i speed through my handover, no one time has much time. after handover, discover there is still some loose ends, but it's too late, we have to go to the farewell dinner. no time no time!!
so, i am here wondering what loose ends have i left behind & having the phobia that someone will have to clean up my mess or discover what mess i was in the midst in. the personal stuff like music files. email thread that i didnt delete... argh. how embarrassing.
SIGH.
anyway, i am kicked out already & it is for a good reason, huh.
i simply lucked out that Ms Lam is such a nice ladyyyyyyyy. If not, I duno how I would made it to work.
Friday, July 29, 2011
Sunday, July 17, 2011
emotional ride.
to chart my emotions from the moment i receive THE LETTER
first week:
1- disbelief - disbelief that i am having a job offer the same day i receive THE LETTER. i was laughing instead of crying. but i did cry. cause of my bosses per last entry.
2- numbness - things were as per normal to me. still must do work. still sacrefice my saturday for them in return for off in lieu.
2nd week:
3- discomfort- want to tell my colleagues i have THE LETTER yet have to keep to myself cause my boss so. esp so when they tellin me about forward plans which no longer concern me one bit.
4- bochap- super bochap about current job esp since i signed the new offer. just do for the sake of doing but its killing me inside cause i really see no point in doing it. too bad i've got obligations. too bad.
5- happy- country manager thinks i am ready to be assistant manger in the next role. i just have to prove her right. even tho i am only a exec in the new place. because " i am a rare breed & i stand out because of USP"". oh my, the confidence she instill me. i am happy we had the little chit chat. so... i just have to pay my dues, do my freaking best, be a achiever and the $$$ will come later. keeping fingers crossed on that one.
cant believe that me n another LETTER receiver was congratulating ourselves for leaving. How positive/mad happy can we get?
6- pity- pity the rest of the ppl still there. have to take up portions of my workload. additional work but no additional income. pity them cause the potential new leadership has the potential to suck big time. i hear the groans coming from some people............. but maybe the new leadership can deliver drop dead heavyweight succes. hopefully the people will be happy during the process.
7- surprise- colleague from msia, actually whatsapp me even tho he know me fairly superficially, to show concern for me. god bless him. he think i am a good employee so i guess his judgement call is damm good. WHAHAHAH. hope to see him when i go kl in aug.
the last 2 weeks.. ahead:
3rd week:
8- impatience- wanna get out of there. esp true if the bintan escapade can be confirmed.
4th weeK:
9- stoning/ excited/ countdown/holiday mode!!?/ WOO HOOOO. SAYONARA.
i cant wait to carve out my career. i duno what the future brings but i am damm excited about it.
first week:
1- disbelief - disbelief that i am having a job offer the same day i receive THE LETTER. i was laughing instead of crying. but i did cry. cause of my bosses per last entry.
2- numbness - things were as per normal to me. still must do work. still sacrefice my saturday for them in return for off in lieu.
2nd week:
3- discomfort- want to tell my colleagues i have THE LETTER yet have to keep to myself cause my boss so. esp so when they tellin me about forward plans which no longer concern me one bit.
4- bochap- super bochap about current job esp since i signed the new offer. just do for the sake of doing but its killing me inside cause i really see no point in doing it. too bad i've got obligations. too bad.
5- happy- country manager thinks i am ready to be assistant manger in the next role. i just have to prove her right. even tho i am only a exec in the new place. because " i am a rare breed & i stand out because of USP"". oh my, the confidence she instill me. i am happy we had the little chit chat. so... i just have to pay my dues, do my freaking best, be a achiever and the $$$ will come later. keeping fingers crossed on that one.
cant believe that me n another LETTER receiver was congratulating ourselves for leaving. How positive/mad happy can we get?
6- pity- pity the rest of the ppl still there. have to take up portions of my workload. additional work but no additional income. pity them cause the potential new leadership has the potential to suck big time. i hear the groans coming from some people............. but maybe the new leadership can deliver drop dead heavyweight succes. hopefully the people will be happy during the process.
7- surprise- colleague from msia, actually whatsapp me even tho he know me fairly superficially, to show concern for me. god bless him. he think i am a good employee so i guess his judgement call is damm good. WHAHAHAH. hope to see him when i go kl in aug.
the last 2 weeks.. ahead:
3rd week:
8- impatience- wanna get out of there. esp true if the bintan escapade can be confirmed.
4th weeK:
9- stoning/ excited/ countdown/holiday mode!!?/ WOO HOOOO. SAYONARA.
i cant wait to carve out my career. i duno what the future brings but i am damm excited about it.
Monday, July 11, 2011
lost & found ( a job)
about 11 days ago, i lost my job in the name of merger. about 10 days ago, i received a job offer. omg. what good timing is it? to think it took me 2 trips before i finally signed the contract. the feeling of being wanted. right after the feeling of being discarded is extremely rewarding.
i had colleagues who specially sms me just to wish me well. yes, i will be well. please dont be worried for me. i had wanted this day to come... tho i wasnt planning on receiving the serverance package.
to think i was thinking about tendering since 4 months ago & they discarded me faster than i could give them a resignation letter. which is just as well. better even. if not i would have lost out of the severance package. one thing i dont understand, why cant they be open about who is being dismissed or not. is it because it will hurt the staff morale? wont staff morale be affected as long as they know people are leaving? not matter at which juncture of time?
i am glad that i am not wallowing in misery. i went though shock, sadness , acceptance and finally relief. and now... happiness!
i am glad & just plain happy that i have a new place to go. not to mention that i have 2 budget holidays to go to. life is good and will be better because it is all about choosing to be positive. i duno what i done to deserve this, but i just want to express gratitude to the somone that made this possible.
about 10 days ago, my hated sales manager was just a sales manager. about 9 days ago, he was promoted to business unit manager, simply because my previous country manager didnt took up this role which seemingly is almost like a demotion.
well, well, one person 's lost is another person's gain, huh?
so, does this mean that this sales manager is the best, second best, most suitable or most readily available?
fate just had to intervene such that i wont be in his team. WOOHOOO. i dont wanna be and i wont get to be. good luck to the others!
there is about another 13 days to go before my last day. seems like a short time but a lot had changed, I have changed. i learnt to work late. i learnt to shoot emails and be assertive. voice out my opinion when i disagree with something and i want to be heard & right the wrong impression even if the wrong impression came from someone more senior. & who cares about rubbing senior people the wrong way?
i just know that i am stronger because my env was so much tougher than SLS!
who would have a scold a supplier for giving me advise, without a permission that was not even needed? not from SLS. but yes, this sort of person exisit at CV-SG.
I have absolute disguest & comtempt for such a small-hearted person. was this person planning to see me fall flat when she is not around to provide "kind assistance"? was she intending to show off to people that her superiority , when she was counting on the chance that i will fall flat?
seriously... is she having mental issues?i would like to know her point of view though. that happened 15 months ago. does she still wish to see me fall flat now? or does she have real concern for me now as a colleague? or is she just plain 2 faced & scheming?
I still have things which I haven done simply because i dont like doing it & have been procastinating them for the LONGEST time. so what so what?
I wish they will stop asking me to do things with a completion date beyong 31 July.
i had colleagues who specially sms me just to wish me well. yes, i will be well. please dont be worried for me. i had wanted this day to come... tho i wasnt planning on receiving the serverance package.
to think i was thinking about tendering since 4 months ago & they discarded me faster than i could give them a resignation letter. which is just as well. better even. if not i would have lost out of the severance package. one thing i dont understand, why cant they be open about who is being dismissed or not. is it because it will hurt the staff morale? wont staff morale be affected as long as they know people are leaving? not matter at which juncture of time?
i am glad that i am not wallowing in misery. i went though shock, sadness , acceptance and finally relief. and now... happiness!
i am glad & just plain happy that i have a new place to go. not to mention that i have 2 budget holidays to go to. life is good and will be better because it is all about choosing to be positive. i duno what i done to deserve this, but i just want to express gratitude to the somone that made this possible.
about 10 days ago, my hated sales manager was just a sales manager. about 9 days ago, he was promoted to business unit manager, simply because my previous country manager didnt took up this role which seemingly is almost like a demotion.
well, well, one person 's lost is another person's gain, huh?
so, does this mean that this sales manager is the best, second best, most suitable or most readily available?
fate just had to intervene such that i wont be in his team. WOOHOOO. i dont wanna be and i wont get to be. good luck to the others!
there is about another 13 days to go before my last day. seems like a short time but a lot had changed, I have changed. i learnt to work late. i learnt to shoot emails and be assertive. voice out my opinion when i disagree with something and i want to be heard & right the wrong impression even if the wrong impression came from someone more senior. & who cares about rubbing senior people the wrong way?
i just know that i am stronger because my env was so much tougher than SLS!
who would have a scold a supplier for giving me advise, without a permission that was not even needed? not from SLS. but yes, this sort of person exisit at CV-SG.
I have absolute disguest & comtempt for such a small-hearted person. was this person planning to see me fall flat when she is not around to provide "kind assistance"? was she intending to show off to people that her superiority , when she was counting on the chance that i will fall flat?
seriously... is she having mental issues?i would like to know her point of view though. that happened 15 months ago. does she still wish to see me fall flat now? or does she have real concern for me now as a colleague? or is she just plain 2 faced & scheming?
I still have things which I haven done simply because i dont like doing it & have been procastinating them for the LONGEST time. so what so what?
I wish they will stop asking me to do things with a completion date beyong 31 July.
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