its funny

i am lucky cause i have a predessecor who was excellent at what she did. leaving me no shit work to clean up. no mess to sink/swim in. i am unlucky cause i have a higher expectations to match and maintain. the fact that i am not at the same level is not relevant.

just do it.

its funny how much things you can observe in a small environment of about 200m2, if not smaller.

its funny how some people try to be diplomatic but authoritarianly at that. >,< they dont give you a choice despite saying you are free to choose. but what can you do about the authorities?? but to relent and compromise?

its also funny how some ppl think you can deliver something in a matter of seconds once they inform you about it. they assume that once they ask for it, its very "simple and easy" to get it done. inconsiderate self-centred pigs in human skins.

but its even more amazing how we can all have different farcade for each situations.

in all, this env is really fast moving. you have to change your face just as fast.

i am Not zzzing

i am going to out in less than 3hours.

its a full day which started with heavy breakfast, heavy lunch and buffet dinner! we r all such foodies!! today is company gathering which consisted of buffet and Kbox. we had 2o of us and the kbox room was humongous... though empty. like, not much deco one.

songs were very separated between chinese pop and hokkien songs!! lol. diff era la, hor. hahahaha. it was fun.

i hope i have more fun in genting. god of gambling pls smile on meeeee. heehee.

這裡發現愛

my current must -watch drama is 這裡發現愛. it made me fall in love with 許樂 aka Vic Chou! i thought the chemistry between him and 陳妍希, still an actress considered to be newbie, was great! haha. anyway, Vic Chou is my fav tv actor now!

they are so funny in their scenes. i guess i am only watching because of them.

in a daze

i am feelin as though i am a daze.

again n again, time seem to past too fast. i tagged along my first spree the previous week.

AM leaving.

dpt restucturing.

essay pending. no mood to pen anything about politics. so i shant pen anything.

going to Genting next Sat.
finally. though i think there is nothing much to shout abt there. i wan the fresh air!! and take many beautiful pictures back. i am packing my makeup and nice clothes over there instead of like going to bkk. so lok-kok!! lok-kok no more!! i been burning weekend with sch work.=( i missed out outing with firewire sadly. anyway genting will be a sweet sweet relief.

its time to think "career advancement". sometimes,i wonder how accelerated can my career be? i dont think i am in a career yet. i mean. its still just a job to me. i am still careless, embarrassingly careles that i wish i can dig a hole to hide myself and pretend i never existed. how am i supposed to manage anything?!

i really have a lot of self-doubt in me. cause i do have certain expectations of myself and i am not even doing things decently thats why i am... incredulous if they wan to expand my portfolio or at least discuss the possibilty of it.

i understand whats the feelin when celebs say they r happy just to be shortlisted. hahahaha.

from another angle -i never think how things can be worse. things r not good now. but i can make it better with bosses' help. back to career advancement, i dont dare to think abt it until i got the degree safely in hands.

in any case, it really is exciting to be in my position!!!!! i know i can do it. its not that i dont know how. its because... i do without planning? never consider from all angles what is the situation to best plan what is the best way to execute.


so there, i should properly understand my weakness. be swift to hear, slow to speak.

betrayal

hi.
turned out that i cant be trusted with a secret. i am repenting. i am ashamed of myself. and i swear... that i wont let it happen again.

the good thing is... it is not a matter of life and death. the bad thing is... there goes my honour and trustworthiness=X.



this week is damm fast!!! a bossless week with good lunch, online spree and too much sch work.