happy pictures

one of the helpful girls at unity p sch. mentioned in previous post, subsequently i dun have time to take pic ah. so young already know, how to make her face look smaller. haix.kkekeke.

obviously, my colleague, mary, was ignorant of something called headroom. not to mention about being centralised.wHAHAHAHA.

why are we both NOT showing any teeth? ha, we somemore never baka-ed abt this...
the face above is my supervisor's. or rather ex-supervisor. poisonous bitch dropped her bonding act after they become under different department. -.-,

*cheers to bo-liao us!*

fâché

beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

i went to unity primary for the sales drive and the kids there r amazing. when i just reached there, i saw them dancing to the beyonce song. dancing to DEJA VU. almost faintz with my amusement.

the kids there loved me a lot. WHAHHAAHA. i was alone... not!=) there were 5 of them , rushing to help me in every where, even thought of division of labour. They were store assistants, temp promoters ,advertisers and PR personnel. ALL rolled into one. hahah.

well, u guys are sincerely appreciated. so capable, not missing a single form or receipt even though u guys were only 9/10 years old. thanks for entertaining me. thanks for askin me to go there again next year. though u probably would have forgotten about me by 6pm, but i will always remenber u guys are so helpful and cute and funny.

this sch happens to be my last science spy school too. well, it ended with a fantastic full stop!=) loads of great memories. the malay niang, the boy with the ah-pek accent, the boy who suffers from a skin disease which made his skin peel and scaly, the girls who were helpful, so sweet to make sure my hp is inside my bag. n nothing is amiss.

i miss u all already. *sobz.


but...i was most (pleasantly) shocked when a little girl came in front of me and told me i am pretty.

she said she thought my eyes are pretty coz "they dont have a line..." yes girl, i know what you mean. apparently her mom told her that her eyes are not pretty coz they are double eyelids.

omg, the mother likes single eyelids i guess. but how could she say that cause BUT THAT IS NOT THE TRUTH. the girl's eyes are big , bright and beautiful, everything i want but i dont have, i resort to cosmetic tricks to make appear about 0.0005mm larger. thats my sad little life.

of coz i told her, thats rubbish, her mom is crazy and she ,indeed, has a pair of very pretty eyes. her mom should send her brain for some check up. doesnt she know a child's desire for parents' approval and praise?! omg. she might have accidentally rocked the girl's self esteem over such trivial opinions.

but thanks for being so honest to tell me i am pretty ah.


coz apparently, i am so ugly that i am being hated and backstabbed for it.


i am glad i know the truth. its never too late. even though it makes my blood boil.


for some reason, she manipulated a picture of me being a loser and a loner with no friends. AM I REALLY SOME1 WITH NO FRIENDS AT ALL??? that lying bitch!! i am so angry!!


for this, i am very glad that i have friends who felt for me. and ascertained what she painted was wrong. thanks for firewire, if not... lets not think abt ifs-nots.


so i had been clueless. knowing abt this only after 23 weeks and 6 days left.

i am dumb to want to believe in the best of people.

i had been stabbed again and again. coz i was trusting n never fought back.

the ones who pretends always win.

at first.

sometimes those snowwhite- wannabes are more scary, scheming and poisonous than the queen herself.

an unofficial dip grad

starting tomorrow, there is really only 10 working days left. what can happen in these 10 working days? really duno, but must be on best best possible behavoir!!!

one thing for sure, after the 2 weeks , i will have to join the workforce whether i am ready or not. i am a unofficial grad... i guess i will be joining the workforce as an umemployed.

huh-huh. unemployed leh. sadly, i just registered for my part time degree course. cant afford to be jobless for 2 long even tho i have severe nuah-ness inside me.

okay, before i forget , i dedicate the following space to my very nice managers i encountered. they looked out for me, believe in me , nurture me and forgive me for the undeliberate mistakes i had committed. i really can thank them no enough leh. hahaha.

and i believe they had shaped my character with their words, attitude and actions. so i thank them for being a positive role models whom i can learn from.

i am reallly glad that i had never had horrid managers in my life, as heard from horror stories from other colleagues.

the most classic one is the M-O horror stories. hahaha... hearing these true accounts made me thank my lucky stars above. today i short monee when i cashiering. perhaps my tiredness showed. manager allowed me to go home since i only left 1 h, n there is more than enuf crew to go ard. i got this one extra hour to blog and then work on the stupid work i brought home from work to work on.

lol. haix. back to zhong-dian of this post. i will be an unemployed after 2 weeks.

oh there is a really nice lady from one of the many sister-companies. her name is Mag Yip and i want to thank her for her nice word, encouragement and offer of help. hhahaha. she said i can look for her if i need help finding a job. but knowing my character, that is not gonna happen lah.

kekkekekekkeke.

nuah a bit and see how.

piece of crap

i believe in leading by setting example. i have more respect for AM than MM by virture she comes in earlier than him to the office every single day. actually her reason for coming like 1/2 h earlier is not becoz she loves her work so much but she wants to avoid the traffic jam, that would make her late for sure. that's an admirable quality.

i am not sure for big boss.

whateever.

leadership qualities need not be present in someone when the circumstances is favourable ???

i feel anti social again. i feel snappish. the questions ppl sometimes ask me r so super useless that i give a reply out of politeness. i put my msn in friendster, hoping to make some net friends, but usually clueless ppl add me.

the latest one win already lorzzzz. a really piece of crap if u ask me. he would the one to msn mi first. i dun even bother. and for everytime he talks to me, he will ask mi what i do. and then, i would ans. INTERN.

he would say. "WHAT'S THAT?" wah, a really big piece of crap of lor. so old already duno what is the meaning of intern, and i even gave him dictionary.com. obviously never go and find out. after like 3 times, i could simply anticipated his response when he STILL asked the same old dumb qtn. i laughed to my self when he still asked what is a intern when i said i already know u dunno.


disgusting piece of shit. lol. suddenly i remember that's what loo lin likes to scold ppl.

well, i can't think of better terms to describe this guy of 29 years old who claimed he is working as a marketing exec. a piece of shit working at that company. i pity that company. but i am nt blocking him la.

i like to see how low human intelligence can be. then sometimes, laugh at their cluelessness and feel a fake sense of superiority. yah, i indulge in myself too much.

i feel anti social. i need to make more friends on the same wavelength. but the difficult thing is, it might be a fact that i am the only on my level of frequency. i am too unique for my own gd. i am too individualistic for own gd. k.zzzzzzzzzz.

i wont be hired at my company. i feel sad coz i really like workin with my AM as u obviously can tell. she want to hire me as a term. but i wanna be hired as a perm. our frequencies quite match lleh. thats why its fun workin with her. can even ask her abt Jap since she took it til intermediate level. she said she even has a japanese language keyboard bought in japan. lol. yayaayay. bring to office and lemme use lar. then u can read a japanese email. think abt it. like , should be quite cool right? hahahaha.

and finally......ZZZZ

lucky

this is one of the very very few times, heck actually this is the first time i feel lucky to be who i am and where i was. i refused to publicize my internship - company. hahah.

lol, coz i managed to sit in Mr Peter Ng's workshop. nvm, who he is... he is a very charismatic, humourous speaker who conducted a leadership workshop for teachers. the workshop was full of his fuunnny, interesting stories while he spend THREE YEARS ON INTERNSHIP with Walt Disney Theme Park in Florida. it was full of LOL moments.

i felt alive in his workshop instead of just bored and sleepy and it was so evident that other colleagues could comment on me lookin different.

i seriously wouldnt mind interning for him. lol. AND he said HE WOULDNT MIND too!! joking or not, but i choose to take this as a confidence jab. a small fry like me really dun mind doing shit work in an environment like his... hahaha.

imagine he just flew in from beijing after a 4 day conference and he comes back to face 10 teachers who didnt know this and just gave him the typical silence response. i salute him for maintaining his enthusiasm and energy level so high up that at last... the teachers responded more energetically too.

just by listening, just by using my ears, i felt i had learnt a lot.

i kept askin if he eats batteries for meals.

and i high-fived this great man's hand. lol.

change in topic: internship ending in 2 weeks.

i need to find a job!

you know, work is a reallly important aspect of live. i really dont want to waste time on a job that is unfulfilling and mechanical. i think i can live with lower pay if i feel happy with what i am doing.

sigh. i think i really envy ppl who r making passion their job, carreer and life. life should be lived that way in order for you to enjoy every minute of the years ahead of you.

the speaker had asked us what's passion.

passion is intense enthusiasm.

what's enthusiasm?

enthusiasm is intense joy.

so what gives mi intense joy when i am doing it?



really duno. but i know what i dont like! hahahaha.

still smiling

nihon-go class's senseii is very kawaii-funny!!!!

after the class, which i yawned through out , desspite the relatively engaging teacher, i was off to meet ah-ho at bugis! when she finally arrived, we were off to eat some hongkie dishes which taste quite good!=). then ah-ho still wan desert.

went to another hongkie place to have those china deserts. and i didnt like mine!!!! but nvm lor, since the xue-er is gd for skin, just force it down and ah-ho helped mi finish most of it anyway. we laughed a lot at this small eatery. coz of us, of people before us and people ard us. they were all hilarious! it was a effort that i didnt spill the white stuff i was eating.

then its shoppping time!! i duno why, but somehow we can just laugh so much until my stomache feel pain!!!! what did we laugh at?

i finally bought my first dress at a steal. no1 ever seen mi wear dress b4. even wheni tried, my jeans were still on. lol. hahhaa. the ppl at the wedding will have such a priviledge. kekekekkeke.

another wonderful day ended.

and we still got many things never do before!!!

OMG

i always thought my brother dont remenber my existence , cause of the time, he ignores me and everything abt me?

then on thurday, he suddenly brought me a lap top (which i am typing on now) and say it's for me! *faintzzzzzzzzz. very VERY surprised,can? and the only thing i brought for him was a twenty dollar birthday cake. HAHAHHAHA. okay, wait for me earn big money from my perm job then i can also spend lavishly on my family too.

i think all of us are happy cause he can finally not share his computer and have my nonsense stuff saved in his desktop AND i never need to interrupt his gaming ever again!!!

whhahahaahhaahha.

AND i went to the IT fair with my supervisor on friday night and it was most crowded ever. will the weekend be worst? i went to buy a MP3, had in mind a REALLLY cool lookin Samsung touch-screen player but end up with a iriver. and in the end, i felt like i was buying speakers home coz i was havin such a hard time carrying the heavy speakers which came for free obviously, instead of the tiny, light weight white iriver!!

hohohohohohoho, later i am going to my first Japanese class and squeuezing with the crowd at bugis. if anything,i think IT fair at Suntec should be more crowded.

heeheee, i got mood swings now. and it's swinging up!=)

pms

it's the time of the month.

eh... the older i get, the more pms bugs me. i reallly feel so so pissed off at my internship now!!! and i credit it to pms symptoms. yes. this is a valid reason.

the words that a fresh -grad working adult strung together, just TOTALLLLY displayed her LACK of professionalism. full stop. a lousy excuse of a professional. obviously not into her job, but that's beside the point. the fact that she is so inconsiderate/clueless abt other ppl beside her irks me to hell.

and HOW AM I TO DO OFFICE WORK UNDER A TIGHT DEADLINE WHEN I AM NOT EVEN STATIONED IN THE OFFICE?? \

get ur new exec to do lor. just ask mi phtocopy and make kopi lor.

which reminds me. i want to end internship asap and yet i dun mind being a perm there... coz i work real work now and i dont get real returns. it is twisting my insides and makin mi sad when the truth is i am really really cheap labour worth nothing more than $2 per hour.

and well, dun take ur jokes too far. queen of comeback lines dont take words lyings down. even if u r boss. a good boss wont piss me off enough to warrant any comeback lines from me!!

pms-ing now. shut up. ignore me.

Songs

lyrics matter more and more to me. love songs are starting to touch me and i appreciate lyricists more and more. a good song needs a good melody more. seems like there is a lot of gd music that is exposed to me.

had a really fun trip to sec sch friend's house and our form teacher's house too. form teacher had a baby boy, very cherubic unfortunately, he got a bit too much of his father's genes. hahah. kiddding. might be a very handsome boy when he grews up. and we had to queue for toilets coz he invited like 4 batchs of 4E1s.

friend's house is like a testimonial on why we should all strive to make big bucks. then u can have a library, a mounting billboard of the Beijing Olypics 2008 poster, gym, tea house. table tennis, karoake system, plasma tvs in 2 wings of ur house. AND u NEVER need to queue for toilets coz there is too many to go around.

his mother is reallllllllly into decorations. even his toilet has a spiderman hanging on the window pane. very cool lor. and his house is very nicely decorated. we were cam whoring in his house. hahah.


i dont like ppl askin me can we be friends? it is so... unneeded. unneccesary. i just find it irritating.

my only toy.

say HI to ...my favourite toy at work. its a premium that we kopped from the supplier. kekekekek. cute right, i added the eyelashes. then my supervisor drew clothes onto her 1. then AM more subtle. drew specs or something. forgot le. p.s she is a radio, in case u r wondering.

working is so tiring. made a mistake so i am clearing up my stupid mistake, which makes things more tiring. wish i am a energizer bunnny. then i wont be so tired. wish i feed on battery. heck, isnt better if i am just a robot??????????

pig's yr

we all need encouragement constantly. i need motivation more than encouragement for me to make it through IPP. my current task is to stick about 2000 activation codes onto CD-roms. something that need to be done but no1 wants to do if possible.

whats the motivation for me in this task? to be as fast as i can? to see how robotic can i will my fingers to be? to see how it feels to pretend to be a machine? as i sat there, trying to paste those stickers as fast as i can, my features settled into something expressionless N black, in this case. so black that even my supervisor noticed.

in the end, i lucked out since she and a couple of temps helped me finish about 500 pcs tho they had no obligation to help me.

i remenber some1 sayin job satisfaction is secondary coz she just wan to earn money. i cant live life this way. i want job satisfaction as much as i need the salary. otherwise i know i will flood the office with my misery...

i was annoyed

hi all, every1 knows i have weight issue even tho i try not to bother myself about it unless some1 bother me abt it. so u can say some1 just stomped on my fragile self -esteem and self image.

first the new sales colleague said i look rounder. then she said if any1 cant finish anything u can just pass it to eve. then she asked if i got a bf. i said no, coz i am too fat to have 1. a blatant dig at her previous comments. but my sarca was lost on her. SO LOST on her skinny brain inside her skinny skull.

but NVM, thats beside the point. she hurriedly proceeded to do a self perceived good deed. she went on to advise me not to tell my AM that she doesnt have a bf coz she is 2 overweight to have 1. she though she had prevented a great disaster from happening.

EXCUSE ME!!! do u sincerely believe that i think i am single coz i am too fat to have a BF?! that i would be so DUMB to just go up to my AM and say " hey u know what ? SKINNY_thou made me realize something. we r single coz we r too fat to have bf!"

OMG, u totally underestimate eveything abt me. besides, my AM is prettier than skinny-thou by virtue she got curves and carry herself well. N she got more intelligence in her one quater of her pinkie than ur entire brain.

how clueless can some1 get? she totally rubbed me the wrong way. she insulted me. insulted my intelligence. insulted my EQ. insulted my relationship with my AM. OMG. i really had to control to stop myself from asking

ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT ???
ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT ???

but anyway, kept my cool despite i was so annoyed! i really felt incredulous at her response. my eyes actually widened, my jaw slacked and i was momentarily stunned by the knowledge that she THINK she is doing me a HUGE favour on how to behave myself. BUT i proceeded to laugh it off... and just carry on eating what i want. =) office life made me fatter. but i got no mood to exercise since i dun even have enough sleep. life is too short to deny myself from what i want and like. especially ppl ard me has been going to hospital in sudden notice.


tagged along with supervisor to accounts department. to see Jenny, a mature lady, for her claims. she looked at me and just said, I would marry a rich man! Of course i asked why. and the ans is, coz i am pretty enough to marry 1. HILARIOUS LOR. me in my specs and nude makeup face . kekeke. but it was music to my ears. i cant believe ppl can take a look at me n be able to guess that i wanna marry a rich man. kekekeke.

nightmares

my last blog post didnt appear!!!!!!!!

WHY?????

heaven is stoppin me from eh... commenting abt MCIS. not as if my comments were big deal or what. other ppl's blog post can appear. so y cant mine?

i am looking forward to the end of IPP. i WANT TO NOT WAKE UP SO DAMM EARLY.but i wonder if i would cry on my last day there or not. it wouldnt be so bad if every1 just carry on as if it is just another ordinary day.

i hardly cried when i was in early teens. i just wasnt a cry baby. pain also wont cry. scared also wont cry. sad also wont cry. disappointed also wont cry.

now ... guess when a girl matures, her emotions becomes more tangible n sensitive. maybe it is just becoz i am startin to think too much due to old age. (I can cry at movies now! ) But tears are good for destressing. hee hee.

some1 from my secondary sch days suddenly shows up again. amazingly, nothing has changed. OMG. i still need to find excuses to keep my distance. -.-!!! i am like, cringing inside and yet have to appear that i am... fine with him and his huh, invitations. realllllllly sian 1/2.

in MC...

supper(2)

after ty showed me some stuff on Photoshop, went for supper at Maxwell food centre. coutesy of Joseph. could have taken pictures. but he brought a along a 3.2 mp digicam with no memory stick. effectively, he brought no camera. and my phone died on me.

woodlands's like, really uber ulu. HAHAHAH. no1 knows which road leads to wdl. lucky Sg road signs r plenty and one of them leads to wdl. lucky he can claim petrol.

there he shared some crushee-troubles stories. one lucky dude whom some pretty gal had fallen for. the pretty gal had even taken the first move only to be rejected by him! but still, she doesnt give up. still continue to do things for him. perhaps hoping to move him, to touch his heart and melt his guard. eh... i duno lah. anyhow say one. hahahaha. but this girl is really admirable. brave, courageous and determined. qualities that i reallllllly admire for i would never had such guts when it comes to a boy.

but too bad. she still faced such cruelty in the end.


why is it that i can remenber wat u did and forgotten what i had done?

our dpt went to shop n save together last fri. hahaha. i felt as though i was out with my parents... that i could take whatever i want and AM will pay for it. hahah. no la. i restrained.i controlled. i succeeded in behaving properly.

i changed place. AM sometimes yelled over to me. it could be so embarrassing... imagine she yelling what mistake i had committed and other dpt could know as well...=S.

i counted. i have been sitting at 3 diff places. that means, i changed place and telephone no every 2 months. amazing statistics.

i think i want attachment to FASTER end. its been months yet i still wished i dun need to wake up at six.>,<

no longer in my teens

hi all, among my friends, i am the first one to be outta my teens compared to those who had only been 19 for less than 30 days. lol.

today i reached home early .just nice. coz today is meant to be spent at my home sweet home.=)

today i saw BREL's CEO. he looked very distinguished and also quite Japanese. hahaha, dun ask me why. seems like a nice man , too bad his system screwed up on us. and on him too. it 'internal -server -error'ed him when he wanted to check the system.

only he couldnt even log into it when it 'internal-server-error'ed him. major oops!

today i got nothing much to do. i guess tmr will more than make up for it.

AM asked y the 3 interns from NYP r like not very pally with each other. HUH. i dun know leh. i wish i know. coz this 3 particular interns want nothing to do with each other? other ppl purposely want to build a wall ard themselves, disregard attempts at friendliness then that's it already what.

the most important thing being we r each fine being on our own.

i have memories on being dumped on my own by my own firewire ppl too. during orientation when the OGLs had to be in grp of 3s. who was "sacreficed" in the end? and why? coz she was thought to be able to survive on her own. with comparitive strangers. compared to the other ppl in qtn...

yup yup yup. nothing has changed. i am still fine on my own.



argh. i'm not gonna bring this issue up anymore.

l luv my friends.

how did our lifes end up so differently? my life is so drama-less compared to other ppl close to me. but it's okay. with drama or without , we all face problems . differnt sorts and different kinds. i am glad i dont have to face yours. HAHAHHA. thats when i am glad for havin such a plain life.

i love my friends. they make mi cry. no lah. just kidding. i am Not drama enough for tears. cityhall is fast becoming our lao-di-fang.lol. my sec friends celebrated bday for me along with the night breeze at Esplanade. together with a about-to-patched-up boyfriend of YH. who doubled up as an excellent photographer. still dun have the pics. BUT will definitely have them... soon. i hope.

spent 4 hours in Jean Yip to rebond my hair. total fell asleep when i sat down there. my butt hurt from sitting down so much. then subsequently, for the next few days, i just didnt have enough sleep. kept falling asleep on the bus. i am so afraid i would miss my stop.

suffering from sore throat. slight cold. and a maSSive headache.

_______

i have a headache everytime i think abt what i wan and what to do achieve them. there are numerous , diverse things which i wanna do but they always have the same demominator.

MONEY.

NTU talk-NYP co concert

i feel happy today.

went to the NTU Comm Studies talk with poly pals. as i surveyed the crowd and entertain the thought that i might go NTU and these r the new friends that i'll make... it made mi dread going to sch.

in the end, i have no regrets abt not being gd enough for NTU comm studies. the speakers totally...-.-

hello?!

the most vital... most important , vital facilities of sch life is the benches. we have small talk, eat lunch, do project, hold bazaars and have a short nap at the benches... therefore sch benches at the SCI are very vital in ur 4 yrs of sch life!!


huh... guess u r trying to be witty, humourous but forgetabtit. thanks.

so i am okay with NOT being able to "make it " for this programme. which appeared so yaya. "cooler than Engineering students? less weird than Lit students? "THE MOST GORGEOUS in the sch??

yes, humourous and spoken in a light manner. but still... yaya lor-.-

guess i will be doing a private degree at SIM.

then we had "high tea " at cedelele . eat the first scone of my life. with a spoon and knife. Hahahaha. listen to everyone talk. it was relaxed. it was good. i told them abt G.it is a relief to know that the problem doesnt lie with me. heck, its not my problem and its not a problem even. kkkkkk. wahtever.

then met with Alyssa- The One Whom Kelly Likes to Stare. Hahaa. we r so different but our friendship is so solid.

yesterday, was ushering at the CO concert. i couldnt spot alex and chin teck. but i have ur cd. maybe u guys should autograph for me...

and i am very touched that SAOs remenber me. i am used to being a forgotten character. anyway, i wasnt that prominent to them anyway. touched til the point of tears and supremely amazed that they have such good memories to remenber my name. (maybe cause it is easy to remenber.) ha.

felt i wasnt doing a lot for the CO Concert. standing there and sticking out my hand to show the way and even accidentally slapping a girl on the face when i stuck out my hand last minute while she was walking behind me. She VERY SUAY. and i very sorry. but very hilarious. HA.


at the last minute, proved myself useful coz i manged to help a pair of mother and daughter to find seats in the dark and quite full audi. hearing their thanks made mi feel good. then got free food and just horse around generally with ateam ppl.

lifa said i am going to be out of ateam. she asked for a reason for me to remain in the team. guess what. i didnt want to provide a reason. if you want to kick me out. so be it. i am okay with it. since i am gonna grad in 2 months and there is nothing much i could do essentially. cool. calm and a bit too nonchalent. haha.

well, u didnt know that i did feel sad but i refused to tear and acted it was no big deal. truth was i was very VERY glad to know it is NOT true. ... right?!

IPP stripped me of the chance to join the installation programme. OT made it impractical for me to go GM. but i am reallllly glad of the ppl there r still so nice and friendly!!=)

a long entry coz so much happened. if i was not dreaming. my friend is goonnna get married and i will be helping her out her dinner bash! hahaha. what a change in direction when we r not that different to begin with.

AM's father suddenly went hospital on friday due to heart attack. so suddden. so sad. i hope everything will be ok. it effectively made mi squash all thoughts to go overseas study. i want to stay close to home and parents and my friends. i am learning new things still. typing in chinese, even. haha.

introducing the new intern(k)

i bought lemons to freshen the air up, due to the unfortunate mess created by the supervisor.that was about around 8.15 am.

then, help kaidi write 211 for about 300 hundred envelopes. then suddenly, Mary asked me to call Eugene and tells me that there is someone outside waiting to meet a marketing rep. HAIZ. felt like i was pulled in all directions. Eugene wanted us to go to NHS, which is at CLEMENTI... NOW. right boss, not when there is some external party all prepared for a meeting...right? thats about 10 am

then this guy rep from whatever print company, was expecting a manager, too bad end up its me. somemore he so tall, literately looked down on me. But still, after confessing i am just a intern, he never lost professionalism, still went through his sales call quite nicely, perhaps more relaxed. HAH.

duno why, started to ask what i study... and turned out we studied about the same thing. except he went for a uni edu at Perth. that explains his eng accent. even got to know he is into production but too bad, doing sales coz bread is more important afterall. running out of time, if not, i could have entertain him longer. so too bad, dude. HAH.

FINALLY STEP OUT of the office around 12 pm. haha, 2 hours after the first call to E. took cab to the NHS. sun so bright even big-eyed K had to squint until he smalled eyed like me. HAH. rush there, pay cab fare there goes the money in the wallet. NO MORE MONEE. very envious when we saw sec sch kids with a BIG wad of cash nonchalently.

go there ... not very productive in my opinion. stay at office would have accomplish more.

i just feel today is quite eventful. like a whirlwind day.

i hate red

hm, went to see 2 movies in a row.

firstly DEATH NOTE 2. just so that i can know the ending for this series. in the end, every lead character dies. if you dont want to think about writing any stories about original characters any longer just make the original lead characters ALL die.


then ta-DaaH. the end.


then, BLOOD DIAMOND. NC-16. blood and gore. now i aboslutely detest the color red. yucks!!! red reminds me of blood. of blood shed. of war. of unrest and death. no thanks.

me and KT both think its a good film. yes it is. this film squashed my desire for diamonds before i could i even start. it is a quite a sad film rooted in the ugliness of the extreme side of humanity.

so, my new year was spent watching Blood Diamond, in angst and suspense. in disbelieve with how crazy , self destructive humans can be with each other. lucky i didnt have nightmares last night.



i will be older in 24 days' time. GOSH!!! ... GAWD. no more candy and school. it has become money and work. it really doesnt feel that long when i was in primary sch and being caned when i was naughty. HAHAHA.

how my priorites had changed. i want a degree. a carreer. a boyfriend. a family. and 1.8 children.
i want to study communications. earn a lot of monee. do lasik. i want to travel as much as i can. i want to invest my monee instead of just saving it in POSB.

but HAH. bullshit lah. i want to be contented with my life even if i cant have anything above.



cant be bothered to make new year resolutions anymore. they usually dont come true for me.

LAST week

it is over. the last working week of 2006. left office early according to usual standards. the person who is supposed to sign , didnt want to sign my time sheets on the spot. i mean, he said, can he sign in the afternoon, technically yes. and do intern say no? but when afternoon came he looked busy and i didnt dare to talk (disturb) him.

so i wouldnt be getting my pay on time.

GREAT.

i talked to chee keng. the very nice person from HR and i told what happen with the person who is supposed to sign and she rolled her eyes. the person who is supposed to sign probably wouldnt bite if i had asked him lah... but it shows that he isnt considerate enough towards his intern's welfare.


NVM. i wouldnt die getting pay late. chee keng said that once i submit, i will get it in a weeks' time.

i spent friday night trying to shop with kelly but end up just window shopping. hahaha. mostly. WAHAHAHHA. i need a pair of slip-on heels! pronto!

my feet is quite sad now. bruises/cuts/scars/handiplasts everywhere!!!!!!!!


to dear maxine... time will heal ur wounds. hope you wont dwelll on it.


lastly



HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!

shocked & guilty.

sometimes i dont believe myself.

i could upset my friend, a few continents away. made him feel bad abt himself and angry towards me.

i guess i accidentally crushed his ego/pride again. its something about me and guys and me rejecting guys. regardless what's their intention, friendly or otherwise. i panicked when i sensed his upset-ness, his anger. his hurt.

i panicked and didnt really understand what i said or more correctly, typed wrong. but he isnt the first guy to say that my name=rejection. ahmed syaz was the first to point this out, jokingly or not and i thought it had no ounce of truth in it.


i just want him to know that i am sorry for making him feel bad. and i remember a lot of promises which we made together. i reallly wonder will any single one of them come true.

rest rest rest!

got a MAJOR pimple near my lip. its causing major discomfort. i duno how come i am so tired despite sleeping for 7 hours. i mean, i yawn ... non stop. my eye lids twitch with exhuastion. and i fall asleep everywhere. almost. intern cannot fall asleep during work anyway. hahaha.

MCIS also had a party. 'party'. lol. think its fairly bad labeling. HAH. it would be more true if they put a 'tea' in front of it.

N today, i could finish the allorted work before time.even had time for some legal entertainment. kekekke.

had a off-in-lieu day on wednesday. thats just 2 days ago and it felt so long ago. i shopped so much that i hardly have any dough left in the bank. the good thing is, i dun have urge to shop anymore since i've got most of what i wanted. that being the key word. 'most'. HAHAH. i neever resist a good bargain lah.

and there is gonna be a new intern. i sure hope that it would not collapse last min. cause thats major good news. cause it looks like MCIS Mrkg could be doing PanPac's as well. the staff r gonna be so overworked. this situations had potential to be one of those case studies in our exam paper.

like, what r the advantages of merger in companies. the benefits of outsourcing and not outsourcing. the advantage is one person do two's companies' work. -.- think the managers have it worse.

i listened to SO MUCH 93.3 fm that i could practically sing to whatever chinese song u could possibly pick at K-box! thanks to all my colleagues there. kekeekek.

they like to joke tat i have stay back another six months to pay back for my blur-ness and for whatever not done right.

i am sure they r joking. so i laughed along.

then another guy said, besides working for another six months, potentially working for free, the situation would most likely deteriorate to ME paying to work for them. they laughed of course. i pretended not to hear. and resisted glaring at him or rolling my eyes.

he uses nice perfume. i mean, cologne or whatever. and before i forget, its kenneth cole's black. or something which sounds like that.

going off to sleep.=)

spinning around

YAY, the mktg team finally finish the website content updates. maybe need to adjust and refine here and there but the bulk its done. PHEW!!!

ever since the mrktg team starts to go on lunch together. we become quite crazy. I become quite reckless with my words. you know, the classic eve-syndromes. though my words are harmless and funny, it still might rub people the wrong way. BUT they would usually laugh first and say, EVE!!! YOU JUST EATTEN LEOPARD'S GUTS, IS IT??

okay, i will be careful to toe the line and not cross it. actually, i prefer not to be near the line at all. anyway, its been fun working with agnes, my Assist Manager.

she knows my weak points and doesnt ask me to any designing work. kekekee, i also have the real, convenient REASON of not havin photoshop at my comp. (thank god)

and there is also this guy, whose cologne is TERRIBLY NICE! i wonder whats the brand. perhaps its calvin kien? i have to ask him if i ever see him again. but the downside is, the cologne is there , mainly to mask his smoking aftermath. at least i think so.


staring at the computer screen for 13 hours is way too much for my eyesight. there isnt enough greenery in my life. and the luckiest thing i manage to GEDDIT. if not i will be so screwed upside down for the CMS update job. coz it always the intern's job. another PHEW!!!.


then after a eco-meeting/talk cock session at JURONG EAST... i met up with HCY to... what else. shop lo. i am going crazy with the sales! we were out from 1-8 pm and on average i maybe spent about $15 per hour. i am so gonna be broke. but somehow, i DON'T CARE. there is always the next paycheck.

on our way back, we saw some1 performing on a harp. some lady. so she looked realllllllly poised, elegant and angelic/fairy-like. i always associate fairy/angels with harps.

and thus, my day out ended with a nice musical note.

milkshake night

Oh my freaking god, 2006 will come to an END SOON. SO SOON!!!!!

Faint. Faint. Faint.
got my clubbin experience. Thought I would be like a piece of rock but with the loud music, the body just automatically swayed to the music. HAHA. The queueing part was hideous though. Coz it was the milkshake night, we were all like sardines but lucky got friend’s friends who could provide a helping hand.

But my time inside the club was cut short coz my friend had a panic attack. Yes. A panic attack. Coz she is claustrophobic and there were too many people for her brain to have sufficient oxygen and she had an attack. Poor thing.

And I bump into the Dinesh and Tim of all people. HAHAHAHAHA.

And I went to on a shoppin spree. Shoppin spree gives me a high. An impromptu spree. Wouldn’t consider it as retail therapy though. I realize I am more into comfort eating. Hmm, it would explains my (growing) size.

I think I cant wait for 2007. =)

further...

i wan to go Uni!!

we drank champagne. y did i ever associate champagne with sophisticatedness and classiness and everything nice and worldly?

hahaha. ok , whatever.

i wan to go jogging. i am afraid it will rain.

chOices

i've come to a conclusion.

what u choose is what you get.

and

i might doubt my decisions, but i dont regret.


the reprecussions r always unpredictable. and it happens to be worser or at least unhappier than i had thought it would be. i thought there would no reprecussions, to be honest.

surpRISE!

i went shoppin with Ms M&M and i took a pic with her. haha. my face isnt the biggest hor.

WHEEEeeee! i had a surprise present from my good ole brother. who is back from HK since yesterday. right! it's even wrapped. its PINK. -.-hm, it is a watch. i like. despite i am not a pink person. kekeke. thanks, korkor. i will try to be a better, nicer sister. ie refrain from crashin ur comp and buy nice food for u.

TGIF?

for the past Fridays, i had been doing major OT.

so what if its Friday? i still need to stay back in office and finish whatever work i have. work i would have long finish if they could just make up their mind abt what they want. oh, whatever... change is the only constant. at least i can sleep more hours after a long day at work.

my direct supervisor behaves as though she might leave this co. any moment.

will there come a day when this mrkting departmt has only interns and managers?

one month of IPP

in the span of ONE month,

i have undergone a change of boss and soon, a change of seating and maybe desk number? argh. whatever.

my brother gone to HK! bet he will LOADS of fun, joy and laughter and those un-mentionables. muahahaha. (my perfered kind of laughter now)better bring back something nice for each and every1 of us!

major OT

friday morning, I stepped into the office feeling quite apprehensive cause I was supposed go see some fierce, uptight woman for next work task.that karen woman whom an gie didnt have any positive feeling for.

I was afraid that she would be unbearably hard. But it was ok. Turns out that she wanted me to just tag along for the next field trip.

No exactly field trip, but u get what I mean.

From CME launches to F&N, to Printers at tuas, to Warehouse visit. marketing is kinda not-boring in its way.

I like! But still I keep making those stupid careless mistakes, like spelling errors!the truth is i always want to get things done fast, so much that i never check enough to make sure its perfect. anyway... I think I should start spelling things the way it should be spelt in my blog.

mi and genesis had to stay til 9 PM. thats 3 hours OT. i stayed behind simply to fax to ALL the secondary sch. boss arranged Mac for us as dinner. Mac 2x in a week.


Next Monday is the big day and I seriously pray that I don’t screw up for stuff under my charge. If not, I would absolutely just get a F for my IPP straightaway.
* stomach churning at the thought of it.

me and my cube

u r lookin at 5 days of my life.

i think i am satisfied.

an gie left. before she left , she had issues with karen, and karen practically shoot the messenger (me) when she talk to me abt the issue. in the end, she had her way and i hope she is happy/ -.-.

so the best thing is keep quiet and open ears big big.

then caught up with some sec friends. have they changed ? i dunno. if they did, i couldnt tell. hahaha. went to cafe cartel, i tried their new items and it sucked lah. pictures LIE. if there is ever a restuarant whose pictures doesnt lie , i swear i will be the most loyal customer it ever will have.

cheated by pictires 2x in a week!

so my friend and i were talkin abt r we satisfied with what we have now. r we satisfied with our lives now.

i guess i am. i dare not ask for more or think abt more cause if i dun achieve it, i know i will be reallllllllly disappointed. i think i am procastinating in determining wht i exactly want in life and how am i gona be on my way.

i wan to be a carefree teenager as long as possible. going to work is going to sch. except that whatever mistakes i make in work affects the company too besides just myself.

actually i like being in marketing. but as interns, i keep kana faxing. and following-up. nothing intense. i wish to lighten the load of michele, but i know too little to help.

got a new boss.everything changes again i guess. i definitely hope its for the better. put me in a more important role. hopefully not the web content management... i would just drop dead inside the computer system.=(

i was realllllllly snappish with M.Y. so old already still so uber lame. cannot stand him le. at first still think he quite funny and laid back. he is laid back. just that super cold. and lame. and not funny. total gets on my nerves today.

y cant i have just a straight answer?

the lame-cold-not-witty replies totally rub me the wrong way.ARGH.

book sale and its NOT media's fault

the book sale was actually held inside the F&N headquarters and it was in a ICE CREAM PARLOR!

It was decorated in old school American 50s style with Elvis and Marilyn as posters and red vinyl chairs and those record playing machines. okay, it was CDs instead. but it had a realllllly nice feel to it.


it was a sale of unwanted assessment bks and kia-su parents easily bought 4 years worth of assessment bks for their kids. i am glad i am not their kids.

and when (and if)i am a parent, i absolutely WILL NOT buy textbooks for my kids.
i think sch work is (bad) enough. HAHA.

then, we dug around for ice cream, it IS a ice cream parlor after all, and i found a strawbeerry cone which is not being sold in Singapore. it tasted yummmy!


in the course of work, got to know some MOE people and we started discussing about blogs and young people, blogs and dairy.

i suppose most of the blogs they seen r something like mine, just blogging about mundane things, stuff that made up my life. then they asked, so whats the use in letting the public know ur nitty gritty abt ur life? that i can i provided a decent ans. that it is an avenue where u can do catch up with ur friends' life esp when u haf no time to catch up in real life. its USEFUL!

then she commented abt why r young people doing putting their most intimate
pictures/videos of themselves... on the public domain? this, i haf no idea. i haf no idea why people r exhibitionists. i am a no pyschologist.


i also unfortunately have no idea how come young primary kids r exposed to nc 16 stuff and r actually following it without knowing what they r doing.

i would think that the blame if any, lies in the parental supervision more than the media. media is just doing its job! providing entertainment to its target audience. with censorship already in place. but if some1 other than target audience watches, how is it suppose to prevent tht?

by not showing at all? its rubbish lor. then u r not looking after some other consumer segment.

in short. i am just against people who totally blame the media environment. because , dont u realize? hafnt u realize?, in this shrinking global world, every1 has a part to play.


oh, and some MP's daughter's blog was shut down due to some backlash she received over personal comments she made regarding some remotely political issues.

oMG.there is no freedom of speeach or even ideas.=(

that y i stick to mundane blogging abt useless stuff.=)

abt IPP...

i just speed read all my friends' blog posts abt IPP. some r absolutely delighted. some r eh... devastated? not lah, just not happy with their IPP.

some r bored. some r busy and finding it fun.

i wish i belong to the latter.

sometimes i am busy and sometimes i stared at the comp pretending to be busy.

but. the colleagues r quite nice. tml will be helpin out at book sale fair, so my role will be that of a salesgirl. the best part is dun need go company! YAY! still feelin the euphoria of this bit of news.

small things make me happy. but i still need wake up early cause the book fair is held near ULU PANDAN. my dear, alex and syaz and yiting, does this ring a bell?

so after this gd news, i made plans to meet up an ex-colleague for dinner.

overall, still feeelin pretty happy abt the day. i went to some launch event, get to know my sales colleagues better, tao-pao-ed the food from the tea spread back to office and home. and i was the first to leave among the marketing department.

i am glad that we started those chian emails. i think i need those emails to kill my boredom and to know that my friends are still around me. i feel so isolated when i had no1 near to join me for lunch...

hari raya and passiveness

i appreciate public holidays now.

i love public holidays!!!!!!!!!!


today was a family day.i like family time! my brother didnt know how to go to that dim-sum place in chinatown from cityhall... so after circling that stupid area for one hour, we finally went to TPY instead. what a relief, i hate feelin hungry.

the dim sum was just so-so with not-impressive service. next time i shall ban my mother from choosin where to eat.

anyway, my brother and father actually follwed me and mother around while i looked for a bag to buy. it feels so so so weird! thats y i dun like shoppin with guys. it nags on my conscience that i am wasting their time as they wait for me shoppin.

in the end, nothing caught my fancy and my office dress supply remains in shortage. i cant wait for the december sale.


with internship, time seem to pass so much faster!everyday 11h in that office, wasting my youth away. AHAHAHAA.

i also gotten used to fact that i can never leave at 6pm. though i still feel sadden by this fact. time passes by so fast that by the time i can leave, it is already near 7pm. =(


so what happens when 2 ppl r equally passive?

the ans is... NOTHING happens.

urge to blog despite eveything

i AM busy.

i came back from my thailand ONE WEEK AGO and my blog has nothing to show for it.

no time to really describe like rachel did, so i would let pictures do the job!




this is the best pub at ao nang. i had a fruity drink while ALL the rest had ordered alcoholic stuff.



some beach at some small island. i tried snorkeling. IN THE MIDDLE OF THE SEA.YES. i did. despite not howing to swim.i grabbed t and r's hands for dear life.



this was taken after a ride on elephant at some deserted jungle after stormy weather. can u imagine! BANANA LEAVES FOR UMBRELLA. it was a huh... unique once- in- a- life time experience.

My last touristy picture. at the hotel. shirt and bag bought at the ao nang night market. nothing much to shop there. more eating done only. ovaltine bubble tea! KFC layppot rice served in plastic cups.

-.-no insects tho...

hm... seems like a month ago. cant believe it was only 7 days ago when i was happily bargaining away simply cause it was so fun.every1 was kinda shocked when we actually went on the trip with the T and D. but it was pretty fun too. they were really nice to us. treated us meals and drinks in exchange for bunkin with us. ( and cheating out of the hotel fees).

i like takin planes. esp when we accelerate and shot into the sky! kekekeke.

rachel definitely would be blessed if she had...eh-hem, to look after her carelessness. HAHAHA.

abt marshell cavendish. nothing to complain about. its good and tiring and makin full use of cheap labour. the ppl r nice and polite and... normal lor. the only BAD thing is... its so so far. need 2 hours to TRAVEL. its a journey. a long long journey. which includes waiting for bus. and if u know me, u know that...

I HATE WAITING FOR BUS! =`````````(

he asked for friendster

he talked to her.she talked to him too. she didnt expect him to have remembered what she said eons ago.

he got up to leave. she thought its probably the last time seeing him.


but surprisingly, after takin a few steps, he turned around , whipped out a piece of paper and pen and asked for her... ... friendster!


how things changed with the times and technology.

going off to krabi

sawadeeKA.

yup. going off the land of smiles with only the 4 of us. i know its not exactly the best time to go with the politics and weather and the more i think, the more it sounds bad... but but BUT, what will happen will happen. anyway, rachel's lord is on her side... i will just enjoy the surrounding benefits. HAHAHAHAH.


must do- shop shop shop, night life , thai message, beach beach beach... i think i will stray off from the activitied which r remotely adrenaline rushing. and water activities too. dippin my toes inside them excluded.


for this trip i will sacrifice my prefernce for being fair. ha. i hope to come back golden brown! =)

holiday

so far the holiday has been what i wanted, i guess, more or less ... just relaxin and NOT thinking much. but somehow the friends i thought i would catch up with has no time for me!... but i understand, life's like that.

i cannot believe how rachel just walked into some tour agency and suddenly we r supposed to go thailand. i had not told my parents yet. i mean, there is every chance it ends up as AALL TALK only, no need to hear them squek and grill me about all the details.

even tho it is holidays, still must live life with discipline.=/

last day

Last day of Teachin Entreprise Project has gone without much fanfare.

print team is still rushing to tie up all the loose ends. think they will be continuing to tie up loose ends on monday.

we tried to do somethin special on the last day of sch. we ...went to botak jones!
hahaha! all of us except for ahmed syazwan, nothing can stand in the way of true love, i guess.





i like how his specs reflect the light... HAHA.













anyway... i went to the provision shop to buy 100plus next to the coffee shop and the uncle actually spend 10 mins talking to me about a newspaper article in My Paper ( that chinese freesheet).

i was kinda amazed that he would spend 10 mins talkin to me. a total stranger who wasnt that interested to learn in depth about what he was gonna say.

he actually read out the entire article with me helpin to read too, so that i can read finish that thing faster.

patience is gd. so is respect for elders. if not i wouldnt know of this interesting article.

the short article was about living your life so that everyday count. essentially it preaches that one should refrain from procastinating if not you risk not achieving anything in the end.

i have to say he is bery very nice to point out this article to me. it was pretty inspiring. make evryday count if not you might end up not living after all.

all talk and no action is just plain laziness and passion-less. passion seems like a word which is recurring too often. it probably was heard by us in the poly forum 10 thousand and 350 times.

i want to have passion too. but i duno what my passion will be. isnt it good to have a passion to give u a direction in life? to know what u want to do and work towards it. instead of getting a job, a salary and work towards the day u die.

so... i am really glad i got to meet Eugenie. i will be doing volunteer work at ( one of ) her NPOs. in the name of team strawberry lah. haha . like dat more fun. but its not a passion yt. just something i can do to contribute back to... whoever and whatever.


...
the last day of tep ended with a surprise.

kaidi & arshade actually went ard shaking ppl's hand.
even wake me up to say bye.

i appreciated that. i hope arshad has decided to fogive and forget.


yes...
my last words in TEP will be
Bye Bye, people. Good luck in ur future endeavors.


dun think i will have the chance to meet 27 of u in a single room anymore... at least not easily.

perversity in my nature

Perverse.

Did u come across this word before? Do you happen to know the meaning? Do you know of any1 who is perverse? i chanced upon this word when i was readin a horroscope analysis of my sign( of course) and it was one of the words used to describe my sign.

along with stubborn, creative and sarcastic.

lol.

anyway, it means
1.
willfully determined or disposed to go counter to what is expected or desired; contrary.
2.
characterized by or proceeding from such a determination or disposition: a perverse mood.
3.
wayward or cantankerous.
4.
persistent or obstinate in what is wrong.


haha. so i guess its kinda true. like yesterday in the morning when i asked alex how capable was he in his CO to be able to skip his training without serious repercussions.

WHATA RUDEI&DIOTIC&EQ-less qustion to ask. C t totally showed disapproval ( "what kind of qt is this to ask ?! ")when i ask this qtn to alex. but alex seemingly is OK with the question. so y did i perversely, wilfully decided to go against what is desired, to ask this qtn?

coz, the person whom this qtn is directed to, appeared OK with it. was he upset? i hope not...coz there is logic in this qtn! if u r capable enuf, means u can afford to skip one session and still catch up. if not, its best nt to skip and conc on the prepping. its gd if say u r capable ... means u r really gd enuf lor, its ok to say u r not caapable enuf... i would understand u need to practise to be perfect for your performance!

of coz, there r also issues like responsiblity and sense of duty and commitment... regarding skippin cca session. but putting that aside, i thot the qtn was ok to be asked.

or maybe cause i felt that alex has been ard me for 3 years, he knows my eq-less personality so he could take it knowing there is no harm intended?

the moment of truth

i am going to ... MARSHALL CAVENDISH. a subsidiary under TIMES publishing. cause i had ticked the marketing catergory, afterall as my third choice.

one of the rules was NO MALICIOUS UNTRUTHS ABOUT YOUR WORKPLACE IS ALLOWED IN YOUR BLOGS.

yes, i appreciate this rule a lot.

so true abt me

What's your personality love style?
Here is the analysis:
You desire a love that will last forever. You are quite serious about finding this type of love, and that's why you think carefully about the men that you meet before deciding whether you could really love them. You don't just develop a crush on someone overnight: you look at a person's personality and other aspects of their life before deciding to form an attachment. If a guy doesn't meet your expectations, you would rather be alone. Your love has to be perfect. Be careful though, you could be missing out on some worthy relationships because your standards are so high.


Are You Nosy?
Nosy Level: 60%
You may seem to be a nosy person to some people, but actually you are quite a serious person who's not at all interested in gossip. You just like to know what's going on around you. It's a natural interest and you can get offended when people tell you they think you're a sticky-beak.


The Squirrel
Here is the analysis:
You are very direct, which might freak them out. Something along the lines of "Have you ever looked at yourself in the mirror?" might slip from your lips.


How well do you react?
Here is the analysis:
Although you are emotional, you have full control of behavior. Being patient is your unique quality.


i think the above are all pretty true!

my first show reel

no pain no gain, these six months has made the words very true.

i should honour them by making them THE motto of my life.

i had a lot of fun making my show reel. editing the clip to Christina Aguilera's voice made everything very enjoyable. though i was pretty stressed before it. BUT now ... i feel pretty good about my clip. HAH. i had learnt how to do things i never thought i would be interested to know how to do. i am proud of my show reel! proud of my maturing as a media student.

six months in TEP ( more or less ) has officially ended. tmr we will know the results of IPP which i guess is even more exciting about knowing your grades for the respective stopovers.

i am glad i worked with people i never worked before. it was a chance to know what sorts of different ppl existed instead of workin with my buddies and only thinkin about people superficially. ( i guess with me coming into contact with other ppl, more ppl HATE me!)

had it not been for this attachment i would have never work with Kaidi and co, i guess.

that 2 months had a lot of ups and downs but definitely was a period of time which i liked a lot. and learnt a lot. and stressed a lot.

i will always remenber Kaidi telling me "HEY eve, dont need to streesss! relacccc..." and me imitating (? ) loo lin subconsciously. her personality seeps into mine! guess i dont haf a strong personality afterall. ha, it was something abt that env that made me caught onto those mannerisms that they already had.

why would i want to be some1 else other than myself? " you r becoming like me and i am becoming like you! "

while i was away

there is so many things to say!!!! but rachel told me to tell her first before i start...

alrighty,


for a short, cliffhanger conclusion, i can say that now i've got more people to loVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

for the highlights, u can continue to read.

starting with world bank, what was my takeaway? weight gain lor! NYP SAO so kind, bought loads of snacks, and i have no self control regarding food, so i guess i have more of me again.

and they had goodie bags which contained thumbs to give away! * envious!

the 5 days of waking at 5+ am, wasnt a chore to me. i dont mind waking up early... if u wake up early, u have a longer day to enjoy. i thank the kind bus drivers who joked with me and tried to find me so that i wont miss the bus ( tho some would prefer the other way).

i guess u r diovorced? so i hope u can find your second spring soon! or just plain happiness.

POLY FORUM @ DE 2006

the format of the forum was, to feed people every 2-3 hours. talks, dialogue and discussion sessions filled up the missing blanks in between.

everytime PF made the news, they would paste the articles up. self promotion.

was i looking forward to it? i was! kinda. ha. i knew it was gonna be fun.

our group was kinda tight... too tight even. * kana complaint.

our group was fun. PEPSI-COLA 123, any1 ? its good to know we can complete one round of the number game... finallly. this is the girl who digs her nose publicly, takes pictures of herself pressed again the window and the photocopier!!!!!

the walk to fisherman village was more fun than fishman village itself. theme 5 and everyone else there makes a good choir! think it would be better if it had been one big table instead of being sitted so far away from one another. ( too used to squeezing durin the mealtimes) too hard to talk! i felt like wearing my heels, in the end, i ended up wearing nothing( on my feet). too pain!

hence, eve is a hobbit. she dun need shoes.=)

while trying not to sleep before a talk, daniel ask me to present the exhibition to the minister, together with hao ren. no surprise there. missed the dialogues sessions with the minister. missed out on the talk-back session that terrence had. how often do u witness a student arguing with a minister?

but now i know the man who takes photographs is the same man who walks down the corridors on DMSM-TEP. but i still duno the details.

i helped my room mate make up for the D and D. hidden talent of mine! we had multiple chinese weddings in a single room. so many yam-seh-ing. did any one spoil his throat?

my 4th room mate with drew from PF due to family tragedies. 2 people gone in a day... thank god she was strong.

writing warm fuzzies, the last part of 5.2's program co. i wan to go to my didi's wedding, thanks!=P this bluffer kept confusing us with his age. and kept running away. p.s can i comission my showreel to u? i wish my mom had a third child. i kinda like being a sister! i absolutely loved critc-ing those videos!

and BAD DAY MV NOW has a 5 stars rating. cause we wanted to watch it in the chalet and it kept laggin and we kept viewing.lol. in the end, we couldnt even get to the chorus. BUT its impressive enough! at least they liked it.=)

i am glad people like our carnival. liked our song performance. every1 deserve the clap on the back esp eugenie. =) lets haf faith in our ideas and let them realize that they were wrong about us. =)

pity RP. fancy sch reopening on a thursday...

poor kat, who had such bad luck with room mates. but u have US!

we all need a hug now and then...

and we took abt 100 pictures! group of cam whoreS!

annoyed.

back when i was younger, i used to get locked out of my room if i'd done something naughty. i would cry and sob to get my parents to open the door and lemme go in. i begged them and promised i wouldnt do it again.

no dignity at all. ( pushing aside the fact that it was a deserved punishment)

no pride at all. with eyes watching this poor naughty kid who gets locked out. the poor kid does feel the shame. thats y lessons r leant so effectively.


now if i would were to get locked out i would stay out until u beg me to come back.


my first shift at IMF was all right. pleaseant even. each bus has a bust host and a police officer. i met two officers in my bus and they were all media workers! one used to be in discovery programming and the other , currently a photo editor at straits time. would love to ask a lot about the media scene but then again i dun wan to appear nosy and interrupt their walkie talkie conversations.

and i want to declare that NYP HAS THE BEST SA Officers EVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY! we are so fortunate to have them!!!! they prepared so many stuff for us! food and drink and games! games ... not so sure lah. HAHAHA.

i am testing my determination now.

cursed

bad things that happened to me within the last week.
( not in order of bad-ness)

1. NEW phone dropped and scratched... not by me. AGAIN. other people can flush other people's hp down the toilet literately if the same thing happens while i can only flush my anger down the toilet.

2. Manager make noise about me being late.

3.Inconvenient IMF reporting place AND time.

4.Waking up and going to a last -minute -cancelled PF meeting. which i didnt know. and now we dun have a new idea. and i have no time to contribute to them anymore and anyway.

5. IT RAINED ON THE THIRD EPISODE ... AGAIN! made it all the way to lab park and 4 NGs. and once we reached HF mrt,40 mintutes later, it never rained anymore.


i hate times like this. the only good thing about being way down is that you can only go up. everything can go wrong, most probably will go wrong. so what if i care... there is only more disappoinment. so what if things were planned and promised... shit always crops up and expectations dashed, things dont turn out the same way, and apologies dun make a difference.

only turning back the hands of time back, can.

i cant help it

i cant help it... i was too nervous, i was insecure , i was not confident, i was not steady.
i cant help it... i am disappointed with my self.=(

because i know i can do better than that.

(not very) SUrpRISED!!!!!!!!!

arts and crafts sessioned occured after a ... 3-5 years absense! but skills r not lost, of course!
x
so while they did the card, guess who did the food! K and M! and me and KK... we were more like assisstants i guess. but the sandwiches were reallllllly nice. esp the toasted ones.
she comes.in.not. not very unprepared. hm. she saw our sneaky shadows earlier and was guarded already i guess.
no product placement intended. and this is the empress looking at her (cast's) new dress.

indebted-peekin of.

The PEEKING of

THE MAKING of...

INDEBTED!!!

hahahah/ok. u aw it here first! ( while i am waiting for my hair to dry..argH)

supper with P-paLS!

supper with my pals from PM. at chomp chomp. petrol, courtesy of the older guy, of course! and we each ordered something for all of us!


they cant wait to start! as usual. even tho they had dinner already.






















the satay looked absolutely delicious! hahahaha! i've got good taste!

it looks good and taste as good. not like the following dish...















the black burnt-looking chicken wings were ordered by joseph(ine)~@@!!!

no fine presentation ...


but it was goes really well with the spicy
sour chili!














this was the original reason why we went there in the first place... the beancurd endosed by jasmine. even tho jasmine was not the reason why we went there lah.

i liked mine original with nothing on top... they liked theirs with yam paste. so sweeeeeeet. like, ew?













a relatively short trip... but loads of laughter as we listened to josephine's sch daze and army stories. and embarrassing stories. he was particularly talkative that day. then he had to send me home also... and sorry lah... i dun recognise my neighborhood once they are 1km outside the radius of my own block... ha.

south canteen and a 19th birthday

rachel doesnt know where to look. her expression is price less. whahahah.

and i will miss south canteen with the claypot rice and bubble tea and the aftermath of a bloated stomache.





TECKIE'S BIRTHDAY!

it was a surprise. she didnt suspect a thing.YT and R went to buy a nice fudge chocolate cake for teckie!

another priceless expression( in the backgrd) by another friend.

2 gals and a hairdresser

posing for a picture with the girl with the new fringe.
everyone IS VAIN! muahahahahaha.

the first production our crew had was at botanical gardens. a hot day. we were all tired and sunburnt and whatnot... where r the talents?! lol. but we managed to have a picnic with our props and over priced drinks. BEFORE what u see here...
this was a collage which i haf no hand in. i was sick... mc 2 days and i missed out on this art session and filming of junyang concert. sadly. i really would love to help in it. they did such a great job, yah? too bad it didnt have its deserved 15 sec of fame. but who cares? lol. i conclude that i liked workin with them despite e differences and circumstances. its ... nice to work with no script , no planning , no tripod and little words...

canon dv

our cannon dv production... it was a project among the 9 of us.

they like to say the bigger the group, the more the conflicts? after all, too many cooks spoil the broth.


but i could safely tell people that despite our large no, despite our disagreements due to different opinions, unhappiness or whateve negative things we feel, we r always able to thrash things out in a reasonable way... ( it only takes a meeting.)

we would not habour any bad blood between us after that and our friendships would not be affected in the slightest way.

the broth isnt spoilt in the slightest way.

we are always careful to put ourselves in others' shoes ,try to remenber to think for the others, to be as considerate as possible, allow room to learn from mistakes, to explain to those who dun understand , to tolerate the occassional mood swings... etc etc...

we dun demand explanation. we help each other out as best as we could.we accomodate. we correct each other if one is wrong, and the one who is being corrected is usually grateful for it.( at least i know i am)



and we forgive and forget!

that is why we r still such great friends!... ... i hope!

my entry is history

if people chance upon/dig out/look for/happened to read blog entries long ago... and then find it offensive/hurtful/untrue...

i can only offer sincere apologies.


as e blog title already suggests, welcome to my world of imperfections. if i had to choose words carefully. might as well just shut it down.


i am careless and i say thoughless stuff, do thoughtless things. i change my mind and opinions at quite a frequent rate.

my opinion can be wrong. extremely wrong. i can come across as mean.


so i will learn my mistake.


i get this all thrashed out and conc on meetin the dl. and hope for the best.

thats the problem with" free speech". no1 said that what i think is right anyway.i am bery brave when it comes to admiting mistake.

its so...................... when i offend people without meaning to.=(

"mentally insane person"

this is qoute from my chat window.

Z says:
nothing's gonna work with an insane person
Z says:
you just gotta say 'yeah, whatever...' and leave asap

extremely fitting in my case. sane people can have moments of insanity.

interning

FA recently had 3 interns with them for a week. 3 fillipinas. they love singing and dancing. and there is one who loved cleaning.

they r cool. six months here doing internship with FA when they r doing studies on HOTEL MANAGEMENT. total kana cheated. they should be with at least hotel 81. dont u think so? and i think they r paying for it. pay to agency for arranging the accomodation etc. however they get paid by FA. but i guessed they still lower-paid. argh.

i am NOT paying for internship.

wil be working for 4 straight days. i hope i can wake up for sch, cant wait to close the chapter there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

LA-ZI-Ness

5 snacks i enjoy:
1- Ice Cream
2- Haribo or other gummy candies
3- Strawberry Pokey
4- Dark chocolate
5-.... fruits? for the weight/health conscious me.

5 things i willl do with a 100 million dollars
1- Shopping?
2- Traveling with my family and friends?
3- just enjoy life lor...

5 things i will never wear
1-tube or revealing stuff.
.... i dun anything as long as i look good in it!whahahah

5 BAD habits
1- Too straight/mean
2- Too impatient yeti procastinate
3- Too bochap
4- Bingeing!!!!!
5- u can decide for urself...

5 famous people i would date...
1-takeshi kaneshiro
2- alvin lee? alvin something with the braces and was on the ruien show recently.
3-stanley Huang!!!!!!!!
4... dunno lah.

ok that was just a tag my friend has given me, so its done!


i think i cannot ceased to be amazed by how lazy 1 can get. and how technology plays a bit in it.

had it not been for email , we will be walkin around, sending stuff, instead of sitting down typing. we will be moving, burning calories. and not finding walkin a chore. even tho it takes just seconds.



whatever, i think i give up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



i will be the first to admit that i am LAZY. i dont want to think too much anymore. hoping, wishing, thinking, fearing, is too energy consuming for me.=(

what why how

i hardly make wishes. coz be careful of what u wish for. i am a believer of that.


recently read old posts of a besty. hee hee... so nostalgic. the more we move ahead with times, the more we cling on to the past... at least me. i long for those phone calls. shopping trips. gossiping over lunch. asking abt homework. combining desks in classroom... kekekekeke.


but still have to move onto the grownup stuff. but i will keep the not very grown up stuff inside me also.

wishing to read minds

if only we can read minds? then we wouldnt need to assume. we can just know. okayyy, i know its not feasible AT ALL... but sometimes i just wish I can read people's mind at important point of time.

like, when a person is trying to let you down gently and searching for gentler words to let u know the truth. eh... if i can read ur mind at this point of time then u r saved from trying to let me down verbally coz i would already know. and i can pretend not to know and everything's fine.i would know the extent of how deep is emotions you had really felt instead of only knowing the superficial part of it.

i am some one who likes knowing everything or nothing at all. =)


... national day and i spent the later half of it working... workin is becoming like a chore most of the time. think the eleventh month curse is coming. i just cant seem to spend a twelvemonth at any of my workplaces. someone save me from the montony. if not i become more and more grouchy when its the 8 th month, think about quitting in the 9 th month and finally quit when it is the 10th month.

then when i realise i miss my paycheck, it would been about after three months. then i would start to find a job.


i think that might still happen after i graduate and find a full time job. Reason for quitting? Work is becoming too sian for me.

insecurities

yes. we will be learning aVid after all. after 2 years of promise. i guess we should be satisfied when promises r kept.

some girls r such funny creatures.

his gf actually talk to me in msn, and i had to use my lousy hanyupinyin to talk to her. and she , to me, gloated abt having him.

ta shi wo de le.


ehm right. it struck me as an insecure statement. insecurites... part and parcel of life. tho i didnt expect her to feel it towards me.

couples... why dont they have enough trust with their partners and themselves? not referring to them, but generally i guess. but... kekekeke, i wouldnt know!

ms soo said we can consider more cam work. in- front- of the cam work. lol. if only she witnessed all the NGs.

AND... majorly embarrassed that i didnt finish the packaging efficently. ARGGGGGh. PH cant come soon enough.

4th epi host

kekekek... i was the host! together with keith. but no pic. maybe might take a screen shot later.

and it was a good experience. would have enjoyed it more if not the fact that i didnt finish packaging for my second epi yet. there was a nagging doubt at my head.

we even had khai as talent coach. lol. i am NOT a natural camera person. think kieth was better than me. his role required loads of acting! hilarious!!!!!! i cant help it . i laugh and then he laugh at me laughing then NG. who ask his audio no good and he had to pass off screaming as normal speaking.

thanks to my image people so that i can pass off as a fashion person , khairiyah for hair, Maxine and Farhanah for my face. first time i had wore a dress in school ! i just feel weird in a dress. thank god i didnt spilt the dress or what.

thanks for everyone tolerating my bad hosting skills. sorry for my NG.s. let bygones be bygones!!!!!! since "it's a wrap!"=)