peace at heart

i've got good news. i made up with that pettychildishcolleague.

haahaa. despite whatever names i have for him, he was a friend in the first place, and i hate to lose a friend i made. i mean, every1 has shortcomings, i am just as lousy as the next person to me but we accept the shortcomings, try to improve on them and work our way around it.

how do i escape the zzz-monster after lunch.... dont eat??!!! IMPOSSIBLE but really, its so ... irritating to feel so sleepy at work lah.


let me have a moment to daydream and create a fantasy...

i daydream about...

being converted to a perm, promoted to a exec... and most esssentially .... a RISE in pay. then an expansion in the jobscope.tobegivenamarkettobeinchargeof.preferablyjapanmarketandthenthey will send me to study jap so that i can be better equipped to handle jap.flytojapandwork on -off.occasionally. not that i want to be based there.

BUT WHATEEVER. in anycase, i know its not coming true. so i am... sharing my wildest fantasy with my pos here. just imagine it makes mi feel on a psuedo high. hahahaha.

but, that is something i can work towards to. =) in the next 2-3 years.

aftermath part 101

u know what, a blog is a place where u r supposed to blog abt what u want... and yet that is the furthest from the truth.

i feel so sad.

i might have control the urge to let loose my sarcastic tongue and shut my trap during the day n yet when i am at the refuge of my home, at my blog, i still have to shut my trap!! what sense is there in this.

yah, i am blogging abt this in relation to that pettychildishcolleague coz i went to read his blog coz i KPO. hahahaha. the current situation is ... we r both over it and we r former friends. yup. he cant be more right than this.

haixx. i think i will try to talk to him and see if there is anything left to salvage. then i can leave the office knowing i had tried.

fantastic food

today, i had too much to eat!!


i have to say... today's lunch was dammm good.

we went to Fish and Co. long time since we went there, guess it is those place where you visit 2x a year is 1 time too many. i cant remember the last time i went there! was it my 19th birthday? or my 20th birthday? hahaha. really seriously cant remember.

it was satisfying, n worth every penny. the seafood clam chowder was fabulous! the main course was... just yummy.

today's dinner is also so oiishi. home made curry. hot n just a little spicy. i just poured the sauce all over the rice and it made the rice 600x more delicious. hahahah.


in conclusion, i overate. BLEAH >,<


at work:
we r supposed to set personnel targets. sounds... tough. and scary. what if u cant deliver? just kick u outta the company!?? scary scary!!

countdown to appraisal, 2 more months. exactly. if they dun extend... its a relief/shame. if they extend... its a joy coz they MUST MUST MUST raise my pay til i think its worth it.

learning.....

rueben brought his baby boy into office for baby shower. the memorable thing is... the catering he ordered was dammmmm GOOD. oiishi desu ne. haha, his baby boy wouldnt wake up and play with us, despite us using loads of eye power and mental power.


announcement
i am giving myself n the other older guy a chance to see if things can work out... exploring the world of relationships.

so far, i think i suck at it. hahahah. with my character, i am the exact opposite of the typical good girlfriend. he once asked, so whats the difference between mi and the rest of ur guy friends?


eh... u pay for my... almost-everything ??



JUST KIDDING. obviously that is NOT true. hahahahahahahaah.


anyway, i have no intention to learn how to bake a cake, how to cook , how to do housework just coz i have some1 whom i supposed to try doing all the above for. eh....... not now anyway. u can nvr know whether i will change my mind in the future or not. kekekekekekekke.

Sunburnt @ Siloso

azhar's son is so cute! azhar's gene is distinct in him. hahahaha, small age, such a joker already. he tried to walk backwards, while waving goodbye at us. by the time he turned his small little head around, he bumped into the pot of plant about the same height as him.

i cant help it. i laughed out loud MAJORLY. evil me? but i laughed at how cherubic he is. its been long time since i could use cherubic to describe any1 i come into contact with. haha.

anyway, my saturday was spent with chinnyteckie n ahmed syazzie. being toasted alive on a superhot saturday afternoon as student helpers ball-runner for the EPL-fans event power98 organised.

i learnt the importance of putting sunblock consistently during a hot afternoon.

despite everything, i dun mind spending the time there to chase after the soccer balls. just for experience's and goodie bag's and friends' company sake.

then went to vivo to get baby wipes to clean ourselves up. heehee. we waddled past the shallow water, akin to crossing river, to get to Daiso. hilarious experience. hahahahahahah.

think vivo is designed to be one of those dating spots, with views facing the sea, loads of corners/holes for couple to nest themselves somewhere. saw couples dippin their feet inside the shallow waters, n i really wanna know what would it be like to accidentaalllly push them inside. hahahahaha. evil.


trying quite hard to find a jacket which is calling my name, but turned out to be quite hard, as per normal. the harder you try, the worse things seem to get... sometimes. people like to say you wont know until you try. or, you should keep trying until you succeed. but to try n try again, is so exhausting and fustrating when you couldnt even get a satisfactory response. things seem to go round n round in a non-conclusive manner. it gives me a headache.

breeze

i like night breeze. dippin ur feet in the cold water. it all feels great.

i made my mama angry coz my phone bill overshot.

i should learn japanese, thoroughly, so that i can work in the japanese market, but how? i dun think i can handle that now, esp with part time uni coming up and also full time work. but if i dun work, maybe can learn, but where i do get the sch fees all saved up??? want to cry.


the oldest trade in mankind, is the saddest trade too. nowadays, would any1 want to do that as an ambition? waiting on the sidewalks ,waiting to be picked up, hoping to brought back to a room. bleah. n the papers said that a prostitute was kana robbed of her handbag n not paid for her service. guys can be such bastards!!

how do u trust guys when they r capable of such despicable actions? so... the tactic would be Not To Trust. can trust... only as far as u can throw them and that's not a lot. for me, the sole tactic i live by to deal with men, is not to give them what they want. not until they given u what u want, whatever it is, that u want. hahahahaha. is it confusing?

but anyway. i dun trust. not becoz i had been hurt b4 terribly but coz i witness ppl kana hurt so terribly especially when they had given literately whatever they can give to a man they supposedly love n love back them.


bleah.

pirorities

just reread my previous entry n now, mere few days later, my feelings towards work has changed again. how capricious of me?

anyway. i dont want to sound
like a workholic. feel ... so fake ah. esp with regards to my current job. hahaha. none of us r workholic n thank god for that.

my colleague from other dpt actually ask mi to put up a good performance so that they have no reason not to extend me. i am trying. and if i am not good enough, i also got no problems with that... haha.

have i really found a shoulder i could lean on for always???

happily busy

=)

i feel happy. i am happy. i am delirious with my happiness n excitement. whhahahahaahahah.


this is because... i am finally doing Work. Work which makes mi feel alive and makes my life more enriched. wHoo-HOOOOO.

i feel so excited knowing that i can learn so much with what i am gonna do. michelle might be jaded by this time, but i am the fresh greenhorn, eager to learn!! SOOO exciting!!!!! do presentations for marketing plans, dig out facts n figures abt the industry... come up with promo mechanics.... etc etc.

today is the first time my hands r tired from all the typing for work related stuff. haha.

mi n michelle even said the same thing at the same time. hee. means mi n boss can be on the same wavelength. kinda comforted by this ...


but whatever it is, i hope i dun fall flat on my face by not being able to deliver.

pms mood swing

had an semi impromptu primary school gathering. less than 10 but i would consider it a success cause none of us met up in a group, more than 5, for about 8 years. effectively speaking, since we graduated. hahahahaha. thanks to YK who was super high n kept calling p-sch mates up, out of the blue. hahhaahha.

imagine callin some1 up and telin that person : "Hey there is a p-sch gathering, n its NOW! wan come or not? "

surely, withou a doubt most of them thought "crazy" without skippin a beat. but there is some ,who did come down even tho it is literately last minute. since we met in Bukit Panjang and most of them live near here.=)

the sch flower n grass are in the pics!!! (u can play GUESS WHO n leave a tag to tell mi ur guess but no prizes though) they were nicknamed the legendary Xiao Long Nu n Yang Guo. hhahahahaahha. the guy is totally sick of this joke, but we had a lot of fun laughing over this.

most of them are in the NUS. some doctors, some chem enginners. we even got a friend, not in uni, but trainin to be accountant. n he has finished writing a script which he hopes to sell. but none of them are snobbish. the favourite word of some of them appears to be 'chui'. hahahahah. i tried to follow their uni topics, n it seems to me, that their world is so small.

surely they know ur friends if ur freinds went to the same uni as them. coz they would have some connections via JC or Sec Sch. lol.

most of them come from the Top 3 JC. i am jealous of their brain. bleah. how come they can achieve such good results? how hard did they study for it? how many more times effect did they put in compared to me? haix. i will never know.

but at least, they r all cool to talk with. i think ZY is the easiest to talk to, for me. hahahaah. he catches onto my hidden meaning damm fast.

okay.POS. its that time of the month. Mood swings. hahahah. this is the not-funnyjoke-story of the month.

all righty.

humans have flaws. all of us. this time, the character flow i wanna bitch abt is... SNOBBISHNESS.

snobbishness is inconsiderate. what gives u the right to belittle and make them feel less important than U? esp when they r in the same level?

okay, i dun want to continue le.

anti climax ah. but some1 made snobbish joke-comments to me n ... due to my oversensitivity, i felt hurt.

another not-funny-joke. haix. the problem with them is, they dun laugh at their own joke. therefore to me it appears that, they take their comments not as a joke but as their observations.

i dun like being belittled, who likes? do onto others what you want others to do onto you. i am just as important as the next person. bleah.