i just kept nursing bad premonitions. regarding... just about everything. its awful not knowing. knowledge is power unfotch, i duno whether its for my good that i dunno anything.
trying to be calm, keep cool. and dont lose my head.
move forward with my initiative. take control. take the lead. if only my guts can override my brain. ArGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.