=(????

i am NOT lookin forward to camp cause i am scared of what could go wrong.

the pessimist in me rears it big, fat, ugly head once again. yesh, i do get scared. more scared than anticipation.

to the powers above, help mi to enjoy this camp, will ya?


the feelin of being scared is becoming more and more often. since when did i become so afraid of ... things? y cant i just go ahead and chase after what i want... initiative~, i thought i had you in me.

in the end, practicality wins. the cons definately deter me from doing what i hoped to do.... there will always be things i will never say... never do.