is it good that i realize?
i realize that i am not cut out for full time work n part time study. night time is not the most condusive for me. i am so ... procastinating towards studying.i rather comb my hair, stare at tv, sit on toilet , play msn, blog(such as now) rather than look at my notes. knowing full well the more i procastinate, the less time i have to memorise my notes.
random thoughts...
you know, love can be such a scary thing? it can change people so thoroughly. it pushes them to do things they didnt originally set out to do, with a crazed, fierce look in their eyes whether they know it or not. it. their emotions are not balanced. they are hurt too deep. and it just make everything scary abt them at that single moment when they had forgotten to keep their emotions in check.
so what do one do when he/she has fallen out of love? and not fall into an exteme way of dealing with it? i.e how do you refrain from committing suicide and other forms of self abuse? when u dumped cruelly out of love, broken up from the some1 u wanted wholeheartedly to be with?
how do you be happy again? how do you refrain from talking abt the same person years and years later?
wounds on the flesh can heal. how do the heart and soul heal?
how do you stop to smell the flowers and learn how to be happy again without the love of that of man and woman? which is the one thing u never crave more for.
maybe some1 should study the heart n prescribe some hormones to make the heart feel better so that poeple can crawl their way out of perpeptual heartache just like aspirin make headache go away.