i know what i want for ...retirement

For the first time in quite a few years, I feel like this has been quite a looong year. So much has happened. Too much, in fact. So much so that i finally realize what is making feel me tired.

LIFE.

!!!

yeah... it sounds like I am tired of living. But living is tiring. Why cant I be like the korean 90 years old couple who bought a piece of land & grow raddish for retirement. They are 90 years old and yet they are still very healthy, able to climb stairs and handwash their laundry at a nearby stream. They are still so active at 90 years old!

They had the right balance of electricity and technology. No compulsion to have/check digital gadgets.

It probably signifies that I have an innate refusal to move along with the times.

ANyway, I would like to have their kind of retirement.

random:
BF was making me so pissed that he just want to watch a movie during the weekend. For. every. weekend. why isnt he TIRED of doing the same thing again & again ( Ok, i realize the same can be said for me & shopping but at least with shopping, you get to stroll around & burn some calories).

We need to get up and move our ass!! Cause sometimes i look at him & imagine seeing a normal weighing guy, in a fat suit. I wonder whats the real appearance of this guy underneath the fat suit? I wonder whats the shape of his jaw. I wonder why is his head too big for his specs; thus his specs creates a red mark when he wears them. Sometimes, i sit down & feel like my butt is expanding. hmm, am i developing an issue with weight, for all the meaningless meaning that it means?!

hurt pride

for all the ridicule i made abt the bf's weight, his pride is nvr hurt.

then i found out too late that it is not the same case with money.

talking about money is always such a sensitive subject. y isnt his weight the same? i always wanted to ridicule him and shame him into losing weight so that he will stop snoring so loudly & stop sweating like a pig in the slightest heat like drinking hot soup. but i nvr succeed.

so i didnt even try to ridicule him abt $$ and he reacted so badly so that i always think is this the right person for me? esp when we are almost at the stage whereby we wanna buy a flat!! now is the time to KNOW.

then again. there is never a right person. just the person who happens to be at the right place and right time. yup. i agree. lets be pragmatic & admit that there will probably never be another guy who is 2x as nice and interested in me. & probably it is the same way for him.

i just wanna roll my eyes majorly at him now.-.-

rants.

Often, I make myself feel bad or veeeerrrrry bad over any screwups which I committed.So to counter the bad vibes, I will make it a point to remember the times when i didnt screwup. So I just have to remember the moments whereby things r done right & keep up the momentum.

& seriouslyyyyy... i dont know why i have such a difficult time trying to find mustard stuff ! is it because really they are out of season? But I truly llike the color now, (maybe after months & weeks of seeing the color everywhere...) but by now, mustard stuff r so hard to find & even if I spot them, they are way of out of budget. BLEAH.

So what is the point here? I should find ways to earn more $ or born rich.

love what u work

I admit I don't really work THAT hard, but why do I still feel fatigue by six pm?

I realize Steve Jobs' words about working for what you love has a resonating effect within me. So, Am I working for what I love or not? Either I find something that I love to work for or I grow to love the something that I am already working for.

I suspect it will be the later.

I've been at cow for 2 months and truly, i am learning something everyday... I feel like I am acting geener & more inexperienced than I should be behaving. i feel its an ardous teething process. and i just want to rant abt this ardous horrifying learnning process again. AND AGAIN. and maybe on a daily basis just to get it outta the system.

What is the Use of Hindsight?

On hindsight, I would have ...
1) take up the offer of my ex-GM who said she could help me write a testimmonial if I want. But I didn't ask for it, in the end. And now, I am wondering why did I not? Jeezzz. Even if it is not career boosting, at least it would have been fun to know what is her perspective of me.

I have a suspection that I have a warped sense of certain aspects of myself. Hmmmmm. Too little too late. So what is the use of hindsight now? I would have just say YES, THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR YOUR TIME AND WRITING SKILLS.

At least I have from ex-ex marketing manager.

So what is happening to me at KAO Singapore?

Hm . nothing much. except that we shop at bugis village during lunch time recently and then i discovered that it has changed quite a lot... again. GOSH. I almost feel I am too old to keep up with changes and to a certain extent, I want things to Stay The Same.

Playing the game of tug&war with Time and of course, Time wins single-handedly.

Phuket & then... First week at Cow.

Phuket is gorgeous because this is what you see on a daily basis... The massages were what I needed following a physcially tiring trip at HongKong. Even though the one at Lets Relax cost a bomb (most expensive spa/massage package I ever paid), even though the herbal suana experience at Lets Relax made me feel like I would die of suffocation. Even though, there was mosquito at a random cheap massage parlour we went.

The only one which I was complaint-free about, was the one at Savanah Spa. Cheap, effective and good pure massage.

Personally, i thought my skin looked happy and better when I was there... . So I must learn to relax and be happy everyday like I was , while at Phuket!
My first week at Cow was spent doing nothing; pretending that I have something to do. I was absolutely bored out of my mind and bored of staring at the Fujitsu laptop.

But I was happy that I could leave at 5.45pm. Cause once things are truly on my plate... gawd knows what time I will be leaving, huh? I am still trying to fit in... and sigh... i wish I can fast forward this awkward/painful teething process.

Seaside Escapade coming up...

You could see the beautiful sea from Stanley market. I wonder the price of property there.
Been a long time since I had been near the sea or to the beach for sun, sand and just fun. Or just plain lazing around. I envision myself to hide under the beach brolly and read a good chick lit ( which I had already gotten a copy waiting for me to race through the pages).

I envision myself to have eye candy in the form of hot beach hunks with 6 pecs. Tall, dark and handsome, please, thanks.

I envision myself to have a healthy tan. Just a little. I prefer to be fair after all.

I envision myself to have fun with my ex-colleague. Who knew we would be going a 3d2n escapade together, cause I barely knew her 3 months ago?

Life is just plain amazing as I grow older. There are so many things to look forward to!

gratitude and gratefulness

i had yet another farewell dinner with my close supplier-friend yesterday at saboten.

he was feeling sick but i still walk into a tonkatsu shop without flipping the menu only to discover they sell nothing but tonkatsu. not too suitable for a sick fella, but he was game to try. Heng the food was not bad, quite good.

The only flaw was that out of 3 managers who was supposed to attend, only 1 made it. One was too bogged down with work and one was sick. AWWWWWW. Too bad.

As a reflection of my journey with CV-Sg, I felt that I had been given more than I had given. I got to know some dependable reliable suppliers who will sacrefice sleep to see things thru (while i am alseep...haha) and help me meet a deadline with a sense of urgency deeper than mine.

And even if one year and three months is a short period of time, i just feel more experienced than ever. More experienced than the 2 years at SLS. There is just so much shitty things that I dont like doing that I am doing that make me feel i can overcome any thing any where since i already overcame them at CV-Sg. I appreciate people who spotted my mistakes and help me correct them. Learning through mistakes is a painful way but I survived!

Hence, through out my farewell speech, gratitude and gratefulness to my bosses and colleagues was the only main theme that i had wanted to bring across.

I had senoirs who recognised my potential and ability. who enjoyed working with me and I am very proud of that. It is a major feel good better and a sign to me that I ought to stay the way I am. Dont fix what is not broken. Even if I met vengeful, scheming individuals, it is best to leave them alone and just do my own stuff wholeheartedly.

Smart , knowing people can see and that is enough.

I can wait to start my new job on a higher level than I previously was. And importantly , credit goes to CV-sG for making me a better worker/person in an organisation. I feel like I can contribute and really value-add more in my next organisation.

I can sense the road in front of me is so long and meandering. I can't wait to see if I can climb and prove my way up to the corporate ladder or if I am only good at some mid-rung level.

Well. I don't care where I end up as long as I am happy doing what I am and will be doing.


Off to Hkg in the next 24 hours. I really love life as it is now. Who knew, really?

3 weeks of nothing-ness

i speed through my handover, no one time has much time. after handover, discover there is still some loose ends, but it's too late, we have to go to the farewell dinner. no time no time!!

so, i am here wondering what loose ends have i left behind & having the phobia that someone will have to clean up my mess or discover what mess i was in the midst in. the personal stuff like music files. email thread that i didnt delete... argh. how embarrassing.

SIGH.

anyway, i am kicked out already & it is for a good reason, huh.

i simply lucked out that Ms Lam is such a nice ladyyyyyyyy. If not, I duno how I would made it to work.

emotional ride.

to chart my emotions from the moment i receive THE LETTER

first week:
1- disbelief - disbelief that i am having a job offer the same day i receive THE LETTER. i was laughing instead of crying. but i did cry. cause of my bosses per last entry.

2- numbness - things were as per normal to me. still must do work. still sacrefice my saturday for them in return for off in lieu.

2nd week:
3- discomfort- want to tell my colleagues i have THE LETTER yet have to keep to myself cause my boss so. esp so when they tellin me about forward plans which no longer concern me one bit.

4- bochap- super bochap about current job esp since i signed the new offer. just do for the sake of doing but its killing me inside cause i really see no point in doing it. too bad i've got obligations. too bad.

5- happy- country manager thinks i am ready to be assistant manger in the next role. i just have to prove her right. even tho i am only a exec in the new place. because " i am a rare breed & i stand out because of USP"". oh my, the confidence she instill me. i am happy we had the little chit chat. so... i just have to pay my dues, do my freaking best, be a achiever and the $$$ will come later. keeping fingers crossed on that one.

cant believe that me n another LETTER receiver was congratulating ourselves for leaving. How positive/mad happy can we get?

6- pity- pity the rest of the ppl still there. have to take up portions of my workload. additional work but no additional income. pity them cause the potential new leadership has the potential to suck big time. i hear the groans coming from some people............. but maybe the new leadership can deliver drop dead heavyweight succes. hopefully the people will be happy during the process.

7- surprise- colleague from msia, actually whatsapp me even tho he know me fairly superficially, to show concern for me. god bless him. he think i am a good employee so i guess his judgement call is damm good. WHAHAHAH. hope to see him when i go kl in aug.

the last 2 weeks.. ahead:

3rd week:
8- impatience- wanna get out of there. esp true if the bintan escapade can be confirmed.

4th weeK:
9- stoning/ excited/ countdown/holiday mode!!?/ WOO HOOOO. SAYONARA.

i cant wait to carve out my career. i duno what the future brings but i am damm excited about it.

lost & found ( a job)

about 11 days ago, i lost my job in the name of merger. about 10 days ago, i received a job offer. omg. what good timing is it? to think it took me 2 trips before i finally signed the contract. the feeling of being wanted. right after the feeling of being discarded is extremely rewarding.

i had colleagues who specially sms me just to wish me well. yes, i will be well. please dont be worried for me. i had wanted this day to come... tho i wasnt planning on receiving the serverance package.


to think i was thinking about tendering since 4 months ago & they discarded me faster than i could give them a resignation letter. which is just as well. better even. if not i would have lost out of the severance package. one thing i dont understand, why cant they be open about who is being dismissed or not. is it because it will hurt the staff morale? wont staff morale be affected as long as they know people are leaving? not matter at which juncture of time?

i am glad that i am not wallowing in misery. i went though shock, sadness , acceptance and finally relief. and now... happiness!

i am glad & just plain happy that i have a new place to go. not to mention that i have 2 budget holidays to go to. life is good and will be better because it is all about choosing to be positive. i duno what i done to deserve this, but i just want to express gratitude to the somone that made this possible.

about 10 days ago, my hated sales manager was just a sales manager. about 9 days ago, he was promoted to business unit manager, simply because my previous country manager didnt took up this role which seemingly is almost like a demotion.

well, well, one person 's lost is another person's gain, huh?

so, does this mean that this sales manager is the best, second best, most suitable or most readily available?

fate just had to intervene such that i wont be in his team. WOOHOOO. i dont wanna be and i wont get to be. good luck to the others!

there is about another 13 days to go before my last day. seems like a short time but a lot had changed, I have changed. i learnt to work late. i learnt to shoot emails and be assertive. voice out my opinion when i disagree with something and i want to be heard & right the wrong impression even if the wrong impression came from someone more senior. & who cares about rubbing senior people the wrong way?

i just know that i am stronger because my env was so much tougher than SLS!

who would have a scold a supplier for giving me advise, without a permission that was not even needed? not from SLS. but yes, this sort of person exisit at CV-SG.

I have absolute disguest & comtempt for such a small-hearted person. was this person planning to see me fall flat when she is not around to provide "kind assistance"? was she intending to show off to people that her superiority , when she was counting on the chance that i will fall flat?

seriously... is she having mental issues?i would like to know her point of view though. that happened 15 months ago. does she still wish to see me fall flat now? or does she have real concern for me now as a colleague? or is she just plain 2 faced & scheming?


I still have things which I haven done simply because i dont like doing it & have been procastinating them for the LONGEST time. so what so what?

I wish they will stop asking me to do things with a completion date beyong 31 July.

hi&bye

sad to say, i feel like i have only colleagues made at cv and none of any friends.

unlike sls. but that is just pure luck. cv is reality- that is the way it is. if I don't stand up for myself, no one else will. that's why i will always reply an email that marks me down unreasonably. even if it comes from a manager. if it comes from a manager, all the more i need to i need to correct their fallacies.

it is an eye opener to hear the finance mgr scream n scold like a old female chinese teacher. tragic.

anyway... my luck or fate or life, is not bad. been sent to bkk for 9 days of training due to the merger. the integration period is an eye opening experience. using 2 laptops. learning new processess. and speaking a different lingo. the new ppl i met and remembered are quite cool. they are the big shots like GMs and managers of other countries... maybe i will leave good impression such that they will ask for me to do an internal transfer. WOO HOOOO.

but still, no one's job is secured untill you get a letter of appointment. I THINK. i might not need to tender. i may be retrenched.

may be up . may be down. but it is how you make the best out of it that matters.

excited/enchanted

my fave new song from taylor swift: enchanted. a sweet simple song that probably can never never never go out of style unless BGR goes out of syle.

i am excited. i am off to bkk for company's training for next 9 days! off to meet folks from other countries that i also seen in email & nvr gave a second thought abt their real persons. off to trian and i hope nobody ask me qtns so that i can keep my mouth shut & avoid career sucidal moves.

don't ask me why it's bkk AGAIN- i just have this lovely enchanted fate with bkk, i guess. I had stop wondering why do i get so many signs of bkk in year 2011. (even the nearest meeting room to me, literately behind me, is named BKK). But if this should be the last time! hurhurhur.

my priority is to enjoy every minute of it (what training??!! I will most prob be people watching and daydreaming if I can get away from it). super warped, huh. but guess what I DONT CARE. woo hoooooooo. (unless i am threatened with immediate resignation. ok, then i care.)

The sq flight is at 4pm ; we will have a hotel room to each of us. Sounds like with the merger, the budget for such training is pretty big.

nonetheless, i am still sending out resumes at this time. how long has it been since i declared i wanna quit? since last nov? lol. its been abt 6 months then & i get nought reactions from the resumes that i sent (maybe 10 of them).

i believe in my instincts & i dont have a strong instinct that asking me to stay. BUT just one that is asking me stay , wait and see. & that's what i am going to do. wait&see. & clinging to strands of hope.

what next?

i am glad i went to korea... i came back mesmerized with its pop culture. & now, i am like some teenager nursing a teenage crush on 東方神起. "Keep Your Head Down" totally converted me into a fan. i am looping Keep Your Head Down since ... many hours ago. this 2 menber version of the group aint too bad!

& What happens when we lost GY as a minister? Who will replace him...?

First day going to work at MBC tomorrow! The mechanical action of going to
work , definitely qualifies as going to work for the first time. from my seat i have an unblocked view of the roads, building and sea view. That's a perk! But... i have a pay a price for it, cause my country head sits behind me!

things to remind myself

#1- bosses are humans only. & they suck as much as I do. specifically- their time mgt. #2- smile and act friendly at those above mentioned human beings even those i despise them as bosses. They are great human beings! But I think they can be much better bosses. #3- bosses are humans only. & they practise favouritism. I pity the one whom she did not favour. She told me what a bad grade she got... i REALLY feel for her. I hope she will bounce back and be a better person. OK i am done dissing them! Do i have any happy news? BF agreed to go for a R&R holiday with me! HAHA! any holiday is always good news (maybe except the one with bosses). No more shopping but wanna do massage and staring at the calm seas (no tsunamis, please). Sometime in MAY. maybe a resort in Cambodia. My portfolio expanded and I am gonna treat this as good news, cause it helps when i am updating my resume. :DDDDDD

mid-twenties crisis

i used to think i handle stress quite well- i simply blocked them out and refuse to admit that they exist. what stress??? I dont feel stressed even tho my face is having breakouts! I do it so well, that people think i am always happy. and ask me why am i always happy. cause i think happiness is a choice. one simply choose to be happy. there is no reason not to make this choice! now i am stressed with my work, cause i always feel i cant finish things on time. i have to deal with a egotistical sales manager who i dont respect. i am working 12 hrs a day and i dont like it and resent it to the max. i certainly dont feel happy n i try not to let it show excessively. then, what next? I have a boyfriend who always suggest breaking up when we run into unhappy situations. its already the ... 3rd or 4th time. I am so tempted to say YES LETS BREAK UP. FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE!! Thanks for suggesting this, at a time when I am already so super vexed with things in life. Thanks for making it worse! I AM SO SUPER FED UP as it is and i still have to work , look for a new jobs and deal with a 31 year old's childish tantrums? And what is the root of all this evil?? Seriously, why do i still want to work? What do I work for? i am having a mid-twenties crisis. Why am i at the prime of my life & yet I have so much resentment & unhappiness deep inside me? One thing has to go & i already know what is that; i just duno when will it happen!!!!!!

thoughts...

I will miss bangkok even before i reach and leave there cause i am nvr paying for my way there within the next 2 years. So... I will miss BKK.

I am surprised that my vendors has become such good friends with me that they get me (and only me) souveniers from their overseas trip. I do think its cause I treat them with sincerity and respect.

My colleagues says my pattern is so easy to guess.... not a compliment but that is just me. someone who duno how to pretend; who is simple minded and duno how to scheme to save her skin.

Today, we were having a group discussion near my table... and when i thought the focus isnt on me, that i can just apply some lip balm without any noticing & I was promptly proven wrong. My mgr just have to asked A : "What are you looking at?"

"he is looking at Eve applying her lipstick"replied the sales manager. And I spurned around from the tiny mirror on my desk and caught his eye & just felt like this has got to be the most ridiculous conversation abt me! & we broke into laughter because underneath it all, we must pitying A for being single for so long with out a girlfriend that he can get distracted with someone who is applying lipstick with her back facing him. & I felt embarrassed that someone was staring at me!

I wish A luck in finding his True Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& lastly, maybe i will dream of U 2.

phd colleague

it is really a honour with to be colleagues with such brainy people, i feel in awe & have quite a lot of repect for him. I was just musing to him, will China one day take over the world, the way US is... will China be THE superpower & even replace US as THE superpower?

No. China will nvr take over the world, the way US does, he said. So why why? He gave such a good example. China will nvr take over the world cause it simply isnt in the genes! They are possibly the smartest people who invented the wheel, created chinese langauge, produced gun powder, which was only ultilized as fireworks, untill the ang moh transformed it into proper gun powder. Chinese has travelled to the different continents, but they live there as immigrants n hardly as coloniel masters of the land!!!

Such is the teaching of Confucious and other great philosophers who believe in benevolence & buddhism, taosim. Not that I have the true meaning of buddishm n taoism, not that I ever studied that but i duno... thats how i make sense of it. ChineSe people are just born to benevolent and peace loving! I mean, not like Chinese people created gas chambers or genocides????

it was fun talking to him.

& I finally had my long awaited appraisal. I had honestly told my boss that i have intention to leave simply because i do not want work in maple city. I superduper hope with all my heart that i will receive a call next week. But anyway... with or without good news, the manager will still email n update me. That's a sensible gesture which unfortunately isnt done by most hr personnel. heh.

i have to say i am very impressed by CV's regular printer. The amt of commitment n service level really earns him a thumb up. So that how u can afford to charge a premium for a mass , non differenciate product. SERVICE! Deliverying color proof at 10pm to clients' place is a regular trip that he makes. Helping clients complete super short timeline is a help he will offer. I'd like to think of him as a friend, cause he gives me good advice. Sometimes, i think our conversations are funny because we always want to clarify what capacity are we speaking in? Is it the professional business-client relationship or just plain friendship?

Anyway i am not sure if i wanna be so committed to work as he is. Till now, I still think work isnt life. life is more than work... n i dont wanna work so hard.

So i have to find a job whereby it isnt work to me. It is just part of my life. A necessary part which I will look forward n cant live without.

Maybe my supplier found it.

And if there is good supplier, there is bound to be bad supplier. Or maybe suppliers which i just cant clique. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. it took me 5 sms, asking for the same thing & yet I still couldnt have my answer! So whats wrong with me OR her????

Finally went thru my appraisal & i've got a 10 percent increment, due to the expanded job scope! whoo-hooooo!! Its the second time that I've got a 10 percent increment. i am lucky cause i am always landed in company who believes in the potential that i have and wants to nurture. Thank you.

Love my self & Like others

i love myself enough not to force myself to do things that bring me no joy! I guess this is very typical of gen Y... n guess what I AM A GEN Y.

Went to jovis's one year old birthday bash!!

Here are the 3 friends from sec sch whom i know whom turned up.... ooops, one of which is moi. Nothing changed, except we dont wear spectacles where possible & i put makeup where possible.

Alysa says she is going to europe at the end of the year! I am definitely jealous and envious and will be planning a shopping list for her to see if she can help buy some lust items. HAH.

Best friends forever! & no... none of us wanna count the years we had been friends.

I like 黄丽玲's songs (some anyway). Powerful, emotive & catchy- I am humming it always non-stop & look forward to K-ing her songs!

I like the k-drama Prosecutor Princess. I only watch 4 episodes but typically i bet, in essence, it will be how the rich, spoilt female leads who always screws up as a prosecutor rise from the ashes and become a good Prosecutor in the end. (not that I read the show's synopsis).Throw in 2 dashing male leads & you have a addictive love triangle to speculate. So i end up wondering, why do 2 such perfect guys end up fighting over 1 not-so-perfect spoilt rich lady whose biggest fear in life is that her daddy will burn away her entire walk-in closet.

Sigh. You can blame the rest of the mere female mortals for dreaminsg abt perfect prince charming.

Not that prince charming exists.

I admire my another colleague who is single and self-declared looking out and putting her words into action. i think its takes so much guts and bravery just to voice out the fact that, yes, I NEED A MAN IN MY LIFE! She deserves to be rewarded just for the fact that she is brave enought to say that out loud in a non whining manner!

i know what i want

i know what i want...

hence i am not satisfied , contented nor happy.

i wonder what will happen within the next 4 weeks. i wonder if i will suffer instantanous combustion or explosion. cause i have to say, it get just a tiny bit unbearable with each passing day. i am nearing my limit. i cant wait for the day when i can just throw the letter officially wash my hands outta this.

today they were talking abt gen y people n their tendecies to job hop after a year or two. eyes turned to stare at me & it gets a bit awkard. hurhur.

i envy my ex-colleague who made yet another company switch, earning much much more, in his words.

nightmare

dont have much positive feeling abt february. cause all the positive/happy things are already completed & what do I have to look forward in feb? pretty much nada.

but march is gonna be great. there is bonus , trips and my long awaited letter.

with or without a job.


actually, its not like i nvr done such things before. So... i will make it through. & prepare myself for better things to come. like driving license.

korea's winter

winter in 2011 was especially freezzzing... it was minus ten. The tour guide told us that its the first time that the HAN JIANG had frozen so badly.

my favourite pic was this candid photo which costs us five USD. FIVE USD. very overpriced. but we bought it still to support the kid who took the photo.

so yup. we managed to see snow, have snow fight and made snow man. & be supremely cold during the 7 days there.

but it is just fun. I nvr had a holiday which wasnt fun. hurhurhurhurhuhruhrhurrr.

alex got us presents from the states and i am so jealous and envious that he managed to spend some time the states being a student and a holiday maker. I wanna go toooooooooo.

i need a pay raise. i need a new job more.

anyway, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

life is good. even tho i look tired, suffers from stress induced acne and headache and shop too much bacause i subconsciously undergo retail therapy.

anyway i think i know what the cause of the above; so i have a direction. I just hope I have the time and opportunity.

impatience

I am tired of coordinating work. Tired of being just a coordinator when I used to be in a brand exec position. When can I move up again?

They asked me how do I see myself in the next 12 months. Gawd, I think I am gonna tell them that I cant see myself there beyond the next 3 months.

I am impatient. I wanna go back to FMCG.


My colleagues bought balloons for me as birthday presents. Truly a surprise. My first thought was that they had attached the balloons at the wrong person's desk. How cyncial. I ought to be nicer to one of colleagues who bought the balloon for me. hahahahah. I am super cynical of him & he deserves more credit & brownie points after this kind gesture.

Oh well... overall, my colleagues are really nice cool ppl.

The mktg dpt is planning a 3d2n escapade. I hope we'll be able to pull it off (while i am still officially with them).

we r all lucky

come think of it... we are all lucky if

- if we have a job (regardless if you like it or not)
- if we have a healthy, complete normal family & friends(like me.)
- if you are healthy in every sense of the word (like me.)

Have I been complaining? Suddenly, I duno what I should complain abt. I could have it so much so much more worse. Am pausing for a while to give thanks for all I have.

OK.

A while has paused.


Guess I will get back to the cycle of ranting & complaining just to vent.

The last few days of 2010

I'd never thought abt how long my blog will last... now I would say, not for long. But I duno when I'll stop. I rather live with one less dateline.



The last few week of Dec 2010, went to Tampines/Century Sq... so I decided to try to Freshness Burger, franchised from Japan. Not that I notice Freshness Burger during my few days in Japan... I remember seeing MOS but not Freshness.



It turned out to be MOS BURGER at premium price. Probably they will justify it by serving us in a restaurant setting with nice, chillout atmostphere and flowers on the table.

I ordered Teriyaki Chicken burger. Which doesnt taste that different from MOS!

This is BACON & EGG Hamburger... which my BF said was delish.

I love onions! So we ordered onion rings (from HOKKAIDO) as stated on the menu. Is onions from HOKKAIDO different? Yes, I guess. It taste different from those speed-fry onions rings in BK. I can taste freshness in this :D

Overall, worth a try!

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I took this unglam pic cause I just wanna caption this photo as....

"SMOKE COMING OUT OF MY HEAD."

New hairsyle after sitting in the JB hair salon for 3hs
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We went to SPIZZA! It's been a long time since I had spizza... & it was great! So great that we overeat. Nuff said.

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On New Year's Eve... bolted out from office the moment I can... to catch up with the firewire pals (who didnt have prior engagement) hurhr.

We had Indian Food! Muthu's Curry refused to top up our bowl of PAPADAM despite us asking & them agreeing TWICE. How's that for unfulfillment?

I know my face is rounder significantly! Thanks to the five kg I gain at CV. I attribute to the more sedentry lifestyle I have now. Sigh. My goal is to exercise more from now; losing weight is a mere by-product which I need.We , kelly & me; especially me, ranted and poured out of resentment towards our work to our 2 listeners. I mean... it is not that I dun recognise that I am a great place whereby I have loads to learn. Maybe cause I feel I dont really belong; not like the way I did at SLS.

Yayaya... its been a year & yet I have issues moving on. Fantastic.

Hope I can overcome my issues in the new year! Let the bygones be bygones & work harder;play harder for a better year!