Friday, March 27, 2009
simone,aly & me
simone, alyssa & eve. aka. yufen, kaiting, huibee. hm. how times changed... our names. haha. but i think the person inside us has stayed the same....
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
negative
i am so negative nowadays.
why why why. is it becoz i am having pms?????
my boss can tell i am feelin shitty. damm. why is she so good at looking n i am so bad at hiding...
why why why. is it becoz i am having pms?????
my boss can tell i am feelin shitty. damm. why is she so good at looking n i am so bad at hiding...
Saturday, March 21, 2009
work reflection 2
positioning is a diplomatic way of lying/saving face/appearing good. it is vital in my line of work. i think my boss suit this line of work so damm much. a plastic bag is beneath her. a plastic bag is above me. she will put something in paper bag just so it has a high class feel regardless if inside that bag, lays a bag of chips worth $1.50.
she is a great mentor who teaches and guides me through the intricacies n soft skills of the professional world.
then i realize how inadequate i am. it's about positioning ... its abt maintaning image. maybe its becoz i dun care a damm abt this place. so i heck la. but damm. this is just so unpro of me!! i know. i am rational enough to know i am at fault. but i am sick of myself if i have lie and act like i believe it.
i take no pride in having an acting job done well.
that is so tiresome. that is something i dont do well! though that might be self fullfilling prohency. it drains my soul to think of lying as positioning. BLEAH.
i feel like i am a white paper which gets constantly stained with dirt and grime and soot when i am working.
maybe deep down. i just dun wanna grow up. and i havin trouble coming to grips with growing up.
she is a great mentor who teaches and guides me through the intricacies n soft skills of the professional world.
then i realize how inadequate i am. it's about positioning ... its abt maintaning image. maybe its becoz i dun care a damm abt this place. so i heck la. but damm. this is just so unpro of me!! i know. i am rational enough to know i am at fault. but i am sick of myself if i have lie and act like i believe it.
i take no pride in having an acting job done well.
that is so tiresome. that is something i dont do well! though that might be self fullfilling prohency. it drains my soul to think of lying as positioning. BLEAH.
i feel like i am a white paper which gets constantly stained with dirt and grime and soot when i am working.
maybe deep down. i just dun wanna grow up. and i havin trouble coming to grips with growing up.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
out of the box
today i was seriously quite pissed off and feeling even more incredulous at the turn of event.
person A says we cant move on with THIS creative visual. we should do something OPPOSITE. now the thing with creative visual is such that it is bloody subjective. its not a maths/science arena whereby everything is black n white.
the incredulous thing is person A decides that we will move on with THIS creative visual, after degrading comments abt it, and after we spend one and a half months working on the opposite with her comments in mind.
creative visuals are highly subjective simply due to the ancient saying that Beauty is in the eye of the stupid beholder. n what is the use of askin the people in the office to take a vote- they are not anywhere near being near the representative sample groups.
putting myself in person A's shoes, i can just imagine that she feels she has hired a bunch of inadequate people who dont excel in their chosen field of specialty. yah, well. eh, maybe thats becoz u get monkeys for paying peanuts. but thats beside the point. everyone who is hired nowadays is hired to produce $100 worth of value with payment of $10.
i dont have the midas touch. i admit defeat and admit that i am inside the box.
really what is so bad with inside the box. esp when the box doesnt have a leaking roof. n also, who decides who is outside n who is inside. who decides who has good creative and who has lousy creative.
havent u heard of dont change anything that is not broken. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
oh yah. i am stupid. I AM SO SO SO SO FARKING BLOODY STUPID.
finally someone gimme a call after me sending the 20th resume. n i told the person i cant take leave n reading in between the lines translate to : I am unwilling to fake a MC for the interview. haix.
person A says we cant move on with THIS creative visual. we should do something OPPOSITE. now the thing with creative visual is such that it is bloody subjective. its not a maths/science arena whereby everything is black n white.
the incredulous thing is person A decides that we will move on with THIS creative visual, after degrading comments abt it, and after we spend one and a half months working on the opposite with her comments in mind.
creative visuals are highly subjective simply due to the ancient saying that Beauty is in the eye of the stupid beholder. n what is the use of askin the people in the office to take a vote- they are not anywhere near being near the representative sample groups.
putting myself in person A's shoes, i can just imagine that she feels she has hired a bunch of inadequate people who dont excel in their chosen field of specialty. yah, well. eh, maybe thats becoz u get monkeys for paying peanuts. but thats beside the point. everyone who is hired nowadays is hired to produce $100 worth of value with payment of $10.
i dont have the midas touch. i admit defeat and admit that i am inside the box.
really what is so bad with inside the box. esp when the box doesnt have a leaking roof. n also, who decides who is outside n who is inside. who decides who has good creative and who has lousy creative.
havent u heard of dont change anything that is not broken. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
oh yah. i am stupid. I AM SO SO SO SO FARKING BLOODY STUPID.
finally someone gimme a call after me sending the 20th resume. n i told the person i cant take leave n reading in between the lines translate to : I am unwilling to fake a MC for the interview. haix.
Monday, March 09, 2009
rainbows n laughter
there was a huge rainbow ...one week ago. do you manage to see it? its been so so long since i witness such a bright and huge one. 
those who dun need to take photo or be taken photo of professionally, can just be a regular cam-whore!
hm. never though i would witness a lingerie shot too! model: maxine photographer: KK. venue:hotel re! the bed: bery nice & soft & alluring. hahaha.
it was a pretty cool experience to see the (semi) pros do their stuff-even tho i was watching at the side.
those who dun need to take photo or be taken photo of professionally, can just be a regular cam-whore! i love them! & i guess we dunno where to look.
i love her singing as well. very very nice. & i think she is very very pretty too.
the past week, i was really being an immature kid @ work. n i totally understand it was stupid & uncalled for. my bf helped me realize first & foremost. i hope its not too late to realize it. & i am on my way to being a true blue pro!
i love her singing as well. very very nice. & i think she is very very pretty too.
the past week, i was really being an immature kid @ work. n i totally understand it was stupid & uncalled for. my bf helped me realize first & foremost. i hope its not too late to realize it. & i am on my way to being a true blue pro!
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