Songs

lyrics matter more and more to me. love songs are starting to touch me and i appreciate lyricists more and more. a good song needs a good melody more. seems like there is a lot of gd music that is exposed to me.

had a really fun trip to sec sch friend's house and our form teacher's house too. form teacher had a baby boy, very cherubic unfortunately, he got a bit too much of his father's genes. hahah. kiddding. might be a very handsome boy when he grews up. and we had to queue for toilets coz he invited like 4 batchs of 4E1s.

friend's house is like a testimonial on why we should all strive to make big bucks. then u can have a library, a mounting billboard of the Beijing Olypics 2008 poster, gym, tea house. table tennis, karoake system, plasma tvs in 2 wings of ur house. AND u NEVER need to queue for toilets coz there is too many to go around.

his mother is reallllllllly into decorations. even his toilet has a spiderman hanging on the window pane. very cool lor. and his house is very nicely decorated. we were cam whoring in his house. hahah.


i dont like ppl askin me can we be friends? it is so... unneeded. unneccesary. i just find it irritating.

my only toy.

say HI to ...my favourite toy at work. its a premium that we kopped from the supplier. kekekekek. cute right, i added the eyelashes. then my supervisor drew clothes onto her 1. then AM more subtle. drew specs or something. forgot le. p.s she is a radio, in case u r wondering.

working is so tiring. made a mistake so i am clearing up my stupid mistake, which makes things more tiring. wish i am a energizer bunnny. then i wont be so tired. wish i feed on battery. heck, isnt better if i am just a robot??????????

pig's yr

we all need encouragement constantly. i need motivation more than encouragement for me to make it through IPP. my current task is to stick about 2000 activation codes onto CD-roms. something that need to be done but no1 wants to do if possible.

whats the motivation for me in this task? to be as fast as i can? to see how robotic can i will my fingers to be? to see how it feels to pretend to be a machine? as i sat there, trying to paste those stickers as fast as i can, my features settled into something expressionless N black, in this case. so black that even my supervisor noticed.

in the end, i lucked out since she and a couple of temps helped me finish about 500 pcs tho they had no obligation to help me.

i remenber some1 sayin job satisfaction is secondary coz she just wan to earn money. i cant live life this way. i want job satisfaction as much as i need the salary. otherwise i know i will flood the office with my misery...

i was annoyed

hi all, every1 knows i have weight issue even tho i try not to bother myself about it unless some1 bother me abt it. so u can say some1 just stomped on my fragile self -esteem and self image.

first the new sales colleague said i look rounder. then she said if any1 cant finish anything u can just pass it to eve. then she asked if i got a bf. i said no, coz i am too fat to have 1. a blatant dig at her previous comments. but my sarca was lost on her. SO LOST on her skinny brain inside her skinny skull.

but NVM, thats beside the point. she hurriedly proceeded to do a self perceived good deed. she went on to advise me not to tell my AM that she doesnt have a bf coz she is 2 overweight to have 1. she though she had prevented a great disaster from happening.

EXCUSE ME!!! do u sincerely believe that i think i am single coz i am too fat to have a BF?! that i would be so DUMB to just go up to my AM and say " hey u know what ? SKINNY_thou made me realize something. we r single coz we r too fat to have bf!"

OMG, u totally underestimate eveything abt me. besides, my AM is prettier than skinny-thou by virtue she got curves and carry herself well. N she got more intelligence in her one quater of her pinkie than ur entire brain.

how clueless can some1 get? she totally rubbed me the wrong way. she insulted me. insulted my intelligence. insulted my EQ. insulted my relationship with my AM. OMG. i really had to control to stop myself from asking

ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT ???
ARE YOU STUPID OR WHAT ???

but anyway, kept my cool despite i was so annoyed! i really felt incredulous at her response. my eyes actually widened, my jaw slacked and i was momentarily stunned by the knowledge that she THINK she is doing me a HUGE favour on how to behave myself. BUT i proceeded to laugh it off... and just carry on eating what i want. =) office life made me fatter. but i got no mood to exercise since i dun even have enough sleep. life is too short to deny myself from what i want and like. especially ppl ard me has been going to hospital in sudden notice.


tagged along with supervisor to accounts department. to see Jenny, a mature lady, for her claims. she looked at me and just said, I would marry a rich man! Of course i asked why. and the ans is, coz i am pretty enough to marry 1. HILARIOUS LOR. me in my specs and nude makeup face . kekeke. but it was music to my ears. i cant believe ppl can take a look at me n be able to guess that i wanna marry a rich man. kekekeke.

nightmares

my last blog post didnt appear!!!!!!!!

WHY?????

heaven is stoppin me from eh... commenting abt MCIS. not as if my comments were big deal or what. other ppl's blog post can appear. so y cant mine?

i am looking forward to the end of IPP. i WANT TO NOT WAKE UP SO DAMM EARLY.but i wonder if i would cry on my last day there or not. it wouldnt be so bad if every1 just carry on as if it is just another ordinary day.

i hardly cried when i was in early teens. i just wasnt a cry baby. pain also wont cry. scared also wont cry. sad also wont cry. disappointed also wont cry.

now ... guess when a girl matures, her emotions becomes more tangible n sensitive. maybe it is just becoz i am startin to think too much due to old age. (I can cry at movies now! ) But tears are good for destressing. hee hee.

some1 from my secondary sch days suddenly shows up again. amazingly, nothing has changed. OMG. i still need to find excuses to keep my distance. -.-!!! i am like, cringing inside and yet have to appear that i am... fine with him and his huh, invitations. realllllllly sian 1/2.

in MC...