Wednesday, March 23, 2011

thoughts...

I will miss bangkok even before i reach and leave there cause i am nvr paying for my way there within the next 2 years. So... I will miss BKK.

I am surprised that my vendors has become such good friends with me that they get me (and only me) souveniers from their overseas trip. I do think its cause I treat them with sincerity and respect.

My colleagues says my pattern is so easy to guess.... not a compliment but that is just me. someone who duno how to pretend; who is simple minded and duno how to scheme to save her skin.

Today, we were having a group discussion near my table... and when i thought the focus isnt on me, that i can just apply some lip balm without any noticing & I was promptly proven wrong. My mgr just have to asked A : "What are you looking at?"

"he is looking at Eve applying her lipstick"replied the sales manager. And I spurned around from the tiny mirror on my desk and caught his eye & just felt like this has got to be the most ridiculous conversation abt me! & we broke into laughter because underneath it all, we must pitying A for being single for so long with out a girlfriend that he can get distracted with someone who is applying lipstick with her back facing him. & I felt embarrassed that someone was staring at me!

I wish A luck in finding his True Love!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

& lastly, maybe i will dream of U 2.

Friday, March 04, 2011

phd colleague

it is really a honour with to be colleagues with such brainy people, i feel in awe & have quite a lot of repect for him. I was just musing to him, will China one day take over the world, the way US is... will China be THE superpower & even replace US as THE superpower?

No. China will nvr take over the world, the way US does, he said. So why why? He gave such a good example. China will nvr take over the world cause it simply isnt in the genes! They are possibly the smartest people who invented the wheel, created chinese langauge, produced gun powder, which was only ultilized as fireworks, untill the ang moh transformed it into proper gun powder. Chinese has travelled to the different continents, but they live there as immigrants n hardly as coloniel masters of the land!!!

Such is the teaching of Confucious and other great philosophers who believe in benevolence & buddhism, taosim. Not that I have the true meaning of buddishm n taoism, not that I ever studied that but i duno... thats how i make sense of it. ChineSe people are just born to benevolent and peace loving! I mean, not like Chinese people created gas chambers or genocides????

it was fun talking to him.

& I finally had my long awaited appraisal. I had honestly told my boss that i have intention to leave simply because i do not want work in maple city. I superduper hope with all my heart that i will receive a call next week. But anyway... with or without good news, the manager will still email n update me. That's a sensible gesture which unfortunately isnt done by most hr personnel. heh.

i have to say i am very impressed by CV's regular printer. The amt of commitment n service level really earns him a thumb up. So that how u can afford to charge a premium for a mass , non differenciate product. SERVICE! Deliverying color proof at 10pm to clients' place is a regular trip that he makes. Helping clients complete super short timeline is a help he will offer. I'd like to think of him as a friend, cause he gives me good advice. Sometimes, i think our conversations are funny because we always want to clarify what capacity are we speaking in? Is it the professional business-client relationship or just plain friendship?

Anyway i am not sure if i wanna be so committed to work as he is. Till now, I still think work isnt life. life is more than work... n i dont wanna work so hard.

So i have to find a job whereby it isnt work to me. It is just part of my life. A necessary part which I will look forward n cant live without.

Maybe my supplier found it.

And if there is good supplier, there is bound to be bad supplier. Or maybe suppliers which i just cant clique. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ. it took me 5 sms, asking for the same thing & yet I still couldnt have my answer! So whats wrong with me OR her????

Finally went thru my appraisal & i've got a 10 percent increment, due to the expanded job scope! whoo-hooooo!! Its the second time that I've got a 10 percent increment. i am lucky cause i am always landed in company who believes in the potential that i have and wants to nurture. Thank you.