mixed feelings

i've yet to tender but will do soon. as it turn out... i dun have a major increment despite the long time they spent negotiating.=X

the interviewer has already told me that there is no such thing as work life balance. OMG. wadatian! i guess minimunlly they end their day at 8pm? i am trying to do all the mental preparations i can at this point of time. i guess i wont be reaching home at 7pm in time for the freshly prepared dinner and the long running drama serial. it is pretty heart-breaking to me. but ... my dreamland has to reach an end, someday somehow.

in the mean time; i am a mixed bag of feelings now. i've grown too too attached to the colleagues and surroundings around me. cant bear to leave! yet i yearn to leave. regardless for better or for worst; that is something only time can tell.

3 more days to melbourne. i will be like a solo traveller for half the time. time to train my guts , independence and survival instincts! not to mention navigation and map reading skills ?! biggest adventure to date! exciting but kinda scaryy. i am not as brave as those personality skills say i am!

i am scared.

i am scared...

scared by the rate at which time passes by so quickly. :C

Pre-CNY 2010

we are all off for the CNY break- how happy is that ? :D As usual, SLS usually receives some cny hampers/ goodies from our vendors & this year, the best delicious item received, to me, is the Black Gold Pineapple tarts. I dunno where it is from but its really very nice.

Instead of the buttery base u get from the usual pineapple tarts, the black biscuit base, which is made from charcoal, just never makes u feel jia-let. unique & oiishiiiii. i just gotta take a pic before it is all swallowed up! haaaaa.

i've heard good things about 7th storey. so i am pretty disappointed when i finally got a taste of it.

the stuff served didnt look very appetising.

oh well. once is enough.

what i want to be doing NOW

What do i want to be doing NOW?

I want to be packing bags so that i can go holiday. i dont care if i get lost in unfamiliar land. everything is an adventure! what dont kill me makes me stronger! but i cant. it is just too early. so at least... i will write about it.


What do i want to have by next week?

Some ang baos. so that if i get lost in unfamiliar land, i can have some money to take a cab back to my accomodation.

What do i hope to have by next month?

A new job, pls pls pls! i'm getting desperate, i will be good and do everything it takes to win that new job!! duno when will that be happening, but at least ... i can voice it out here!