a recap. time flew by leavin everything in a blur.


eh, i wonder whats stoppin michelle from dumpin work onto me.

i think she is too kind n nice to pressure and stress me with deadline. " its so tedious... aiyah, nvm, i can do myself." i raised my eyebrows. i mean, if its a manual task, all the more the coordinator shd do instead of the mgr , right?

haaaaaa, maybe she just prefer to do it than explain n teach. okay, nvm. i will do whatever i am asked to do.

i just feel SO satisfied n content with life now.

i've got a job which pays well, with a gd environment n a bunch of nice colleagues, nt very far, lets mi shop during lunch hour, clean n fragrant washroom (yes, the damm air freshener in the ladies SMELL DAMM NCIE) .

i've got my super naggyinaniceway mama, papa n a semi-existent brother.

i've no worries abt $$. i know i can earn. i know i can control. the fact that i know i can earn, makes me happy enough... to not care abt how not-rich i am.

i've got a degree to pursure. to bring me to greater heights.

i am learning new things.

i just feel happy.

maybe its just a residue of the high, leftover from my earlier shopping madness.

beach time

saturday...yesterday, i spent it at Pasir Ris Park. wanted to go cycling with some gal pals but since they not available so i asked KK instead. since he live so near n he always ON for some healthy exercise... hee hee.

slapped on some SPF 50 (!!) n we were all ready to go! cycling for 2 hrs, a bit tough on the butt, n the bike i had was a bit too heavy for me to handle tho the rental lady insisted it is NOT. i had a hard time just getting on it initially... grrrrrrr!! but , practise makes perfect !=) it is manageable after all.

yup, i cant help but wanna cam whore. kekekekkeke. esp at the beach. the water wasnt that nice... but the nice ones r already at friendster. hee hee. i think KK buay tahan mi, but he too nice to be bothered. haaaaaaaa.

and what did i do after cycling for 2 hrs? ( or actually a bit lesser),.. tucked into B&J! llalalaaaaaaa/ but it wasnt that sinful since it was a yoghurt ice cream. kekekek.

after that, went for my 4E1 BBQ at Pit 23. cookin the food, til i smelled very bad. constant thunder n lightning. i didnt stay for long. hahaaaaa. i bolted without waiting for my closer friends to come. but still. i saw them while they r on their way there n while i am on the way home.

one of my malaysian friend is still jobless. jobless for 4 months le!! i should thank Lucky Stars that i am not. would say that most of us became rounder since we left sec sch. haha. reflects on what gd life each of us has. hahaah.

urge

i thought i could go for a short break end up the one who said can go together say cannot... so wth, dun expect me go alone right? damm disappointed since initially it was agreed we can take leave. AND WHAT NOW?

i feel disappointed. even tho she has a solid reason to back her up. BUT STILL.

pls dun freakin phrase words in a premise of a promise even slightly remotely. i take it seriously. i was all pumped up. only to feel all the air come out.

my faith in u is... sian 1/2.

the morale is... Please Do Not Freakin Break Your Damm Promise to Me Even Though The Promise Is Insignificant To You.

i got quite a few urges...
1. SHORT BREAK... make use of my paid leave. an urge to feel the sun, sand n water.
2. SHOpping... GREAT SINGAPORE SALE, any1?
3. find a new job. heehee. after six months!

graduation is coming. got a robe to wear. to rent. haix, monee leavin me again.

stephen burned a disc for me. it's really nice of him, coz i didnt ask him to do it.... it reminds me of eric. haizzzzzzzzz. that was a damm long time ago -.-

i am starting to wonder, r guys manufactured from a plant, like matrix? they all have the same kind of reflexes, reactions programmed into them when they happen to like a girl...

p.a.i.n

today was a freeaaking painful day for me.

my cramps decided to visit me for today. it is still visiting. how can it? already 10 hours! i am battling with this pain for 10 hours if not more.

i hide in the toilet. i stoned in front of my PC. i drank hot water. but the pain was persistent. i give up.


overcharged by a stupid taxi driver. y did we just hand over the money with no fight?

all becoz we went to orchard premise without knowin the sch is moved to the new campus.

count down to sch day

9 days!

long due pictures

clockwise startin from man in green- 1: AhmadSyazwanbinAhmadKhalis 2:AlexShiehJunFa 3:AhHoYiTing 4:EveGohHuiBee 5:NgKhuanKungKei 6:GiangShiYuKelly 7:AngQianTingMaxine 8:DanielGohChinTeck!!!!!!!! our ninth member is RachelNgTzeYuan but unfortunately she couldnt be there with us due to church/production n i am not gd nuf to photoshop her face over ... ... BLEAH. lol.

why does this picture look so nice? coz the one who should also be inside took this!! million thanks to dear chinny! this is the pic where eve struck a model -like pose... for the first time ever leh.

okay, these r the most important pictures of them all. with them around me, i've got 8 fantastic ppl to turn to when i need some support n ears to bitch to n ... whatever else. hahaha. though now, its subjected to availabilty, i guess. lol.

how?

i used to think i am a workaholic. i think this statement still stands. at the rate i am going at HSG, i am just grossly overpaid n i am feelin guilty for it. my colleagues complained they r overworked, but i guess my boss is so nice that she dun give mi much work. it is not a good feeling to underwork or overwork. n i guess by now, i know the experience of both ends of the spectrum.

i will just take things day by day lor. wat else can i do? when i ask for work, she asked mi to help do PA stuff like callin someone up.

i just feel i can do more than that.


and dear all, what do u think of office romance?


anyway, today i bumped into NGOH. NGOH also works in THE STRATEGY. he ALSO works in Tower 1. he ALSO started 3 weeks ago. he ALSO start work at 9am n end at 6pm. and i only bumped into him today!! hahah.

SO QIAO!!! wouldnt have bumped into him, if i didnt take the longer route today by myself. wouldnt have bump into him at station, if stephen didnt call mi n i pause to take his call. it is JUST SO QIAO!!

how do we explain coincidences?

May day

monday flew past even tho i was doing nothing. night time got lights demo show. the guests invited included a very cute baby whom was very soft n nice to carry. i thought edwin , one of the colleagues, was reallly gentleman. he closed the car doors for mi! kekeke. so far in my life, only the chauffers did that, n he is a sales manager. okay, thumbs up. lucky gf or wife. ROFL.

made a spontaneous decision to k with KK!! so many 'Ks...=S,'so had to drag myself outta bed when i still never sleep enuf. but it was worth it. hahahaha.

i salute kk for singing female artistes' songs. such high pitch!! i had a blast singing my fav singer's songs. n listenin to him. hohohoho.=)

after that we cam whore!! just like a pair of girls. hahahaha. i think my skin looked really good in this lighting. hahahah. all righty, marina sq got a lot of gd backgrds to cam whore!!!=)

midnight retail therepy

evon said i was more particular abt shopping than working. LOL. true true. sadly, i did a really fantastically stupid thing at work, so i only hope no1 else will blame mi for my stupidity. =S

after work, met up with my gal pals n we were off to shopping. YEAH. i am a follower of retail therepy. mi n YT got kelly all confused in our superbly broken japanese. whahhaahha. i still laugh when i think of it.

shopping with the crowd is strenous exercise. in the end, we ALL got something! YAY!! happy happy happy! though my mom frowned upon the super high heel i bought. ehhhh. yah, i know i shouldnt buy high heels but i just look better in those!!

and the KTV session with the colleagues aint too bad, i guess. every1 has the chance to sing whatever song they liked. they said my voice was low, resmincent of Ella n Tanya Chua. kekekek. okayyyyyy. joseph once said i look like tanya chua... now i sound like a tinnny bit like her??

the colleagues were reallllly funny! LOL, can? but unfortunately, i broke a glass of drink when i was pullin the mug towards mi. my apologies. luckily, the mood wasnt spoil. *phew.

they were like " okay, now its XXX's chance to sing. when he sings, lets LAUGH!!". and they DID. so XXX got so stressed he just gave up on the song. whahahhahaahah.


n that's 3 weeks down. 21 weeks to go! still hoping things will take a better turn!

worse than i thought

oh my god, i thought brel seriously sucks like hell, but hella's CMS system is even worse!! its even more worse than brel.

it is so bad that i don't know how to describe it.

even the trainer wasnt sure abt the system since she only done it once ... or twice. but in anycase, we can all agree that it is an extremely unfriendly system.

=C fortunately, there is a consences that this system is bery difficult to use so they dont have unrealistic expectations abt the result. thank god. felt very drowsy and stone throughout the 3h session, of which 2 h were taken to TRY to create and upload a page. n in the end, it wasnt a successful attempt.

i felt like weeping.


isnt it very amazing how diverse , how contrasting our thinkin can be? in my current job, i am not busy. i have not many things to do. i dont like my current situation. i want to be involved, to be busy, to know what i am working towards. to know that i am learning something valuable.

maybe after the first month? maybe this is just a one month honeymoon period?


BUT i know there will be loads of ppl who like this kind of situation. what can i say?? i just lucked out.=D. maybe? i am really very not sure.

2 weeks

so brenda the marketing director has left. she has commented that the 2 new marketing coord, has merged into the team of marketing n product management pretty well.=)

that is a happy news to me.

but my eyelid has been seriously twitching during work. i am bracing myself from some spectacular fall from grace though nothing has happen yet. most ppl just tell mi twitching is simply a symptom of exhuastion of the eyes. that's true, the endless hours of researching is makin mi miserable.

at least there is evon to talk crap with mi. whahahhahahaah.

***

the incident that happened to dear maxine is really an eye opener to me. because of all that i heard n seen from my friends, i dont even entertain the thought of havin relationships easily. i admire her handling of such a situation with grace and maturity.

at 20, we ought to stop being childish , selfish and self-centred. IDEALLY.

girls seemingly always know that they cant give their all into r/s. but they still do unknowingly. n only end up going thru those emotional turmoil. but if they dun give their all into a r/s, then what kind of r/s is that??

but if they dun give their all, at least they can detached themselves faster from those big bad bastards n carry on with their lives and into the next r/s. i think thats something i heard from kelly longlong ago.

grrrrrrr........duno how to elaborate on these issues.




y is it that when we give trust by default, we r usually hurt most badly?

y can't i ask y when i duno y?

in love... or not

my friend actually wrote in his blog that one of the must-dos before NS is "fallin in luv".

i can't help but snigger at this comment. it is just so him. i observe that generally, a guy always need a girl to feel completed. there is so many mundane things that only doing it as a couple, it seems more fun.


IS IT??


in my pathetic short-lasting case, i didnt remember doing anything that was more fun if you do it as a couple. i mean, it is just as fun if u do it with a grp of tomadachi.

whatever.

i want to tell my friend, dont break up over silly things. i totally object to that. love aint easy to come by, dont we all agree?

meanwhile, there is nothing i can do except to WAIT. wait n see how things turn out. wait n see what will lead to what.... =S

Good Friday

yah, i noe Gd Friday was over but today was a literate GOOD friday. hahahhaaa. michelle just suddenly asked to mi to tag along their shoppin trip, so yah, at 10am , i could leave the office and just relax and enjoy. kekekekek.

went 4 places in total, brunch at north bridge road with late lunch at PS cafe cartel in between, and we r done!! go back to office , do some more work and we r free to go!

n i found out that paulina is really interesting, just like me. we r like, the same type. she is polish and polish is such a difficult language! hearin her say stuff in polish is amazing!! she is damm cool.

happen to board the same direction train as stepha(e?)n n i think he is pretty cool as well!! haha, no strange silent pauses is good for me.

mi and kt had time to met up. i had time to drop by FA n i saw weili, roslee, daphe and julie. daphe still with andrew!! wah, i am quite surprised. kekek. roslee is in office now... LOOKS real gentleman, but i tell u, its ALL looks. hahaha.

oh yah, my first business lunch was with pixel tech at flute@fortcanning. semi-fine dining, lobster soup and foire gas... all alien to me the mountain tortoise!! this is inspiration to work hard so that i can enjoy the finer points in life. kekekek.

99.9987 percent of the population in the office is attached or married and they r not even in the mid thirties. and i though ppl married late in this time?? i am shocked(pleasantly) whenever some1 say " My Husband or Wife..." becoz they look just so damm young to have settled down.

i am depressed.

i can't help it.

n i am "translating" jap articles. omfg, right??!! hahaahaha. no la, just want to shock u. i am corresponding the jap and eng version. how the hell would i know how to translate?

ok, n thats how my first week went. in the honey moon period. still happy. but becoz they r so nice to me, i am scared to disappoint with my level of performance.=S

the Other girl

here is my analysis after 3 days of working ard evon. hahah. no collaboration yet.

she quite friendly and nice and she dun mind lookin out for me leh! hahahahah. i must appreciate all the small acts of kindness! esp when i have no reason to expect them...

today i had a open-mouth-insert-foot kind of situation. wasnt intending for the words to come the way they did, but that always happenns with me. =SSSS

i am still in a positive mood after 3 days. wonder what the future has for me.

btw, got my name card today! kekekekekek.

internship part 2.

hi all, i went to my brand new company lookin like a tan-freak. i was SO SO SO burnt!!!!!!!!!!!!!


and it is SO SO SO FREAKING PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!.@#$%^PAIN.

delibrately went to buy some mask to pamper my thoroughly spoilt, irritated and damaged skin.


first day of work... the other new girl has the same initials as mi. so it confused them a bit. eh... i feel like it really is internship PART TWO. *HORROR music in the backgrd.

so many freaky freaky deja-vu similiarities.

1. 2 new girl at the same time with some pun on their names. this time, we share the same initials and the first 2 letters of our first names.

2. She is older than me.

3. my direct supervisor is called... MICHELLE. AGAIN!!!!!!!

4. my marketing manager is LEAVING THE COMPANY REAL SOON. AGAIN.

5. it is a six month contract, strictly speakin.


my friend said tht first day is the best. u dun really have any work to do. LOL.he is really right.

overall, the ppl there r quite nice. no airs. i like the HR in charge too!! she is like, the equivallent of chee kheng. bery friendly and wise. hahaha.

gambattenekudaisai!!!! must work hard. work smart. open eye and ear big big!!!!!

a leisure camp

moi finally made it to the ateam leisure camp organised by the big guy and royals at 6pm. after yet another entertaining jap class where the senseii picked on the same guy to tell time yet again, and everytime, he tells the time just as clumsily as the previous time. eh... jkjk.

the queen. pretending to be asleep only. hahahaa.

this guy is definitely one of the funniest guy i ever ever known!! cheers to hasrul!!
the aftermath of the camp. i turned DARKER. not to mention as RED AS A LOBSTER,can?? hahah, tmr i can go to my new workplace lookin as burnt as i could.

overall, yet another camp which i enjoyed a lot. could even sleep up to seven hours. and watch spongebob movie thanks to Jamie!=). maggii mee taste bery nice too. thnx fel for lending a shirt so that i play water game with a safe mind, kana bombed a lot but is still as fun. shachin is just as protective as ever over his leg hair as ever.

think they r all a BERY nice bunch of people.it is really gd luck and honour to know them. not to mention they r SOOO funny!! imagine knocking some1's teeth filling out in an attempt to self-defense!! bery LOL.

n now, my face hurts due to being burnt. every inch of my exposed skin. n i hate those unsightly tan lines .......!=(

being a student is the best.

pray for me for my new start!=P

strength

when she heard abt PB's vicious attack, she said that she will stare her down with her sheer size of her eyes. WHAHAHAHAH. so did alyssa. *touched. we got so many things to catch up. we see each other less than 10 times a YEAR. i missed havin her by my side literately. HAHAHA. but so what. i noe she will stand up for me without askin. i noe she will make time for mi if she can. n thats what matters. thats the strength of friendships.

i am sure firewire can make it too. we been through thick and thin for 3 years!! from kids to adults. hahah. from being black-haired to pink-haired to blond and brown and red. lol. from single to attached. to single and attached AGAIN. hahah. from havin CCA to being MIA. from being in sch to being in production house/office.

oh yah, before i forget, lemme comment on the service standards of cafe cartel. I simply love it! 2 thumbs up. never had a unpleasant experience there. they r fast and friendly, esp the mgr at cityhall branch. keeps me going there again and again! botak jones has gd service too but too long a queue to wait. n no aircon. hha=S.

service is not just something u expect from a restuarant. its also in the way you deal and handle ppl in a professional manner. i say that the treatment i got from one of the OL in the PASTAMANIA office is... -.- lousy, stupid and unfeeling.

i feel the 'thanks and bye' from her has no ounce of sincerity just becoz i am a ex-low-paid staff coming to return uniform. well, i can be fake right back at ya. really!! the girl i was talking to, deserved all the middle fingers in the world for the extremely cold, low E-Q treatment she gave me.

totally displayed her lack of brain cells when i cornered her into admitting that staff r penalised when its really the mgt's fault. N she admitted it WITHOUT sayin an apology. excuse me, the moment i am not ur staff, means that i am a potential client/customer. >,<

HMPH.

happy moments

a nice picture spoilt by some1 striking a eh... duno-how-describe pose. a bit like posing for shampoo-ad, then again, not really. ahahahah. and no, all those food were not for me only.ha.

last meal at Pastamania. pasta goes especially well with hoe-gaarden.*_*

we love 0ur frienship... not forgetting the mudpies too!!=) thanks rachie for helpin us take this pic!

firewire outings are fun regardless of what we do and where we are! btw how do i hide my fats in my super round face?=C.

the L day

on this final day, the feelings to work was different. walked with MO to office, hopin she dun mention its my last day if not i surely cry. did she sense my thoughts, she didnt mention its my last day anyway.

i was such a water tap today!! any little thing can trigger my tear duct to over produce.

the first person to trigger my tears, was Mr Kang. the MM. it was over lunch, we all went out for my farewell lunch, just simple fare (unfortunately=P). then, he asked will i miss certain colleagues. of coz i WILL!! then the tears start dripping to my horror. i just couldnt keep them in and i am too sad to care.

so... if they say anything remotely related to missing mi/missing them/last day at MCIS/wish mi all the best, i will be so touched/sad, i will just start to tear again. so they were forced only to talk abt funny/work things to keep mi from crying.

i still teared. i admit its really embarrassing. bery malu!!!

all the way from lunch to five pm, people's sweet gestures triggered spouts of tears.

most unexpected, were the 2 girls from editorial dpt who gave mi chocolates, hugs, hand shakes and gd wishes.

alas, my valiant effort screeched to a pathetic stop when AM asked mi in to the showroom, draggin mi away from M.K who was explainin to me how to fill in my eh, last timesheet... only to find my colleagues with a piece of cheesecake for me, all seated expectdly in front of me. haiz.

was touched to tears again, then tears start to flow. by now, they already expected already lahz. hahaha.

m.k came into the showroom shortly after, and then, he let out a groan when he saw mi crying again. sorry lahhhh, i really can't help it!!!!!!!!!!!

the reason i feel so sad, is coz they r such nice ppl n i think i see them more than my own parents for the past 5 months!!!!!! after the lesson with PB, nice ppl cant be taken for granted. this makes mi feel even sadder yet i cant tell abt PB. anyway PB is in the past, and she can eat my dust. hahaahah.

they ask me make a speech, n i was so overwhelmed by their kindness, words kinda stucked in my throat... too much tears, not enuf air. vision blurred, voice shook. i was a waste basket of emotions. total EMO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! happy n sad at the same time. or is it more sad than happy?

wishes from them to me

thomas, the man with the fatherly aura, takes mi to breakfast and buy me McDonalds!!=)

AH POEI-C.J, n i will remembered his highly modified car too.=P

frelyn, new sales colleague... who really tries her best!

MO wrote letter on tissue....pengzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

my AM lorzzzzzzzzzzz. -.-

andrew- AH MAOO. let u noe if i have any pretty colleagues>,<

turns out Mr K has such boyish handwriting!!!!!!! kekekekekke.

Kwong hui the new marketing exec from ntu...

gek eng. mary's best bud in office! haha. she is the new self appointes snack-provider. haha.

this is from mary. general toh. lol. kind heart beneath sharp words.

good ppl

i think agnes for her concern and guidance

thank michle for lettin me noe the truth.

thank thomas for lookin out for mi.

thank ttyy for being so gd natured, always lettin every1 else have their way.

thank joseph for the lifts.

thank weien for coverin for me.

thank dila for accomodating me into the schedule...

thank yufen for being a solid friend.

thank firewire for being there.

thank god for my family.


yup. i am counting my blessings. if u r not listed, dun angry ... pls wait for rd 2!hahaha.



eh... yours truly will be starting a new chapter in life soon. lookin forward to all the challenges. i envision success. nothing but success!!!

today i received the gd news that the mnc has decided to hire me and even gave mi a salary higher than expectations. =).

so, i believed in gd karma, bad karma. life is a game of choices. i choose to make decisions out of my beliefs, intergrity and newly acquired professionalism. not out of selfish gains or revenge or just plain no-reason.

i never changed my values, i lost some faith in human beings, but overall, i am still good. i am happy. i don't hate. i learnt.

i believe in myself

for everything in life, except maybe academics, there is no right or wrong. no black or white. but a huge entity of grey area.

should we really question what's right and what's wrong when it was all grey to start with? who dictates what's right and wrong anyway? can't we follow our instinct and do what you feel is right and not be turned off by the consequences? it is about honour and your moral values, if you have any.

who knows what will be the consequences anyway? will it really be as bad as you think? maybe whatever u fear ... will not even remotely happen in real life at all. y cant we analyse the pros and cons first before we jump into the worst consequences ever? then again, thats the human nature, to see the bad points first.

marriage isnt the solution. but it is an acceptable answer. office politics is hurtful but it is accepted. the couple is together only becoz one of them is scared of being single and the feeling of loneliness, not together becoz of love.

we dont need to do right things. we need to do what we FEEL is right.

feelings dont cheat if you listen to them close enough with no ill intentions in ur mind.

i need affirmation that my choices are 'right' but even if every1 is against them, i will not lose faith in my decision because i believe in myself and everything that comes with it.