success

today i could laugh and smile and joke loudly and carefreely.

yesterday i could not.

yesterday, everyone had worries and fears about me not up to the standard as an engaging presenter to 100 store managers. my boss could tell that i was presenting for the sake for presenting. i was finding premiums , half past six premiums, for the sake of finding premiums.

yes , she is right. i had no heart in doing those things and it was unprofessional of me. if i did not have the passion, i am not a true marketer yet, in her opinion.

well, the truth is... i didnt ask for any opinion!!!! haha. just kidding. but anyway. her opinion didnt stung me. in the end, much like my friend, my work is just a financial transaction in return for my work done. yes, to some extent, i have passion for my work. if not i will not stay pass six to finish up things just cause you say so. if not, i would not been stressed abt stupid visuals and stupid strip ads.

but, back to the store managers meeting, which every1 was feeling jittery about. it was like a make-or-break session , coz this is the first contact point the store managers would have with our brand.

i guess, we had a good start. we gave them drinks, large bottles of not-cheap smoothie at that. they must have felt pleasantly surprised. I had every1's full attention and appreciation, i guess. hahahahaha.

to present and to engage, just flows naturally from me. yes, i was being tested on situational improvising becoz the flow of the presentation had to change due to the crowd response. guess i did well enough since no one commented anything negatively. i passed with flyin colors! my GM says next time got any similar shd sent me...eh...?!

what does this proves?

i can do it if i want to. so there! keep being positive!!!!

but i could never did it "well" , if my boss never spend some time, half a day in fact, to train me. i owe her loads!!!!!

i have pictures too!!!! just not here with me right now.;)

no inclination towards housework

i dont have any experience with housework.

my lack of household chores expertise surprises many. they appear incredulous even. i guess what runs through their mind, is something along this line-you coming from a small and not-rich family has no maid wahht. so how come you r so "unskilled"??

geeeee. my mom n dad spoilt us. that is why. even though we r maid-less, my mom treats us like kings n queens and we nvr had to do lift a finger. even though we can. i love my full- time housewife-mama!!!

but. i know i will be doing those household chores sooner or later. yet another skill which i dont have any desire to achieve. the other being... driving.

psychotic week

one of the most pyschotic and laborious week. due to lack of budget but still want quality, you cant believe the level we stooped to. lucky my boss also helped. if not i will just resign n drop dead.

Faced a psuedo democratic boss. not that it's wrong. it's just fake.

Possibly launching another slow moving SKU. why i look down on my brand i also duno. just doesnt make me excited to think this is or this might be launching.

which reminds me. i am such a flat and non-engaging presenter. its just psychotic la. i am NOT excited. i decided that i shall be as fake as i can and see what will be their comments.

loads of things to reflect upon.

at this point of time, i feel unbalanced coz my pay and my commitment shown are inversely propotional.haix.

on the bright side, i am the sole organizer of a media event. AND THE MEDIA ARE RSVP-ing!!!!!!!!!! woohooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!! keeping fingers crossed that they turn up of course.

a burst of goodness

i feel llike work is consumiing me and i just... feel life should be more than that. maybe the path i picked for myself is just forcing to find out whats my limit and i just have to deal with it for 3 more months.

to all workaholic- life is more than work. truly.

anyway, i had a burst of good mood and i turn into a shoppaholic when i have good mood. hahahaha. it just comes... slipping into my emotions though it didnt last very long, coz the next day i have to work anyway.

and when it comes to work, i always have things to worry about. just so pyschotic. haiz. i wish i am adam sandler. i just want to fast forward to which ever period of life, when i finally earned and accumulated enough of good karma and wealth to sit back and enjoy life. or at least fast forward those learning-as-u-fall- incidents... that r painfully embarrassing to my professional image. hahahaahah. as if i am a professional.


what can i do. stay calm. keep cool. at least i have a superb mentor/boss and colleagues to guide me. really, if they just let me do it all by myself, i will say i will be a headless chicken.

pisses everywhere

loads of shity and pissed-off thinggy happened. i shall not bother to recount it except to thank God/mighty powers above, that he/she had to give such heart-aching incidents to experience.

some people are demanding. on the flip side, they r just mad and psychotic.

my supplier tells me that he cant meet my deadline cause msians are on holiday. then what? my fault?! since i am your client, arent u suppose to help me???? pretty please???

feel like murphy's law is on exhibition within my line of sight. i feel so suay. i feel like i need to change job. i dont want to look at the same visual again.

anyway, met up with Evon and had a pleasant shopping trip in bugis. i love bugis village. i hope it stays the same even with inflation and recession. i bought. again. and again.

i am such a shoppaholic even my new class mates can tell. zzzzzzzz. i cant help it.

anyway, she broke up with her eligible bf. she is bouncing back pretty prettily. so things end. things only end so you have a new beginning. what is there to look forward to after an ending?

A new fresh beginning with a potential happy ending:)

i do not fail tho i am i scared i will

i can accept screw ups. but i cant accept failures. i manage screwups i created for myself on a daily basis. haha.

so it comes as a great relief to update my previous post abt failure of one module. i really felt depressed over that.

anyway. i did not fail!

in fact i have a distinction for that political module. i am just happy and relief that this was a mistake that has sorted itself out. hard work pays off, boys and girls. dont give up and keep believing in yourself.

my mantra. my maxim in life.

geraldine's wedding

there was a joyous cocasion recently, a sch mate got hitched! we r not particularly close so was surprise she passed us an invite to her wedding. anyway, its great to attend a happy occasion!:) we - the cam whores in the rest room. reflections are amazing to play with.

there is a lot to be accomplished at work. unfortunately, as i like to tell my friends, i have screwups on a daily basis. bleah.